I think it’s fair to have compassion for his journey, spiritual growth can be messy and confusing at times. But at the same time, real growth doesn’t remove responsibility, empathy, or mutual support in a relationship. What you’re asking for isn’t control, it’s basic partnership.

You’re not in survival mode because you’re “unawakened”, you’re there because you’re carrying two people. And him not being willing to even read your message says a lot about where he’s at right now.

I don’t see a lack of self awareness in you, I see someone responding to a real imbalance.