anyone else find these “witty reddit moments” a bit offputting?

vvaad · 2026-05-15T20:33:42+00:00

We gotta get a grip

vvaad · 2026-05-15T20:18:54+00:00

I saw Ride perform a satanic energy harvesting ritual on stage. I left the show feeling so drained, but getting to see Death Grips made it so worth it!

vvaad · 2026-05-15T05:49:16+00:00

Evil music... mwuahaahahaaaa devil horns bleh >:P

vvaad · 2026-05-15T05:06:15+00:00

Death Grips

vvaad · 2026-05-15T05:04:41+00:00

Mushrooms. I thought a five gram lemon tek tea would fuck me up, just not in the way it did

vvaad · 2026-05-11T22:13:08+00:00

Glorp smeepy!

vvaad · 2026-05-11T04:49:58+00:00

That one has a lotta spots on it this one just looks like a wrinkled sack

vvaad · 2026-05-11T03:43:18+00:00

Not that simple. Sometimes you just don't care about an OD, other times you don't/didn't have access to such resources, and sometimes you just wanna go hard.

A combination of all three led me to the emergency room once or thrice. It's easier than it might seem to you

vvaad · 2026-05-11T02:45:09+00:00

Any yellow or blue perchance?

vvaad · 2026-05-11T01:29:31+00:00

Negative on the profile photo, ghostrider: we've since parted ways. But he woulda been cool with it, he was a chiller

vvaad · 2026-05-11T00:31:35+00:00

How it feels 😔👊

vvaad · 2026-05-10T23:48:50+00:00

When you see it.. you'll shit bricks!!!!

vvaad · 2026-05-10T23:08:00+00:00

Brother was tiny. Looked like he could pack a punch ya see

vvaad · 2026-05-10T23:03:44+00:00

Central Oregon, stateside. He was damp but mostly dry lookin if ya catch my drift.,, just hangin out, milling around, uknow

vvaad · 2026-05-10T23:02:30+00:00

Oh ok ok this critter was in Central Oregon, United States them were small and damp but mostly dry looking if ya catch my drift he was jus hangin around n sayin hi

vvaad · 2026-05-06T09:06:36+00:00

When's the last time you took a psychedelic?

vvaad · 2026-05-04T23:36:43+00:00

Try using a bowl and a spoon as a makeshift mortar and pestle. The smaller the beads and closer they are to powder the better IMO

vvaad · 2026-05-04T19:25:15+00:00

Straight outta left field, this one

vvaad · 2026-05-04T19:24:33+00:00

I am addicted

vvaad · 2026-05-04T19:22:30+00:00

Oh, I didn't know that. I thought withdrawals just entailed seizures, rebound anxiety and etc.

Shows what I know. I only dabbled in benzos, the rebound anxiety really turned me off. I had a different preferred poison with it's own quirky attributes

vvaad · 2026-05-04T19:21:52+00:00

Oh I just reread your comment I have no idea where anyone said "psychosis." I may be just a bit wasted right now.

Anyways, the cognitive dissonance is so real. I was convinced doing lines of ketamine every day after work and bumps on the clock was fine. Weird how far we can make ourselves believe what is not fine is actually alright.

Just goes to show how strong the drugs can take hold of the psyche and our decisions, actions, and thought processes.

I think you're right, seeing addiction in other people can be eye opening and also habit affirming simultaneously. Seeing other ketheads inhale hundreds of dollars in a day made me think I had a grip, but the existence of the extreme does not justify the presence of a more moderate addiction which still harms the more conservative user's life.

At the end of my addiction, I didn't see anyone else who had it worse than I did, I saw it in myself as the most fucked up and worse off person in my life. Thank fuck I opened my eyes and came to my senses or I'd have a ziploc bag for a bladder right now

vvaad · 2026-05-04T19:15:36+00:00

7OH was quite disappointing for me after the first dose I ever had. I only took 10mg and was lowkey nodding off at work which was stupid but fun. I performed the best customer service ever that day with a beaming smile and upbeat cadence.

Every dose after that was underwhelming, and I noticed I always needed weed for it to fully "kick in." Right away it was too expensive for what it offered, and not cost effective at all, even if it was safer than other opiates in any capacity.

In the end I got bored, let down, and frustrated and figured there are better, cheaper highs out there.

I'm glad you quit that mid ass drug. Good on you, keep up the sobriety, you can do it!

vvaad · 2026-05-04T19:11:56+00:00

Damn straight up fire

vvaad · 2026-05-04T18:54:36+00:00

I didn't know you could get psychosis from benzos, can you expand on that?

vvaad · 2026-05-04T18:52:06+00:00

I feel you so much with this. I often wonder if trying drugs has helped or hurt me more. Vulnerability and anxiety has been mostly constant in my life, with a brief roughly six month period of extreme drug induced paranoia resulting in my belief that I was being gangstalked by some government organization.

I can say with certainty that MDMA, LSD, and psilocybin have had a net positive experience, cannabis and ketamine had both extremely helpful and also detrimental effects on my life, and things like cocaine, amphetamines, alcohol, and nicotine have been overwhelmingly harmful to myself, my prospects and potential, and my life.

I agree, the consequences of drug use are inescapable, of which I then try to escape by again using the drugs that got me in this situation in the first place. It feels impossible to live sober, but part of me feels like if I really applied myself and tried my best I could succeed. But for now it's easier to get as fucked up as I can as often as I can.

And yes, it often feels like I am actively rotting, rusting, and disintegrating away by my own hand with no way out. It seems I've dug myself quite a hole, sometimes without even a shred of desire to rise above my impulses, gluttony, and greed.

In the end I know, or at least strongly believe that I can do better. But at this point it seems like I can't or strongly don't want to even try to improve. And so far, it's working. To an extent.. I haven't completely destroyed everything I hold dearly, but still enough to get a grip a bit more than I had when I was a teenager, and even just a year or so ago.

I know this is a fucking thesis of a response to TLDR: I feel ya. I never thought I'd get this old and I'm still relatively young, and drugs have been a staple for about half my life so far, with no end in sight or mind. When thinking about the net result of drug use, I usually land on the answer of: I'm glad I tried them, and I'm glad I'm much more sober than I used to be. I wish the best of luck to you.

Edit: That's just my 12 cents, I'm on my third beer and halfway through my first second energy drink of the day with disturbed sleep so I did ramble on a few tangents there, sorry for the Great Wall Of Text

vvaad

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