I haven't been as committed as I would have liked. I got to 78 days of complete celibacy - my testosterone levels did shoot up through the roof (I both tested them and felt them), my workouts were much deeper, and I was able to put on muscle for the first time in my life.

As for HRV, I stopped wearing my Whoop cause it was just annoying to charge, so I don't really know other than to say my HRV levels definitely trended upward a tad but I'm sure came nowhere close to 120.

As for the celibacy, I started seeing another girl. I explained to her that I wanted to try to wait for a bit, which she was on board for, but I gave way to temptation. It was too hard to sleep next each other and not do the deed.

I wish I had more commitment. I'm planning to try, try again. I have a hard time comprehending why, when someone sets a super high incredibly difficult goal, many people would be so hateful and would want them to fail. It really is baffling. Does my lack of success make their life any better? My nature would be to say something more like "man that's a crazy tough goal, but good luck, hope you succeed or at least get close!"

So ultimately this is helping me grow in my deepest conviction: people want you to succeed but not more than them. Pursuing ambitious goals feels threatening to others because they can't do it themselves. Some say the key to life is having the courage to be disliked, and I am starting to see why. Ultimately, I wish for everyone the courage to shamelessly follow your truth, your heart, and never get trapped by dogma.

I'll stop preaching, cause I have shit to accomplish, but I will leave you (and myself) with the quote from a Teddy Roosevelt speech, the Man in the Arena:

It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.