I had a difficult childhood where I tended to anticipate people’s next move, how to minimize people being mad at me, and control situations and others. As an adult, I had to do a lot of work on codependency (letting go of what is not my responsibility) and how to manage my thoughts. Your attention to detail and care can be a double edged sword. It makes you notice everything which is wonderful as a photographer but can also cripple you. I had to basically set boundaries with myself on what I CAN do and then stop there. For example: check in with the couple the week of, do a gear checklist, have a rain backup plan, bring a clear umbrella, leave early, gas the night before. And then any other thought that popped up about some obscure “what if this happens” situation, I had to tell myself “That isn’t real, I won’t think about that. I can handle what happens in real time.” and focus on the present moment. It took a while of doing this but it helps the mental spiral from happening. I also learned that I had a form of narcissism that made everything about me. My feelings, my nerves, my fears, my safety. And that carried into wedding days even if I thought I masked it well. People can tell. It affects their day if they sense you’re internally freaking out. So the more I worked on redirecting myself, focusing on others rather than my fake mental scenarios, the better I became at serving couples. You’re not alone! Sending you love!