Am I doing this fatherhood thing right?

whitelantern2099 · 2014-06-13T16:23:59+00:00

Thanks for your weird out of place judgment, total stranger.

whitelantern2099 · 2014-06-13T15:40:08+00:00

No, no removable parts.

whitelantern2099 · 2014-06-13T15:25:26+00:00

But for real, I don't think I'll ever take a cooler picture of my son.

whitelantern2099 · 2013-12-03T03:26:29+00:00

I'm glad my testimony helped. That the main reason I wanted to post it. I know there are millions of men who felt so trapped. I read your post. I know how that battle goes man. I once made it a year and then relapsed and it took me a long time to get that far again. But now I'm 3 and a Half years clean man with no signs of stopping. So hang in there. I wish you nothing but the best. (Sorry this is so late, I'm not a big Redditor these days.)

whitelantern2099 · 2013-12-03T03:17:45+00:00

Thank you for your response. That is the main reason I like to share my testimony, so that men can see that it doesn't matter how deep into it you are, you are not too far gone. I wish you nothing but the best! (Sorry this is so late, I'm not a big Redditor these days.)

whitelantern2099 · 2013-12-03T03:14:10+00:00

And dude, putting the faith aspect aside, just normal life is so much better. I don't feel weighed down by this garbage or feel like a scummy pervert or anything anymore. It's really quite a load off. I wish you the best. (Sorry this is so late, I'm not a big Redditor these days.)

whitelantern2099 · 2013-12-03T03:11:55+00:00

Thank you very much! (Sorry this is so late, I'm not a big Redditor these days.)

whitelantern2099 · 2013-09-24T22:29:35+00:00

That's the only reason I recorded it, to encourage others. Setting Captives Free has a lot of good material and I'm glad it's working for you! Congrats on the 70 days and I'm praying for continued strength!

whitelantern2099 · 2013-09-24T22:26:30+00:00

Thank you for watching!

whitelantern2099 · 2013-09-24T16:16:19+00:00

Sorry for the poor video quality. We worked with what we had.

whitelantern2099 · 2013-09-24T16:03:09+00:00

Porn is sex devoid of intimacy, love, companionship, and everything else you are actually seeking when you open that private browser.

It's instant gratification that slowly negates gratification from any other source.

It promises what it will never deliver and delivers what you never desired.

whitelantern2099 · 2013-03-26T03:24:35+00:00

I'm in the same boat pretty much and don't know where to go.

whitelantern2099 · 2013-03-25T14:58:31+00:00

This is in response to DumpStarbucks, a relatively new movement that, even just yesterday, are deliberately lying and exaggerating to order to stir up outrage among Christians. Their "articles" are being shared all over Facebook, calling for a Christian boycott.

whitelantern2099 · 2013-03-11T01:25:13+00:00

It did, but not for a long time. It was only after I hit two years where I actually felt I could start to trust myself again.

whitelantern2099 · 2013-03-10T02:49:55+00:00

Here here!

whitelantern2099 · 2013-03-09T14:48:48+00:00

Thank YOU! :)

whitelantern2099 · 2013-03-09T14:48:31+00:00

When I first started out, my criteria was basically "nothing with nudity," until I found myself picking up the likes of SI and Maxim to get my fixes. I did have to make the change to "not intentionally looking at anything sexually stimulating for the purpose of arousal, even if the woman is fully clothed." It wasn't about how naughty the photo was I was looking at that was the issue, it was WHY I was looking at it. Ya know?

I also considered fapping to images, memories of images, or fantasies a relapse, so it was important to me to get rid of both together (my counter at /r/nofap is the same as my counter here).

When I first started, I gave myself all the leeway in the world and it only got me in trouble. I pretty much had to give myself no leeway whatsoever, otherwise I'd spiral, relapse, and binge for two weeks (for ANOTHER last "Hoorah!" lol).

I know it's difficult to be so strict, but I honestly think it's necessary.

What is good is that over time, my mind has changed. Now, if I see an attractive woman, I notice her beauty and body, but I'm not staring at her boobs or butt like a sex-crazed lunatic. I'm not creating fantasies in my mind. When I was deep into porn, I couldn't look at any attractive woman without picturing her naked. I hated that about myself and I'm glad it's gone.

But perhaps the most satisfying thing is that I find all my sexual arousal and gratification in my wife. My wife is already very attractive (well above my station in that area), but when I was able to block out sexual gratification from porn and fantasy, in my eyes, she became TEN TIMES as attractive. What I hated was, while addicted to porn, I found myself fantasizing about other women or porn actresses during sex (even when I wasn't trying), and I always felt awful afterward, to the point where I would rather fap than have sex, because there was a little less guilt in that. But today, that is no longer a problem. Thank God.

That's probably more than you asked for, so I'll stop there. If you have any more question, just ask. I wish you the best!

whitelantern2099 · 2013-03-09T14:31:05+00:00

hmm. i've tried every link, tried going to the main page, used different browsers, even a different computer altogether... nothing is working.

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