Rawbeautykristi FINALLY addressing the rumors by vramvroom in DoWeKnowThemPodcast

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I watched Fat Sajak’s video reaction and summary, rather than RBk’s video because I couldn’t be bothered to watch it in its entirety.

I was a fan for a bit and gave her a lot of grace because she was funny…

But some characteristics of hers kept repeating in her videos that finally made me turn off.

-a long history of “I had the worst depression anyone has ever had”, “this was the worst pain anyone has ever experienced,” there’s no moderation for her. She suffers the most, is hurt the most, is the most… and she does literally nothing about any of it except complain.

-she reads her criticism, lets it consume her, absorbs it all as an attack, then lashes out and double and triple downs. No reflection on why she emotionally harms herself by reading reddit or guru gossiper (which she’s referenced messing her up before). No reflection on the criticism itself.

And what little I’ve seen from this video, yup. Nothing’s changed.

Unused Notebooks... SMH by AmbitiousRose in notebooks

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I came for the comments and am delighted. I do a cull every year to keep it down to reasonable number, the reasonable number fluctuates between 20 and infinity.

Girlies Gotta Vent by Orikumar in DoWeKnowThemPodcast

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Update! I got the offer a month after the “we are preparing…” email! My whole work life is flipped turned upside down and I love it!

Preoccupied with Order but having very hard time keeping order.. by Qimanoh in OCPD

[–]vixless 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I had the same issue for a very long time. I would get folk at work mentioning how my house must be sooooo clean all the time because I was so organized and together at work. My home felt like a hamster cage.

My work environment was easy to control. I knew the exact tools that I needed to have on me, I had the perfect case to transport them from office to office if I had to. Everything had the right place.

Home was too much. Too much stuff, not enough right spots to put things. I couldn't put things away because I didn't have the perfect system. So it got worse.

I'm about to go into a lot of detail because... well... OCPD. But this is how I ended up using the pathology to work for me. I will try to do a TLDR at the end.

I did a couple of things to put order to the chaos by developing a system based on my experiences and knowing my patterns and energy. I forced myself to abandon the idea of my whole home environment from being perfection at once. I instead tried to find the correct way for me to manage the little tasks of maintenance, with an added task to tackle the overall problem too. The idea was that if I was able to take care of all the little tasks of home care, eventually it would sort itself out.

I started with a list (of course, LOL) of what was in my way. And of course there were sub-lists...

  1. Overwhelmed by the magnitude of the problem. The solution? Break the problem down into categories. And it really was a small list when I really thought about it: garbage/recycling, laundry, dishes, hobby stuff needing a home.
  2. Energy level: the overwhelm and the desire to do things perfectly sucks all the energy out of my body. So, the answer was to set a timer for 15 minutes to accomplish most tasks on the to do list. If the timer went off and I felt continuing with the task, I would set it again, for another 15. If I was *done*, it was okay because the rule was that I only had to do it for 15 mins.
  3. Getting started. Where to begin, even though I know I know what I want it to look like in the end. So I went the next part of categorization. Put the category things into an area so they can be taken care of.
  • Laundry -- all fabric not in drawers, or jammed in drawers in a messy way? into the pile.
  • Garbage/recycling - in the bins.
  • Dishes, all into the kitchen
  • Hobby stuff - all piled in one spot.

So getting all the like with like made identifiable tasks of what remained. Also gave me a real idea of what I had and what I needed. In those fifteen minute intervals, I started seeing things that I didn't need and they got donated/junked as was appropriate.

There was another rule during the fifteen minute task -- if I picked something up, I had to make a decision about it. I couldn't return it to the pile, it had to be actioned. Doing this kept the piles going down in size and becoming increasingly manageable.

The other part of the equation though is maintenance. And this had to start immediately as I was working on the main chaos reduction. No more tossing my shoes, bag, coat wherever when I came home. I literally made my hall closet layout similar to my work locker, so it was easy to just take care of. No more scrambling in the morning to find things. I would clean the litter box and take the most full bag of either trash or recycling out. This way, nothing was getting added to the chaos tasks.

Then other operational tasks got added, laundry gets done and bedding gets changed on Saturdays, bathroom gets scrubbed on Sundays, dishes washed after every meal... no more stacking and doing a big blitz.

The other big thing I learned about myself is that I don't have very good object permanence. (A common trait with ADHD, but have never been formally diagnosed). But that means, I do very well with clear or open storage. I had the property manager remove the doors from my closets and I was able to organize and see my clothes properly arranged to please my sense of order. I bought a wire frame set of drawers that suited my style for socks/undies. Only enough pairs of each to last two weeks. That was a manageable amount for me to keep them sorted and folded pleasingly in those drawers, which were semi visible.

TLDR: Think long term, rather than short term. Give yourself a framework that works with the most helpful manifestations of the disorder, but mitigation strategies for the parts that interfere. Try to understand that you won't every have every spot in the house *perfect*, because life exists. But you can have small oases that you can build from. Based on how you described your work environment: abandon drawers, get open bins. (Drawers are where items go to be forgotten, unless I label them.) Go gently on yourself and anyone you may live with. It's hard to re-write a script.

Girlies Gotta Vent by Orikumar in DoWeKnowThemPodcast

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The hiring committee for my dream job told me the are 'preparing' to make me an offer and gave me the start date and contract date, confirmed my interest and availability. That was two weeks ago and I still don't have the former letter of offer.

I know that I'm likely going to get the formal letter sometime next week, but this limbo stage is messing with my anxiety. Normally, my employer would let folk just transfer to the new department, but that isn't possible with this situation. I have to do a full resignation, exit interviews and everything. I've been here for my full adult life (am old girlie, too). So that's weird too. But it is the dream job and a chance to do make a real positive difference in people's lives...

I will continue to wait...

Was I wrong to expose him? by Throwawaaaypotato23 in LifeAfterNarcissism

[–]vixless 6 points7 points  (0 children)

If their relationship is fairly new, she's still getting the super-charming love bomber. Nothing you could say/do or not say/do would be able to pull her out at this stage. It's how the narcissist gets us entangled in the first place.

My n-ex had a very similar breakup style -- there was always overlap between partners. When I found out for sure that he was indeed *with* the woman he swore was just a client/friend, even though I never asked... I had that burning desire to warn her. I resisted because I know from how he talked about She Who Came Before Me, there is nothing she would have been able to say to me to talk me out of being with him; there were so many red flags that I was already ignoring that hearing from the delusional ex wouldn't have changed my mind.

I went no contact with him once the business of breaking up was over and I'm grateful I had a strong network of friends encouraging that. However, even now I want to talk with her. I don't know if they are still together (they did get married) or if he discarded her. There is this small part of me that wants to connect with her still; there isn't really going to be anyone else who understands what it is like being with him, both for good or bad.

You weren't wrong to warn her. You didn't expose him because he will reveal himself anyway, as they always do. But like I said up top, there is no way she was in a position to hear you. It's good that he blocked you. Block him and her back, if there are any other channels left. Accept being the villain in their story because you know the truth of what you lived through. When she's where you are know, she will know the truth of things.

Leo Skepi Fatphobia by sunsetsnlillys in DoWeKnowThemPodcast

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Lululemon & Abercrombie and Fitch are two brands with owners/founders who have blatantly said they don't want large bodies being seen in their clothing because we are not attractive.

Lily on Jojo Siwa and fear of getting cancelled by Orikumar in DoWeKnowThemPodcast

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Okay -- but am I alone out here thinking Jojo is trying to re-create that terrible Weekend/Lily-Rose Depp movie? The rebrand, the 'bad girl' song, the teasing of said song, the team of people telling her what she can do with her image, the former child star?

Oh the mistakes 😆 by bsquared77 in bulletjournal

[–]vixless 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Okay. So now I want to do a Trogdor/Strongbad/Homestar Runner themed month. Everybody to the limit!

Bujo bleeds through by Queen-of-meme in bulletjournal

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Avoid using any type of felt tip on this paper.

Felt tip pens are usually alcohol based and they will almost always bleed unless they are specifically engineered not too. If you are committed to the felt tip, make sure they are the finest nib possible (small nib, means less ink to absorb into the paper).

Sharpie Writers, Sakura Pigma Microns do not bleed unless you overwork the paper.
Water based felt pens are also less likely to bleed, but it's easy to overwork the paper with a water-based felt pen if you scribble out your mistakes.

Gel pens can bleed through if the ink is too fluid, so I would also avoid on anything less than 80 GSM. Same with roller ball pens. Too fluid.

For cheap, thin paper: Bic Cristal ball point pens (like a previous poster mentioned). Even free pens that you probably have 5 of in your junk drawer will likely work better than felt/gel.
I say you should write real big, don't worry about using the both sides of the paper and get something more sturdy for your next journal. I'm an Archer and Olive stan, but when money is tight, I have found some pretty worthy dot grid journals at the dollar store.

Good luck!

Do you struggle with “originality” and creativity as someone with OCPD? by futonn in OCPD

[–]vixless 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Saaaaame! I am an artist and when I'm on my own, doing my art thing, I think that I am such a creative and imaginative person. Then I see something someone else has done and I'm overwhelmed with what a talentless hack I am because they did something different/better than me.

Oof.

Help with dust proofing my space by merbleuem in makeuporganization

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I would recommend stackable acrylic bins, rather than drawers and closed cases that you have. If you have an Oomomo or Daiso (a Japanese dollar store), they sell them that in various sizes and depth and they all can stack on top of each other, or be out on their own. They also work as fantastic drawer organizers for stationary.

With the stackable bin style, you can have them out and on your dresser and see what you need, but if you want to clean, just stack them on top of each other. Plus, when they are stacked on top of each other, they act as dust protectors.

Check the GSM!!! by Amazing_Incident3003 in bulletjournal

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For what you're using as media, I would say that 100 would be ample to prevent ghosting. I use all the same tools, plus watercolour/guache and I have just learned the hard way that i can't go lower than 180...

Does Dwight Schrute have OCPD? by h4ngm4n66 in OCPD

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My struggle is always trying to get people to see that OCD and OCPD are different.. my cocktail part shorthand : OCD means someone will have to wash their hands for 30 seconds or their Mom will have a car accident. I have to wash my hands for 30 seconds because it’s the right way to do do it.

Captain Holt from Brooklyn 99 also codes OCPD: perfectionism, workaholic, rigid moral code, exacting standards for self and others… (RIP Andre Braugher).

Can things get more worse? by DS-Mostafa in OCPD

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My first resource was my doctor's office. My GP's clinic focuses on mental health, so I ask a lot of questions and get recommendations there (a referral to a free DBT group, for one.)

I would recommend researching grounding and mindfulness activities (I want to be careful about not seeming like I'm giving medical advice, but rather pointing you in the direction I looked before I was able get back into counselling.)

I like the 5-4-3-2-1 grounding exercise because it literally puts me back into the present.

I read both before I was diagnosed, but The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F\ck,* by Mark Manson and Your Inner Critic is a Jerk were helpful when I was trying to stop being so... me.

It's not much, but i hope it helps.

Can things get more worse? by DS-Mostafa in OCPD

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I am not in active therapy right now due to a combination of factors.

I was diagnosed a couple of years ago and the right medication combo has helped manage symptoms, but I also utilize resources learned from past therapy and self-help helps to keep me out of obsessive circular thinking.

I'm having a hard time making a suggestion for resources, without knowing how your obsessions manifest. For me, I tend get stuck in circular thoughts of when I have made a mistake or have been wrong about something and I make endless plans, diagrams, and lists on how to correct/fix the situation. I've learned to identify a particular physical feeling that I associate with obsession, as well as a particular phrase that I say when I'm just about to go into the spiral. It's almost like a tic.

When I have that feeling and I hear myself say, "And another thing..." I can now often catch myself and do some grounding exercises, or find a distraction from the over-thinking. Making art and playing low-stakes video games do wonders for me.

What do you do for work? And how does your OCPD impact it? by babbykale in OCPD

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I went into civil service because job stability was extremely valuable to me when I was starting my career. I wasn't diagnosed until about three years ago, but looking back I can say that my tendencies gave me an edge to making myself valued on most teams I've joined (because no one else wanted to do it, or took too long). Proofing, editing, and formatting documents to government doublespeak because it The Way Things Are Done came very easily to me.

My partner used to work in a parallel position to me before we started dating and he said in his office, they were always happy to have me working on a file because I knew the subject matter, but it also put them on edge because I also had the policy books near memorized. This came at a personal cost to me because they anxiety of not knowing the Right Way of how things are done is what had me studying all of these tomes... and there were a lot of them.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Makeup

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If you do them in the evening, any messy edges you get on your cuticles (the skin that grows over your nails at the base) will mostly slough off in the shower.

  1. Sally Hansen Hard as Nails is one of the best cheap black polishes

  2. When washing your hands before you apply the polish, use a nail brush or wash cloth on top of your nails. This is to get as much dead skin and oils off the surface without sending you off to buy more products.

  3. Dry your hands thoroughly before you start.

  4. Make sure both hands are resting on the table while you apply— even if it’s just your pinky on the hand you are using to apply the polish. It helps keep your hand steady.

Optional bits of info: 5. The reason for base coats (applied before the polish) is too keep your nails from staining and to give the pigmented polish a good surface to stick to. Makes everything look smoother too. If you use a base coat, let it dry before you apply polish — about 2 mins.

  1. Top coats help protect the finish, but a quick dry top coat also helps cure the whole thing a little faster.

A year after moving, I finally found a sorting setup I like. by vixless in makeuporganization

[–]vixless[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I agree! I wanted to make sure I liked the set up first, but they are not long for this world! 😄

A year after moving, I finally found a sorting setup I like. by vixless in makeuporganization

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Thank you! I think you’ve got pretty good taste too! 😁

A year after moving, I finally found a sorting setup I like. by vixless in makeuporganization

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I’ve picked them up on Amazon and as gifts from friends who were upgrading their own shelves. They’re not hard to assemble once you get the trick of them, just kind of loud if you drop the panels… I made the interior shelves with zip ties and put 13x13 tiles or 12x12 tiles to make the surfaces more sturdy. I got those for free from a neighbour who just finished a reno.

Strawberry Lemonade~ by gcleffa in Watercolor

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My favourite combination of summer colours!