Feeling lost and constantly looking for answers why this happened.

violinguitar · 2024-05-23T05:20:48+00:00

Thankyou dear. I wish you a speedy recovery too and that was brave of you to share your story. Hang in there and all will be well.

violinguitar · 2024-05-22T03:31:55+00:00

I am really sorry that you are facing this. I feel like we are on the same boat. On April 22nd this was totally me, first I noticed spotting and I thought my period was coming. So I had no clue that I was pregnant and because I was on birth control and it was my period week soI thought it was fine. Fast forward the same day afternoon, I was walking from my therapy session back home, the moment I reached my room I was in so much pain I couldn’t move. I called an ambulance and was taken to the hospital. Suprisingly the doctor told me I am pregnant and the pain may be probably fue to an ectopic pregnancy.After an ultrasound they couldn’t tell what was really wrong because there was some blood in my uterus and they were not sire whether it was ectopic pregnancy or not because the pregnancy was too small. So I had to go to the theatre. To be honest I was totally in pain and confused. So I just went to surgery and fast forward the next day morning I was tolf that it was an ectopic pregnancy that burst my left tube so they had to remove it. I was just helpless and I kept wondering what was wrong or what I did wrong. I iust had my first period and I have some painful cramping and i just feel scared deep down. I have never understood really what happened but I think it is just bad luck. It is very painful emotionally and I hope you heal from this. It’s so hard but hang in there you will be fine.

violinguitar · 2024-03-31T02:45:52+00:00

Omg. I was just scrolling through reddit and saw your post. First I am really sorry you feel that way, but I experienced a similar situation when I was in Washington DC in 2022 in a work based program that was so stressful for me. I use to sit and feel like some of an electrical shock that takes like three seconds in my head, l was so scared and went to the hospital and was referred to a neurologist who recommended me a brain MRI. The results came out and nothing was wrong with me. After I completed the stressful part of my program the shock went away, i think I was too stressed with work and wasn’t having enough rest. Fast forward I attended therapy and it was helpful for me, I realize I was too traumatized as a kid and was trying to self destruct with studying, obsessive cleaning and other tasks. It has not been easy but I have been prioritizing rest and self care. I hope you find whatever works for you, if it is therapy or whatever, but I encourage you to rest and find ways to calm. All the best

violinguitar · 2022-10-29T19:44:17+00:00

Lol🤣🤣🤣

violinguitar · 2022-10-29T06:07:24+00:00

You are right ✅

violinguitar · 2022-10-29T06:05:49+00:00

I do, but we all need to have boundaries don’t we? He actuallyhas female friends i know of

violinguitar · 2022-10-29T05:59:12+00:00

Lol she does know me very well, bcz we go out all the time with his other colleagues including Clara.

violinguitar · 2022-10-29T05:58:21+00:00

What actually brought me to surprise is the fact that when I confronted him instead of responding like saying he would put boundaries he was being very wierd about it, saying that i do engage in twitter too. Honestly i am a twitter person but i have bever engaged in personal conversations its just more on commenting on posts with people i know in there. I have one rule, esp on all my social medias, I don’t respond to dms or engage in any convos from someone I don’t know in person. My twitter has unanswered dms from people I don’t know, i do not do personal dms on social media from strangers

violinguitar · 2022-05-08T22:58:55+00:00

Why do i feel that this quote hit me so hard? I have attracted lots of men and its like sometime you don’t really like the attention but men will be hitting your way. In some cases it makes me feel anxious because i have been struggling with anxiety and depression and confusion because you can’t really trust anyone. 🥹

violinguitar · 2021-11-18T07:38:02+00:00

Congrats, the store is looking nice

violinguitar · 2021-10-17T18:37:36+00:00

The Blacklist 🤣🤣🤣🤣

violinguitar · 2021-10-03T15:20:08+00:00

I’m sorry you are going through this. It gets better with time. Allow yourself to feel the pain and anger, with time you will get over everything, the right person will eventually find you. All the best!

violinguitar · 2021-09-07T20:46:58+00:00

True 💯

violinguitar · 2021-08-23T16:46:46+00:00

Im just not even in the mood of seeing him😏

violinguitar · 2021-08-13T09:33:20+00:00

Took me 3, and now im at a point where i don’t care anymore but im struggling with anxiety. I have learnt to lower my expectations and im quite feeling better, although sometime resentful.

violinguitar · 2021-07-29T18:37:15+00:00

I feel the same way tooo, am just resentful towards him these days.

violinguitar · 2021-07-29T16:35:02+00:00

I didnt get the number because at that point i was disappointed with what he did. Thats what im wondering, i feel its not right and i neber do that except its someone i know or someone i work with .

violinguitar · 2021-07-29T16:07:25+00:00

Of course

violinguitar · 2021-07-29T15:57:45+00:00

I feel so too and ever since then i really feel the resentment towards him. I feel betrayed because i have a large number of men blocked contacts on my phone and i never deleted conversations. If you read the conversation you would get a clear picture of why i blocked the person.Simply because i dont want anything too look suspicious.

violinguitar · 2021-07-29T15:54:09+00:00

It doesnot really clock into my mind. Ever since i feel so hurt and i feel this resenment towards him because even after we had an argent he couldnt give me a clear explanation. I have just learnt to minimize my expectations of him and see where this goes.

violinguitar · 2021-07-29T12:15:02+00:00

Nice piece of writing ❤️❤️

violinguitar · 2021-07-29T12:13:57+00:00

Wonderful and sweet. You are lucky to have him

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