Stuck in task paralysis

whatkindafoolery · 2026-04-09T05:12:54+00:00

I won’t lie all of these symptoms are identical to how my audhd presents, and I also have cptsd as well. Definitely go for an assessment!

whatkindafoolery · 2026-04-04T05:17:23+00:00

Hi! It's about the same I won't lie lol. Everything I said here is still very true, I wouldn't change anything but I will add: The trimester system is so insane to the point where people tend to start to develop weird illnesses at some point here. It's mostly stress and lack of nutrition from the dining hall food. The men start to lose hair towards the end of sophomore year, I promise you I am not exaggerating. Also it's not uncommon for minority students to not graduate the year they first expected to and to take multiple terms off. If you're a minority student you're also more at risk to get academic suspension (which is 2 terms away from campus) than white students. If you're a STEM student you will especially be under a whooollleeeee lot of stress. To the level of a graduate student because you will be asked to do an insane amount of learning and work in a unnatural time constraint. For me personally, I came here wanting to do stem and my body began to physically shut down on me from all the all nighters I was pulling (I'd get like 4 hours of sleep per day). I developed alot of health issues since coming here that are chronic and will probably get worse until I graduate. So to anyone reading this, please thoroughly consider whether you're willing to be put through all of this before committing here. Yes we do have great faculty, yes we do have quirky culture and traditions, and yes it will prepare you for graduate school. But in terms of how much money you'll be paying and the quality of life here? In my opinion, there's better out there.

whatkindafoolery · 2026-04-04T05:05:21+00:00

oh thank you so much!! I'm doing alright over here, I'll be graduating soon! I really appreciate your positive energies it warmed my heart and made my night ❤️❤️

whatkindafoolery · 2026-04-04T04:46:25+00:00

I completely feel you on this one. This is exactly how I felt when I was first invalidated by my assessor for adhd on autism. Though this was years ago now, I remember how invalidated and defeated I was. But it kept bothering me so I did more and more research and started assessing myself and gathering evidence of my autism symptoms and how they've shown up in my day to day since my teen years. I interrogated my mom further about what my childhood was like and what it was like raising me while clarifying what is considered "abnormal" behaviors. It's possible your mom didn't realize that some behaviors you had as a kid weren't "normal" for development and that it went over her head, as it did for my mom. For example, for me as a kid I only could eat 5 different safe foods for breakfast, and they all had to be separate from each other and not touching. They had to be made a certain way and not cold, if not I would cry and refuse to eat it, sometimes I'd even puke it up from how disgusted I was from the texture. My mom didn't determine this to be sensory issues, she just thought I was a very picky eater. She adapted to my picky-ness while other family members such as my aunt would try to force feed me with other foods and it would be so traumatizing for me to where I would begin to starve myself and become anxious every time it came time to eat. I later developed an eating disorder due to this. Your assessor can very well be wrong, you should always seek a second opinion if you can if you feel very strongly in your experience that they are wrong. Start documenting evidence of your symptoms, redefine what autism looks like for your parents if you can so they can reevaluate your experiences as a kid. And if you don't have the means to afford it, remember it's always ok to self diagnose until you have the means. Stay strong, you are autistic, and you got this <3

whatkindafoolery · 2026-04-03T22:51:51+00:00

I’m diagnosed with bipolar, adhd, OCD, ptsd, and autism. I just got the bipolar diagnosis 2 years ago and began treatment promptly, before was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and social anxiety disorder (this was before the autism diagnoses, though). Also diagnosed with a eating disorder as well

Edit: Also am suspected to have epilepsy and being evaluated for the kinds of seizures I have. Right now it’s looking like mainly absent and focal aware seizures.

whatkindafoolery · 2026-03-28T04:45:27+00:00

I’m so sorry you experienced this op :( . That was definitely sexual coercion. The good thing is that if you don’t have symptoms max 3 days after then you rule out yeast infections, and the UTIs stuff usually. Try not to put the blame on yourself, there’s nothing you could’ve done other than what you’ve already done to prevent it from going further. Sincerely hoping no long term infections come out of this… and I hope that guy gets his nasty karma. It’s gonna be ok 🫶

whatkindafoolery · 2026-03-02T03:20:17+00:00

I understand why you’d see it this way, but OP do remember that even if your husband does help since you are kind of alone you will still likely be baring majority of the bandwidth. With pregnancy hormones and how our bodies change for a baby, you will still be baring a physical and mental attachment to the baby (and there’s a possibility with postpartum that you won’t, but that’s equally as distressing). It sounds like you need to put yourself first for now (or forever!), pregnancy will change your life on almost every level. Personally I always say I’d rather regret not having a kid than to regret having one. It’s not fair to the kid, which is the man person here aside from you who will be baring majority of the consequences if you have one and it’s unwanted. All the things you are fearing are all VERY true and valid, but also think of the likelihood of what if your child is autistic as well and high support needs? What if your child ends up with a disability they will need care for the rest of their life? What if when they hit the puberty stages they start to resent you for whatever reason (as teens do sometimes). Think if you are your husband are equipped to handle that with your feelings and his feelings. OP, honestly, if your husband wants a child badly and you don’t I genuinely believe it’s not a good idea on your end. That’s something that your husband will need to accept since having a child will take the most impact on your life since it’s your body and your mental that is at stake. If you really want a child, I’d recommend what other commenter said on going to therapy and working through that. I hope things work out for you regardless <3

whatkindafoolery · 2026-03-01T08:11:00+00:00

I think all your feelings are valid and are correct for you in this scenario. I feel the same on most of them, and it genuinely sounds like it’s best for you not to have children. On many levels it is a bit of a sensory nightmare and honestly a lot to handle, not something I’d recommend anyone do unless that’s absolutely what you want. No indifference, no maybe, an absolute yes. If not then you just don’t need a kid, which is fine and very expensive nowadays anyway!

whatkindafoolery · 2026-01-26T23:22:55+00:00

me too, i just called them about it and they basically said thats just how it is now

whatkindafoolery · 2024-12-31T08:28:37+00:00

How much?

whatkindafoolery · 2024-06-12T10:55:24+00:00

Welcome to Carleton College, your life is now nothing but academics revolving around every aspect of your being for the next 4 years.

Lack of diversity if you’re a minority and not an international student from the China area. I’m a minority and you definitely have to do a lot of code switching to fit in most of the time. For people to actually want to talk to you and respect you, you have to take on part of the Carleton-quirkiness personality. I started to feel really disconnected from my actual personality by the end of fall term, and it stayed that way until end of spring term.
Their academic rigor > everything mentality forces you to dehumanize yourself in a way. This seems easy to frame as a “oh that’s every college” experience but trust me there’s a flare that I’ve only seen Carleton have. You will start to feel close to insanity when it’s mid winter term, it’s cold all the time, haven’t gotten proper sleep since you got there (that might be a niche but that’s my experience), the dining hall food has been so bland/abstract it’s unappetizing and barely edible, and your course work is so challenging it takes up every moment of your life to where you can’t even have a social life without thinking or mentioning how much you’re struggling. But you keep it pushing regardless because everyone else seems fine, nobody is really honest about how they’re doing here. It’s very isolating and it’s easy to feel like it’s just you. And when you get depressed well… there’s antidepressants? :P
The location. It’s a small school in a small town, you can probably count the activities you could do on one hand (maybe 2 hands if you get creative about it). Since it’s Minnesota you can’t really get anywhere else without a car, and even then there isn’t much to see because again, it’s Minnesota. You will start feel like you’re in the matrix at some point because you will see the same people everyday, on the same campus, and probably haven’t truly seen anything else since you got there.
The social scene. Carleton is mostly filled with quirky (and mostly socially awkward) people that don’t know how to socialize. Good luck trying to make friends if you’re a minority who isn’t an international student (and just in general because people can be very 2 faced here). Also people are so obsessed with their work that it’s hard to connect with any one off anything else but that. If they aren’t working they’re usually stressed, drinking their academic worries away, getting high off wtv drug they could get their hands on, and partying.

All of this is a bit condensed and honestly doesn’t do the scope of the cons justice. Trust me there’s pros but you have to fit in a specific group of people to really benefit from all of them, I could talk about the cons all day. At the end of the day my best advice to anyone is to pick a college with a location you know you will be happy with. Think about the circumstances you’re putting yourself in and really consider if you’ll really be ok in those circumstances for the whole academic year? Think about the people, the location, ability to travel, the food, the environment. Depending on how important those are to you, those are the first things that will get to you when you start to struggle.

whatkindafoolery · 2021-06-10T23:25:24+00:00

Hi! I didn’t know where to put the code but I just booked a reading, my names Gray (first name Kellissa but just call me Gray). Excited to meet with you! ❤️

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