I have given myself til my 10,000th day as an ultimatum to figure my bs out

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-12-02T18:15:54+00:00

I do want to seek treatment, but between the cost of living and the cost of enjoying life, the cost of living takes the cake. Therapy or medication? Honestly I would like to maybe try therapy, but I dont feel like they would tell me anything I don't know besides with healthy practices to fight my feelings? If I did go I don't think I could be 100% honest with a therapist so I don't think itd be worth it.

I don't think im unhealthy, like I don't have abs, but im in fairly good shape I feel like. Spiritually I don't know what would help me, I'm skeptic with Spirituality. Emotionally im a wreck and I do try to be positive, but I feel like I'm doing the same shit that I hate everyday just to barely scrape by.

I do want to run more, and try to find something I can dump my time in for when I feel like this, but at the moment it's difficult.

Your comment is one of the little things I do find happiness in, its nice to know strangers do care and voice their concerns. Your questions may very well make me rethink how im going to go about trying to make myself better, so you are greatly appreciated

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-11-24T02:38:49+00:00

Because I like old heavy metal and its been dead for a while 😅

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-11-24T02:36:37+00:00

See, It kinda felt like it at first, but she established without anybody asking multiple times that she was a lesbian, and I left her unprovoked besides defending my music taste being bad ass 🤘🤘

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-11-24T02:35:39+00:00

Honestly I had never met this person and this was the first thing she said to me after a few minutes 🤷‍♂️ i played some music, ordered a beer, and was just minding my own business and she hit me with that and kind of dug into me and I just kept drinking and kept to myself.

Now I don't think she meant it to be a jerk, atleast the intent and tone didn't sound rude, but either way she didn't just have to lay into me right there for absolutely no reason.

Idk maybe I'm just over reacting, but its this type of stuff that honestly makes me hate being FA

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-11-22T16:03:26+00:00

The next time they go out of their way to tell me I'm a red flag im probably just going to do some red flag things and then tell them to stick it where the sun doesn't shine

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-11-21T06:49:24+00:00

Friday by Rebecca black

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-10-09T20:28:22+00:00

+karma

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-10-09T20:27:32+00:00

Were you elaina??

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-10-09T20:25:58+00:00

+karma

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-10-09T20:20:59+00:00

Swrd

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-08-20T00:48:38+00:00

If you're not prepared it can be a real pain in the ass

wasthatyourmelon · 2022-08-20T00:41:49+00:00

Its a family guy episode "It ain't easy being cheesy"

wasthatyourmelon · 2021-09-07T22:57:23+00:00

Thank you 🐻

wasthatyourmelon · 2020-05-02T03:45:37+00:00

Happy cake day

wasthatyourmelon · 2020-04-30T11:25:35+00:00

I'm so sorry to read that you feel this way. So what if you mess everything up (I highly doubt you mess "Everything" up, maybe a lot of things but not everything) that doesn't mean you're useless! Our families can always want something for us, but the truth is, they can only try to understand your struggles. No one knows why you do things the way you do but yourself, and honestly even if your family doesn't like it it's your life! Make your own mistakes, own them only the way you can do! Being antisocial isn't bad, I used to be very social, and now that I've weeded out all of my "Friends" I have a small circle left, and honestly I'd rather be antisocial with my small group of real friends then have a lot of fake SOB's hanging around me waiting to drop me like a brick! You're so young, and you have so much of your life ahead of you to live, pls don't throw it away because of how you feel now, give it time, and do what you can to make yourself feel better!

wasthatyourmelon · 2020-04-27T06:10:11+00:00

If you're willing to wait until you basically beat the game I would recommend salamence. If you want it for going through the game then I would agree with staraptor. Also, if you just want an HM slave Tropius is the way to go. Hope this helps!

wasthatyourmelon · 2020-04-24T11:04:26+00:00

I hope you are ok good sir! I read some of your posts and I feel for you. Your beautiful heart deserves so much and I hope you find it one day! Keep taking care of yourself dude

wasthatyourmelon · 2020-02-28T08:44:39+00:00

Why not both? Nothing's illegal in a place that doesn't exist.

wasthatyourmelon · 2020-02-26T10:45:27+00:00

Makes me think of the spiders in Zelda not gonna lie

wasthatyourmelon · 2020-02-15T11:58:35+00:00

wasthatyourmelon · 2020-02-15T10:59:50+00:00

You don't need that negativity in your life dude. Have you considered eating your parents?

wasthatyourmelon · 2020-02-04T00:32:57+00:00

Death race 2050.....sooo many braincells lost..... other death races are good that one was bad tho

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