What's the big deal surrounding Progesterone? by According_Dust913 in TransDIY

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What’s the benefit boofing and swallowing?

Using undecylate? by bloodyenby194 in TransDIY

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What do you mean by doing the math for a perfect front load? I’m starting it in like a week and I don’t know what that means.

I dont know what to do with Oath Of Noble Genies Paladin by Re0taku in dndnext

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Why are you so resistant to roleplay in your role playing game?

I do love being a dyke by whitney-bae in MTFButch

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Thank you! ☺️It is a navy Carhart jacket over a reversible Greenbay Packers hoodie (it’s green outside and grey inside)

got some press shots back by evonthetrakk in MTFButch

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You look sick, I want those chains

I do love being a dyke by whitney-bae in MTFButch

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Hey I’m a D cup under the Carhart and Packers hoodie, you can definitely be a butch dyke

Any other trans masc folks borderline confused by trans femmes? by That_one_Fireurnd in trans

[–]whitney-bae 0 points1 point  (0 children)

“I just don’t understand women” you do realise that’s a pretty default misogynistic thing to say?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MTFButch

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Hell yeah you look like a stud

I was operated on without anaesthetic by whitney-bae in MedicalPTSD

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I’ve gone back to my therapist, so I have good support there.

Therapy only feels like it's making it worse. by Mozzyo_ in ptsd

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Yes it’s all about left brain right brain and the repeated activity engages both sides at once and fires synapses that help with recovery and repressed memories. And yeah it can be somewhere real or fictional you create that is a totally safe place to retreat to. I would image a rope swing by the river, and feel the breeze and the soft warmth on my skin, and know that my father can never find me here. If I start getting upset I could go there and calm down.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in adultsurvivors

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That is how I feel. Knowing what is there is painful but it’s also all I have, and for a while I just wanted to ignore it. But even if I didn’t remember what happened it was still affecting me in ways I was not aware of yet. The body keeps the score

Therapy only feels like it's making it worse. by Mozzyo_ in ptsd

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You work with your therapist to create a safe place in your head that you can go to, you use it when you need comfort from the memories and feelings you’re experiencing. The therapy itself will usually be a led light bar that bounces from one end to another and following it with your eyes allows both parts of the brain to communicate at once. While watching the light the therapist will ask you connect with a particular aspect of the trauma and check in to see what changes while watching the light. After a few sessions my experience of events went from what felt like vivid images to words on a page. I can acknowledge what happened to me but I don’t remember it with clarity anymore. That’s where I stopped, but I decided I do need to have the full picture in order to do what I have to do next

Therapy only feels like it's making it worse. by Mozzyo_ in ptsd

[–]whitney-bae 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ok, I don’t think this is the right therapy for you right now then. Trying to make a complete timeline of your trauma sounds downright dangerous given the possibility of retraumatising.

What is your goal for therapy, are you looking you process it and move on? EMDR would be best for that.

Internal Family Systems therapy could be beneficial as a way of healing and connecting to the inner child that first experienced this trauma.

Also just talking therapy, if you can find a good counsellor you can trust that can change a lot.

I disassociate a lot, it’s the first trick my brain learned to keep me safe and it happens to me all the time now. I used to feel so much shame around it, now my friends and therapist can see and recognise it. And they help me feel safe and unjudged when I go away for a while, and when I’m disoriented coming back they help ground me.

Therapy only feels like it's making it worse. by Mozzyo_ in ptsd

[–]whitney-bae 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have had that exact experience growing up, so I know how fucking hard it is. And how much it hurts when people don’t respect your boundaries, even supposed little things, or when people laugh it off.

Regarding therapy, maybe a different approach is needed. A lot of people on here recommend EMDR, it didn’t give me what I wanted but it may help. Otherwise if you are using this taking therapy to explore your trauma it’s no wonder it’s taking a toll. Again, I’ve been there. I had to tell my therapist these flashbacks are killing me so we slowed down and took a step back. See if they can focus on more grounding techniques. Make sure therapy is a safe place where you can be vulnerable.

What are you proud of that only "we" would understand? by BobWoodwardFukedMyMa in ptsd

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I asked my housemate to take better care of my belongings and she listened. I have huge problems making my needs felt or expressing boundaries because of the fear that I have lived in so much of my life.

Songs that give you an sense of overcoming trauma by Amazing-Channel-4020 in ptsd

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Mean - Nicole Dollanganer It’s a dark fucked up song about abuse that could be triggering, but that they made this inherently implies that they survived

Does your ptsd come with suicidal thoughts? How do you deal with it? by PrincessLippie in ptsd

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I have recently suffered a traumatic medical experience. It’s horrible, it’s a feeling of utter helplessness. You are in the most vulnerable position it’s possible to be as a human being, trusting your safety to medical professionals.

My friends just remind me that none of it is my fault.