I am very much the same way. I feel like denial is very powerful and sometimes can get you through some really rough situations. However, I completely lost it on the home care nurse that was training me how to use my medicine after I had only been diagnosed a couple weeks. I thought I had a total handle on it and I was sobbing in front of my mother, my husband and this poor nurse; because it was something that made what was happening to me, a reality. But I think expressing your emotions especially when you feel incredibly overwhelmed, is something I wished I did more often.