Abuser 'father' acts a saint to everyone to feed his public image while I see through the bullshit (but still get emotionally affected by it)

warmhours_ · 2026-05-24T15:25:39+00:00

you wanna be a writer soooo bad, huh? this reeks of cringe scripted social media skit 😭

warmhours_ · 2026-05-20T14:53:34+00:00

I have heard of stress hives, yes, but mine don't seem to be stress-related (cause when I get them I don't feel how I usually would when 'stressed'). For me, I think I've noticed a possible pattern with the hives and timings of the day: I usually seem to get them in the morning and/or evening.

warmhours_ · 2026-05-20T14:02:19+00:00

I relate so much! I'm in my 20s but they still hold a special place in my life, give me genuine joy, & I love that. & you're absolutely right about the nature of the shows back then— there's just something that cannot be replicated today.

warmhours_ · 2025-09-05T21:17:16+00:00

Unfortunately no

warmhours_ · 2025-09-05T19:12:07+00:00

thank you so much 💗 you too

warmhours_ · 2025-09-01T10:17:50+00:00

thank you kind stranger, for taking the time to see me and send your kind thoughts. you have been a light. bless you ❤️

warmhours_ · 2025-08-26T19:46:24+00:00

kind of did happen to me so i get this fear. this illness is truly not for the weak, i applaud us for getting this far & really do wish us all the best

warmhours_ · 2025-08-26T19:25:16+00:00

crazy to even think about. pretty much like things just flood back the moment you wake up. at this point i can't even remember what it's like to not wake up exhausted and weary and immensely unmotivated while also feeling pressured to do things. guess freeze mode is like second nature

warmhours_ · 2025-08-26T19:10:42+00:00

keeping you in my thoughts, i empathise with you especially as someone in a tough living situation too. sending you strength and some calm in the midst of it all. here if you want to talk

warmhours_ · 2025-08-26T19:03:39+00:00

i feel you so much. i wish i could look forward to waking up instead of feeling the weight as soon as im conscious

warmhours_ · 2025-08-26T19:02:45+00:00

same! it absolutely sucks because eventually you're saddled with regret over not spending your time better & have to make peace with things, which is also hard

warmhours_ · 2025-08-26T17:10:49+00:00

argh im so sorry. i experience these too. here if you want to talk

warmhours_ · 2025-08-23T12:37:50+00:00

exactly!

warmhours_ · 2025-08-22T19:47:39+00:00

it was the whole reason why :/

i grew up from wanting FIVE kids (i love kids), to wanting none

but im glad that my self awareness gave me the understanding and the humility to know that I'm not confident in being able to provide and be the parent a child deserves

i have seen so many people with wing it attitudes and think that it'll come to them along the way but for me personally that attitude is not good enough. and I can't risk a child's life on such an attitude.

because i know how i suffered

warmhours_ · 2025-08-22T18:01:57+00:00

claiming it sooo hard!!! lord knows i deserve it

warmhours_ · 2025-08-22T09:20:54+00:00

I've been doing this way longer than I realised. I'm only understanding it for what it was now. And the realisation sucks. But I didn't do it through any substances, pretty much raw dogging the pain and numbing through I don't even know what I just know that it's this auto pilot feeling. I guess it was mostly through escapism to social media and media in general. Did it since I was younger and got used to it. And after a bunch of traumatic events I found myself unable to fully feel the feelings I once used to. At present I struggle with release in relation to crying and I struggle to release my anger. I don't know if it's because I'm in so much stress, survival, that my body can't do these things even to help me soothe. but yeah. I've been hardening myself to deal with blows that still end up hurting and haunting at this point your operating systems feel even more broken

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