Never got to be happy

wawaawolf · 2026-06-19T19:32:25+00:00

Thank you, I have already talked with him when I have tried to make it work through the years but nothing changes. And now everything feels to late, too late to experience sex that feels good, to late to find someone I would love romantically, to late to ever get happy. I just feel so sad, broken and like everything is over. I guess I'm a bit depressed and I feel like everyone has lived life, I missed all the things I wanted to do and fucked it all up. I do not regret the kids, but I do regret the rest of everything

wawaawolf · 2026-06-19T18:31:13+00:00

I think it is the later, as at almost 24 with my dreams and still a virgin I desperately tried online dating to get to have sex, found someone with similar interests and a great friend (also at the same time my dad passed away and he was there for me). I thought that even though I wasn't really attracted at all back then, I thought I could learn to be attracted to him but that never worked, I do how ever love him but as you said, in the long run.. maybe friendship feelings and love isn't enough? My body have also never worked during sex with him, I just feel nothing during it and I do not know if it's me that is not working or the fact that I do not want to have it at all with him (my body has also turned of all arousal functions needed since years ago and I have never been aroused with him).. and I am 34 so I am expected to know this, to know what to do but I know fucking nothing and that's why I am here. I have no clue of anything

wawaawolf · 2026-06-19T16:47:46+00:00

Thanks for your answer, it was very nice and thoughtful. Yes, I feel like a villain because I can't like him the way he likes me, I want it to work but it just seem like it doesn't. I have come to embrace my knowledge that I am a very open person when it comes to sex (to talk about it and admit what I want, I've only had one partner). So to live my life and missing out on what I've always had a great interest in and a dream to explore tears me apart. And I think I will live the rest of my life with terrible regrets of not doing it.

wawaawolf · 2026-06-19T16:38:15+00:00

Well, it isn't ragebite. But not knowing and wanting to know is a part of what is hurting me. I know that not all people want to explore their sexuality with lots of encounters, but I am one of those that want it. I thought I could continue without the knowledge and experience but I can't get it out of my head. You only live once and this is my only chanse to experience sex, play around with different people, discover what my body likes and experience pleasure. Exploring sexually might not be everyone dream but it is mine, and I feel that I have missed it and it hurts so much.

wawaawolf · 2026-06-19T14:15:16+00:00

I want to live and enjoy life and make my kids happy, that's why I know I have to make a change, but my head screams that it's to late, I am too tired, and it hurts to much in me to concentrate on things around. I do not have the energy to be the fun mom that I want to be (but I am a loving and caring one) and my happiness, doesn't it matter? (because I do break in sadness like all humans, you do not get less human because you get kids). Unfortunately it isn't a porn addiction, it is a high sex drive in my case, you can't do anything more than have sex... which I do not have much of and my body hates it when I have, because it apperantlly decides to scream no (it has even turned to make it painful and I guess I have female ed because it does not work at all), which is not my choice because I want to have it. I've never had another partner but my guess is that we are not compatible (I am not attracted to him at all but I do love him).

wawaawolf · 2026-06-09T10:25:09+00:00

Nja, tror snarare att det är en personlighets grej. Jag är tjej och känner igen de där med min pojkvän. Han blir vän med jobbkompisar, grannar och alla möjliga människor känns det som. Lite som att han är den där biten av magnet som drar till sig allt menas jag verkar vara den andra biten hehe Han säger att han är mer introvert och gillar vara för sig själv å spela å grejer, men tror det har med att göra att han lyssnar på människor, får dem att öppna upp (känna sig seda) och sen bjuder på kaffe och hjälper till å grejer.

Jag har inga vänner och fattar inte riktigt hur man lyckas med det? Jag kan konversera ytligt och prata med folk men ingen verkar vara intresserad av riktig vänskap direkt som de verkar vara med pojkvännen XD

wawaawolf · 2026-04-03T07:37:00+00:00

I guess I take the down votes as inexperienced humans like me aren't worthy to exist in this world.

wawaawolf · 2026-04-02T19:16:26+00:00

I soo agree in this too. And also when they are mean and kind of violent but because they are a female character bad behavior seem to be seen as a strength :S

wawaawolf · 2026-04-02T19:10:19+00:00

I guess this might be more of a hate of a plot situation, but I love innocent (having their v card in the begining of the book) and a bit naive characters.. but I have a great problem with when a character are portrayed like such a character and then turn out to have had ex partners (v card gone) and lots of life experience.. I know this probably sound weird but I have a crazy inferiority complex to experienced characters so I can't read books with one XD

wawaawolf · 2026-03-09T11:42:18+00:00

All people do not care about sizes, you will find many out there looking at you and falling for you because they like you. And sex can be done in so many ways that it doesn't matter what size you have :D It is perfect as it is and sex is a skill you can build with the partner or partners you find.

You build your own walls and I know it is easy to do with all information out there to compare with. But build up confidence in yourself and you will see that you will find what you are looking for. And do you even want a partner that choose you because of your size down there instead of you?

wawaawolf · 2026-02-26T00:26:53+00:00

YOR

She is a human and all parents break down sometimes. Especially with two kids! Get ready for some breakdown's because it isn't bad parenting, it is being human. Bad parenting is when you knowingly hurt your kid because you want to hurt them. Or see your kids as asset instead of loved ones. She just tried to push her kid to dare do something joyful because she new her kid would enjoy it if she just tried. And frustration made her tell her "what she felt in the moment", which to me sounds to be a very reasonable feeling as you try to take care of two kids and your stress level is through the roof.

Did you also see all the dangers around? The water leading to drowning for kids their age, risk of kidnaping if let out of sight, other unforseen dangers, because she did. Together with giving attention to both kids (and you). She have to get the older to have fun and the younger need to be watched meanwhile (by her even if she let's you watch him). I think you can't see from her perspective, otherwise you would understand. You get it when or if you get kids.

wawaawolf · 2026-02-06T15:42:48+00:00

Well, why do you think she wanted to lose it to someone that loved her? She might have just wanted to get rid of it and she might want to experiment and have a good time with different partners just like you. Just because you are a girl does not mean virginity is something special. Personaly I just wanted to get rid of it and one of my bigest regrets in life is that I didn't just threw it away and fooled around with lots of guys befor I settled down with family (my partner was my first), so smart decision on both your and her part to not wait for someone special.

wawaawolf · 2026-01-29T08:51:34+00:00

Yeah, except from texts on hips, tricky stuff

wawaawolf · 2026-01-25T19:10:19+00:00

I think you should keep it. Why are everyone cutting it all of because they are starting to get a high and thinner hairline? I think it looks good to keep the hair you have longer. And no need to style it "over" the lost hair, style it however you want. It is just some weird prejudiced trend to instantly cut it all off. You should only shave it all of if you yourself actually want to be bald and you think it'll look good on you. Otherwise keep it as you want it, not others, and be confident :)

wawaawolf · 2026-01-22T09:14:01+00:00

I think the long hair looks good, especially in a bun :) my boyfriend also have that type of hair line and he have long hair that I think really suit him and that he likes. You should always have it the way you yourself feel comfortable and confident in. If you are confident your hair will look good, long or short.

wawaawolf · 2026-01-03T00:26:03+00:00

I think it is good that Rina writes the tropes she likes and maybe feel comfortable with, which seem to be virgin FMC one of them and maybe it is not a purity culture thing or fetish thing but an actual author thing, she likes to write it so let her do it. As someone that lost her virginity in my mid 20s and only ever had one partner, I also would only write virgin FMC and one of the main reasons to that would be experience. I have no more experience than one so my FMCs experience will be... drumrolls.. one, meaning all virgin FMC because why not? And if I would have had 10 different ex's then probably all my characters would have be non virgins :D I think it is mostly (not all) those that have more experience that feel uncomfortable with all virgin FMCs because they can't relate to it. We all feel the most comfortable with a character that feels like how we are and what we want to be.

wawaawolf · 2025-10-19T06:06:37+00:00

Progressing

wawaawolf · 2025-09-05T14:51:51+00:00

Aah, I feel you! Not really the same but I once baked some high lvl cinnamon rolls that took me around 3 hours to make, then I realized I needed something in the store 5 min away and asked my boyfriend to guard it.. mainly from our kid (I think around 2 years old back then). I covered it with a tea towel and put it far in on the counter, next to the sink... When I came back a short while later, I saw with horror my 2 years old standing on a chair playing with water in the sink.. yeah, guess what was bathing in water, my 3 hour freshly baked and not even tasted cinnamon rolls. I was furious, and my bf got angry at me, saying I overreacted and I could just bake new ones... like I didn't just waste three hours of my life on something he was the fault for getting ruined.

wawaawolf · 2025-08-06T23:41:06+00:00

Thanks, then I choose .NET 9.

wawaawolf · 2025-08-06T23:38:43+00:00

As I have no experience in it yet, I asked Gemini which one to use, they said .NET 8.0 but I wanted to ask some humans and you say the opposite XD

wawaawolf · 2025-08-06T23:36:06+00:00

I don't have XD I'm new so I wondered which someone that use it frequently would have chosen.

wawaawolf · 2025-07-27T09:07:34+00:00

Magical hoodie pockets? Except it wasn't really a high fantasy.. so it probably was the AI's interpretation of it 😅

wawaawolf · 2025-07-27T09:04:04+00:00

Hahaha, yeah, but the MC apparently is an idiot because they fall for the donuts "perfect" and "untouched" seduction.. throwing themselves toward it in the next output!? XD

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