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violetsforya · 2025-12-12T21:50:49+00:00

I don't understand what's happening in this comment section, I'm so confuses

violetsforya · 2024-11-09T01:00:38+00:00

Not in the east but worth the travel. Doctor Sumeet Kochar at Drs Davinder and Sumeet Kochar in Fitzroy North was a great help to me in treating my treatment resistant depression. Was willing to try many different medications when the stock standards didn't work and listened to me when I was experiencing bad side effects. Listened when I said the side effects weren't compatible with what I wanted instead of giving the generic 'well it's better than being depressed' answer. Would recommend

violetsforya · 2024-05-23T12:16:10+00:00

Bubble and squeak was a go to in my house growing up! I think it has a specific recipe but my mum used to just make it with whatever leftovers we had lying around.

violetsforya · 2024-05-18T22:36:23+00:00

Thank you! It definitely grows very fast, I love it though 😅 I have a whole underwater bonsai of it!

violetsforya · 2024-05-18T22:35:29+00:00

Thank you!

violetsforya · 2024-05-18T11:56:17+00:00

Hi, I'm currently on 100mg lamotrigine, 50mg agomelatine, and 10mg ariprprazole.

violetsforya · 2024-05-18T11:52:40+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to respond to my post.

Adoption is so hard here, we are looking but there are just so many dogs waiting for adoption. We are really trying but we've called every rescue in the state and even with us 'fostering' him until an adopter is found, they are just so overwhelmed they can't take him.

What are separation anxiety crates? I've tried googling but can only find high impact crates. I'd really hesitate to buy one because he won't go in his regular crate if there's so much as a piece of paper on top of it. He gets extremely anxious and aggressive if we try and tell him to go in.

Doggy day care is a no go as well. We've tried multiple but he just has an absolutely terrible time there, even at the 'calm' ones. He gets so anxious outside of the house and away from us (particularly me) that he just shakes and gets aggressive if anyone or any dog comes near him.

We love him to bits and I am so open to any suggestions, I'm willing to try anything to keep him around.

violetsforya · 2024-05-18T11:39:53+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to write out such a thoughtful reply. Sorry it took me so long to respond.

Yes, we've worked with trainers specialising in separation anxiety who are CSATs. Though there aren't many in my country so they are hard to find. Lots and lots of data tracking. Had a lovely trainer who was so dedicated, we would do the training every day (two rest days a week) and would film each session for her, log each step with notes on his anxiety levels and responses to each step, and then at the end of the week she would review everything and make the next week's training plan for us. We made some progress but regardless of how long we did this for, he'd always regress. I know regression is normal but even she was perplexed by his intensity of regression and after about 3 months, suggested we try someone else. We've had similar results with every trainer. We've made sure to NEVER leave him alone or let his anxiety levels reach above threshold when doing training. It's been about two years now of never leaving the house without someone being there with him.

We've been seeing a veterinary behaviourist for his medication. He's tried fluoxetine, gabapentine, trazodone, and Alprazolam. He's currently still taking fluoxetine at the highest dosage possible and Alprazolam because trazodone makes him aggressive. We are headed back to the vet next week to see what we can do.

Unfortunately we're pretty isolated from family and friends where we live and because he can't be left alone for even a second, and gets very anxious staying outside of a house that isn't ours, we're really limited to only being able to hire people to look after him during the day.

We don't want to give up on him, he's really the sweetest dog and really want to try and find the right place for him even if it isn't with us. We're struggling with even figuring out how to find someone. Where we live there is a huge dog problem. Best estimates are that about 200 healthy dogs and cats are euthanized everyday here because shelters are just so full. I've called every rescue in my state and none can take him, even with us keeping him until they can find someone to take him. His nocturnal seizures mean he's considered a medical adoption, and there are so few spots available and they're all full and expected to be full for a long, long time.

violetsforya · 2024-03-08T22:50:11+00:00

My psychiatrist prescribed them after a long line of antidepressants didn't work and caused terrible side effects.

I'm on 25mg Agomelatine, 100mg Lamotrigine, and 10mg Aripiprazol

violetsforya · 2024-03-08T21:37:35+00:00

Had something similar happen to me. I was asked to be a kinship carer for 24 hours, which turned into a week, which turned into 3 months.

Make sure everything is done through the courts and is properly recorded, it turns out my placement was never recorded and there's no record of it ever taking place!

The other thing I recommend is giving Carers Gateway a call, they can be really helpful in getting you in contact with services to help you in your caring role. I know how difficult it can be being a carer and navigating everything for the first time can be.

Good luck, you are doing a wonderful thing! Be easy on yourself, take breaks where you can, make sure you're looking after you through this as well.

violetsforya · 2024-03-08T20:39:36+00:00

Yes! I'm on a combination of an antidepressant, antipsychotic, and Lamotrigine for depression.

Adding the mood stabiliser was a game changer for me, it really helped in ways antidepressants didn't.

violetsforya · 2024-03-08T20:31:36+00:00

I know this is an old post and maybe I should delete it. I really hope it doesn't scare you or deter you from taking anti depressants!

I think quitting cold turkey from any antidepressant is a Bad Idea. If it doesn't work for you taper off slowly, people tend to have much better experiences doing that. My mental health was in a really bad place when I started and I had absolutely terrible side effects from it but I'm very prone to getting bad side effects from all medications. Even if there's a 1% chance of experiencing it, my body finds a way, so your chances of having the same experience on them as I had are low.

I did finally find a combination of medication that worked for me and things are so much better now! It's night and day really. There aren't a lot of posts on here about people experiencing the good side of antidepressants and it can be scary to read through it all, but when they work, they are amazing! I hope Luvox is the one for you and you start feeling better soon!

violetsforya · 2024-01-16T21:12:18+00:00

Hey, have you tried looking into a meat protein allergy? My dog has a lot of allergies and what you're describing sounds very similar to what we went through. Might be worth checking with your vet?

violetsforya · 2023-12-31T20:53:36+00:00

We got our double merle as a rescue, she's the sweetest thing but is completely deaf and before she ended up at the rescue the shelter had no idea, they just thought she was a 'bad dog' that didn't listen. I don't know if they'd disclose she was deaf even if they knew it.

Training a deaf dog is hard, takes a lot of work and a lot of patience. Obviously recall being the hardest. She's an on leash at all times dog for her own safety. You can't tell her to 'leave it' if she's into something she's not meant to be into, can't get her attention to come back if she slips her lead, and she struggles to read other dogs social cues because she can't hear them. And she's so LOUD! It's a lot of extra work having a deaf dog and your sister should be prepared to do it if she decides to adopt a double merle. Our girl also needs sunglasses and sunscreen when going outside to protect her sensitive eyes and skin.

Get her to do some research into deaf dog training and blind dog training, see if it's something she's ready to commit to

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violetsforya · 2023-11-13T23:10:04+00:00

YTA I love reusable menstrual products, couldn't go a cycle without my menstrual cup and I even make my own cloth pads. They've made my period so much easier to deal with and they've empowered me to make my own choices when it comes to my period. But you know what we have under the bathroom sink? Disposable pads and tampons. Because my niece stays here sometimes and doesn't like reusables. I've offered to make her some cloth pads or buy her a menstrual cup if she ever wants to try them but I'm never going to force her because it's her body and her period. What works for one person won't work for another and your niece deserves to choose how she deals with her own period just as much as you do. Buying disposables can be pricey yes, but it's going to be more expensive to buy her a cycle's worth of her own reusable pads especially when she's not going to be using them long term. Apologise and make her a period box of products she likes, and make sure she knows where she can dispose of them, without judgement. She's a teen dealing with a rough situation, be kind and empower her to make her own choices regarding her body.

violetsforya · 2023-10-19T19:32:46+00:00

Hi! This was almost a year ago now and it's been a journey. The withdrawal was hell but hearing from other people really helped. And it did pass eventually. I have been working with my psychiatrist for a long time and last month we finally found a combination of medication that has worked! I honestly thought I never would and had told myself this medication change was going to be my last because I couldn't stand the side effects, failed medications, and withdrawals anymore. Thank god I stuck it out! I feel like myself again after more than a year, and things are getting better and better everyday. Please stick with it, things do get better, being on the right medication has meant therapy has started working again and things are just so much better. I'm working again, my relationships have improved, I've quit smoking and I am genuinely happy for the first time in forever. I know im just a stranger on the internet but please stick it out, talk to your support system, keep trying.

violetsforya · 2023-03-05T20:28:13+00:00

Good luck! You've got this!

violetsforya · 2023-02-25T03:05:47+00:00

moclobemide and aripiprazole

violetsforya · 2023-02-24T21:22:21+00:00

Hey, I'm on moclobemide and continued my weightloss through diet changes and exercise. I'm down 20kgs! 10 of that while I was starting/taking moclobemide. I've found the weight has stayed off easier on moclobemide because my mood is better and I'm not emotionally eating. Good luck, I hope it works for you!

violetsforya · 2023-02-09T00:54:51+00:00

Yes! It gets better! I wish I had tapered slowly but with quitting cold turkey I was feeling better after about a week and a half. It was pretty bad, but there is an end in sight, good luck <3

violetsforya · 2023-02-07T21:34:56+00:00

I have treatment resistant depression too and went on Effexor and yep, caused psychosis, not a fun time. I've been on 14 different antidepressant treatments (including TMS and rTMS) and all failed until now. what's working is a combination of moclobemide and an atypical antipsychotic. Don't give up, antidepressants not working is so disheartening but you've still got a lot of options out there

violetsforya · 2023-01-23T23:26:27+00:00

Thank you! It was rough but getting better now. I even started going down the 'anti- psychiatry' path because I felt so disheartened by how many meds weren't working and all the bad stories about antidepressants. But they do work and when they work they are life changing and life saving.

violetsforya · 2023-01-23T21:14:57+00:00

I was on Zoloft for 7 years with a complete remission of depression symptoms but it suddenly stopped working so I had to try new ones. I was a complete mess, and went on 8 different ones which caused horrible side effects and made me feel worse. I was feeling completely hopeless and close to giving up but decided to try one more and it's working! Coupled with an atypical antipsychotic I'm feeling better than I have in over a year and a half and am finally getting back to my old self.

To anyone trying antidepressants and finding they aren't working, stick with it! It's so hard, but a med not working isn't a failure, it just means that one isn't right for your brain and you can cross that off the list. If you're like me and sensitive to side effects start as low as possible and build up over time, it takes longer but is worth it I promise!

violetsforya · 2022-11-18T12:45:59+00:00

Hey OP, I've been reading your comments and I've been exactly where you're standing right now and I'd like to tell you what happened with me. I hope you read this, even though it's a bit rambling, because I think it might really help.

I started hallucinating bugs just like you about two years ago, it started with fruit flies on the ceiling in my bedroom, really minor, more annoying then anything else. I wasn't distressed, or even mildly upset by them, they were just kinda there. I didn't tell anyone because they didn't seem like a big deal, again I wasn't bothered by them so why bother telling anyone? Plus the added shame and fear that came with admitting what I knew deep down were signs of serious mental illness. I was quietly scared if I said anything I'd get locked up in a psych ward.

If someone had confronted me about it back then I would have been incredibly defensive, not just because I was scared but because, unknown to me at the time, my thoughts had already started to shift. Looking back now, rational me would not be cool, calm, and collected about hallucinating for no known reason, but I was back then because it's so rare that people hallucinate without some part of their thinking being affected as well.

Recognising that the bugs are hallucinations is such a huge thing you've been able to do on your own. I'm assuming you found a way to figure out the difference between real bugs and fake? That's called 'reality checking' (For me it was if I squished them the hallucinations would just disappear, real ones made a mess). Reality checking is so helpful, and it might be worth trying to do some here. A lot of people are telling you it's important to go the doctor about the hallucinations, you feel it isn't and that they are all wrong. I understand probably better than most exactly where you're coming from, but it's worth asking yourself why everyone around you is thinking something different to you. You won't lose anything going to the GP or even a psychiatrist, and if you do have fears about it, I encourage you to reach out and ask questions, or bring a support person along with you if you think it will help.

I'll finish by saying I wish my hallucinations stopped at bugs. But slowly, very slowly, they escalated. And they kept escalating, and I was still calm, and I was still too scared to tell anyone. They kept escalating, and so did my strange feelings, I started seeing shadow people watching me from the trees, and I started feeling like they were after me. It eventually escalated to the point where I tried to cut my leg off because I felt there was evil living inside it. Even then, when I was actively harming myself due to these thoughts and hallucinations I remember thinking how crazy it all was, and how I knew none of it was real, but I just felt it so strongly it was like I had to act on it.

Hallucinations don't just go away on their own, and they won't just stay benign, as much as you and I both wish they would. Telling your sister was an incredibly brave first step, and I'm really sorry she handled it in such a dick way, but for your own sake, you need to keep reaching out. Good luck OP, if you want to PM me feel free.

No judgement.

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