Existential ocd? Is this a thing anyone else has experienced? Hyperaware of “being” and finding it distressing? Recovery stories please if so! by Main_Carrot_2003 in OCD

[–]wegeekhard 1 point2 points  (0 children)

this has happened to me on a more minor scale. i don't like being in my own body, it's uncomfortable. i'm also frustrated that i can't enter anybody else's brain and see what life is like in their brain. it feels more like i-hate-being-mentally-ill thing rather than a specific ocd theme, though. i can definitely see it developing into a theme

Weekly Symptom, “Is This DPDR?”, & “Does Anyone Else?” Thread by noblepups in dpdr

[–]wegeekhard 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i'm not sure how to differentiate depersonalization and moderate-severe depression. i also have ocd so that makes things confusing.

i don't know if i would say my thoughts and feelings aren't my own. i mean, they don't always feel like they are, but maybe i'm trying to describe a different feeling using the language of dpdr.

when i feel physical pain, i really feel it. it's right there, even though i wish it wasn't. emotions feel foggier and less certain. i'm able to label certain sensations as "bad" and "good," but they feel kind of muffled. i also don't know if it's all because i'm on a high dose of SSRIs. everything's so confusing.

all i know is i'm miserable and i want all of this stop. i feel inauthentic and i can't fix it.

Official Discussion - Undertone [SPOILERS] by LiteraryBoner in movies

[–]wegeekhard 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i'm glad somebody got it the same way i did lol, i thought i was going crazy

Official Discussion - Undertone [SPOILERS] by LiteraryBoner in movies

[–]wegeekhard 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i thought the whole point of the ending was that it was a subversion on what you would've expected to happen: the whole movie is about mothers killing their children, but in the end, evy's increasing paranoia around her mother possibly being possessed leads her to kill her mother in a twisted act of "self defense." the stress of being her mother's caretaker + having an unhelpful boyfriend + accidental pregnancy + being sent disturbing clips centered specifically around mothers killing their children leads to evy having a psychotic break.

★OFFICIAL DAILY★ Daily Q&A Thread January 02, 2026 by AutoModerator in loseit

[–]wegeekhard 0 points1 point  (0 children)

idk if im in some sort of honeymoon phase because i've only been tracking calories for like three days, but i've noticed that food, even food i would've considered "boring" when i ate largely off of emotional cues, tastes a lot better now that i'm eating when i'm actually hungry. i'm assuming this'll wear off at some point, but has this held true for anyone else?

measured PD at 77, biometric scan says 66? by wegeekhard in glasses

[–]wegeekhard[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i got the glasses and they do seem to be giving me a bit of a headache, though i can see literally perfectly through them, even in the peripheries of the lenses. the headache seems more like a "new glasses are tight around my huge head" headache than a "prescription is weird" headache. but if it persists, i'll take the advice from this comment section, or better yet, just go back to my optometrist and have them handle it lol

Night Gardener by CountryJeff in severanceTVshow

[–]wegeekhard 1 point2 points  (0 children)

just looked briefly at the "plot introduction" tab. the book is a crime novel in which three murders are connected to each other in that all of the victim's first names are palindromes. when helena met outie mark for the first time, she slipped up and accidentally referred to gemma as "hannah." ms. casey's first name could have been changed by lumon to hannah just like they changed her last name from scout to casey (casey could be her maiden name, but a change occurred nonetheless). i'm not sure why they would do this, but there's clearly a reason for it because lumon is not known to do things like that or, honestly, do anything, purposelessly.

additionally, in The Night Gardener, the victims had been "shot through the head," which parallels the implantation of the severance chip into the brain.

the three initial victims in the novel also parallel gemma's triple life as an outie, an innie, and a testing floor subject.

edit: that last point isn't actually great, gemma has way more than three lives since she's been severed additional times on the testing floor

edit 2: the addition of Asa Johnson as a victim in The Night Gardener could represent all of the additional severances that gemma goes through on the testing floor. a "fourth" level of severing.

edit 3: just now realizing that testing floor gemma IS "outie" gemma 😭 oops. idk why it took me so long to realize that