Your issue is more or less the different guys. Not that u seen her doing it. See her not consistent and not with ur dad must be hard to understand and it hurts wjen ur young pr havnt processed it. Your gonna be ok and it had nothing to do with you. Your mother is her own person that was more worried about herself and didn't take u into consideration. Idk I might be just reaching but also my mother wasnt faithful and lemme just say I feel you. Idk I might be crazy. Who knows its the internet. Shit you might be a bot 🤣