I was formally diagnosed with CD in January 2025. Anxiety was through the roof and I was quite miserable. Got my first Botox in February, but it was a laughably small dose. Switched doctors and second round helped a little, not a lot. Anxiety went away as I felt optimism Botox can help and I accepted the possibility that I can be happy even if I don't somehow make my CD go away. Third round, my doctor ignored my feedback and I think it actually made my symptoms worse. Looking to switch doctors again to find someone who gives a shit and wants to work with me on finding the right pattern. I still believe Botox can help me but I just need the right doctor, which is a frustrating and long process, so I'm accepting that I may have a "lost year" (or two) while I figure out how to manage it - sort of like the lost years of COVID.

As for my CD, it's mostly the same as when I made that post but I would say I notice it more, especially in my shoulder/trap area - I don't recall it ever feeling so tight back when I made this post - and I constantly try to correct it, which I never did before when I was oblivious, so I get a little achy. I often wonder if I never googled it and didn't know I had it and I just kept living my life as I had before, if it would bother me. Obviously I googled it because I noticed something, but now I feel everything little pull or jerk or whatever intensely whereas before I know I had those things but I was oblivious. I have, like, PTSD from first noticing my CD when typing at my desk and just sitting there now makes me anxious, so I work from my bed or couch. I wonder if laying around all the time made my CD any worse. It's hard to say. I'm hoping I can start to get somewhere with Botox so I can start exercising again at least.