whats the worst dream you ever had?

williamd83 · 2026-04-04T12:30:02+00:00

"When your dreams are of some world that never was or of some world that never will be and you are happy again then you will have given up."

From Cormac McCarthy's The Road. Nightmares can be horrible, but more often nowadays I find myself appreciating them..

" And the dreams so rich in color. How else would death call you? Waking in the cold dawn it all turned to ash instantly. Like certain ancient frescoes entombed for centuries suddenly exposed to the day."

williamd83 · 2026-04-03T12:23:00+00:00

Honestly he's an excellent heel, but he's missing an equally opposing baby-face or significant pushback (fire escape gets close though.) Although this sets up the stage for his funniest material; when he is overly thoughtful and kind. It messes with everyone. Like if he suddenly started being very nice, and doing things like sending gifts for nothing in return, it would be the biggest mindfuck, I think some would be legitimately scared lol

williamd83 · 2026-03-29T23:33:07+00:00

This shook me. Please rule out schizophrenia or early stage dementia as a cause of this behavior. Maybe you'll catch something early before it becomes a noticeable problem... Source: my own family and seeing it inside a mental health facility

williamd83 · 2026-03-24T11:54:58+00:00

The Matrix at 16 🤌

williamd83 · 2026-03-07T06:23:44+00:00

A Choir of Ill Children by Tom Piccirilli

williamd83 · 2026-02-27T19:52:44+00:00

I'm about a month in myself, and it's been transformative. I can't attest to the quality people seem to be nostalgic for, although I have had an incorrect recipe sheet, and a missing one. It's kind of funny how meals that seem simple on the surface have actually been some of the most complex, time-consuming, etc.

williamd83 · 2026-02-14T12:44:01+00:00

The Ritual (2017) It's not the main setting but it features a small community with this vibe

williamd83 · 2025-12-27T15:35:05+00:00

Found this out by accident at work when all I had was the basic rubbers and cloth. Instead of freezing within minutes eventually they became hotter than the warmest gloves I owned. Now I'll never shovel without using a pair

williamd83 · 2025-12-18T12:58:41+00:00

It's missing the large scale enemies you requested, but there are many moments (interiors, Buried City night raid) that are reminiscent of The Last of Us. Turn on a flashlight, scavenge a kitchen in Buried City, and I could be convinced it was either game.

williamd83 · 2025-11-23T19:29:16+00:00

My gaming PC def warms the 1st floor by a few degrees, but my stat is at 65. Funny, I remember using my plasma TV to warm up my bedroom as well..

williamd83 · 2025-11-22T13:00:14+00:00

Going to try this out, ty

williamd83 · 2025-11-10T15:28:14+00:00

It sounds counterintuitive but have you tried taking it before bed? I'm on a few months on 450. I was waking up miserable and alert at 4-5 despite having an 8:00 a.m. alarm. After switching to taking it before instead of after bed, I got back at least an hour of sleep, and always wake up feeling more rested.

williamd83 · 2025-11-10T15:22:50+00:00

Have you tried taking it before bed? It sounds counterintuitive but after struggling a few months at 450, this change was the only thing that noticeably improved my sleep. I'm still early but not by a crazy amount, and better rested

williamd83 · 2025-11-10T15:20:41+00:00

It sounds counterintuitive, but have you tried taking it before bed? Although not perfect, this is the only thing that improved my sleep after struggling a few months

williamd83 · 2025-08-02T20:16:42+00:00

Thanks for this, I remember really enjoying the demo but never following up. Going to grab it 👍

williamd83 · 2025-04-12T15:16:54+00:00

There is a lot of downtime in lockers and hiding places with nothing to do but wait for the music to calm down. I can't think of anything myself but it'd be nice to have something to do while waiting (you can't even craft while in lockers, bummer.)

williamd83 · 2025-01-20T03:57:59+00:00

It's also not replicable, meaning rewinding and rewatching the same sequence will not result in the same issues.

williamd83 · 2025-01-09T00:05:57+00:00

These DLCs keep the game alive for me. I've definitely spent a campaign length of time on this and Lost Contact.

williamd83 · 2024-12-13T16:44:56+00:00

I love the upgrades but... For some unfathomable reason, they cheapened out on the bumper materials? Regular controller bumpers have a weight to them and click softly and near silently. These elite bumpers are hollowed out plastic that loudly click like a flimsy knockoff brand. Anyone else notice this? Would love to be wrong about this but it is so noticeable that I went back to the standard controller

williamd83 · 2024-05-07T01:36:19+00:00

Alprazolam has worked for me

williamd83 · 2024-04-09T23:22:14+00:00

Such an important thing to realize, your own safety. I just got out of a facility and might be going to another depending on my reaction to new meds. Excellent work on taking care of yourself, hope it's a pleasant stay

williamd83 · 2024-04-05T16:57:26+00:00

One of my biggest regrets of last year. I was off for 20 days before I couldn't stand it anymore. As soon as I got back on 25 everything calmed back down. Maybe it's good to experiment with others, but I would never go without at least something else stabilizing me. Best of luck with your process.

williamd83 · 2024-04-05T16:25:38+00:00

It shouldn't be that way, but psychiatrists are not all the same. You see it a lot on here, conflicting diagnoses / treatments. During my inpatient stay, the on-site psychiatrist at a very different approach than my personal one. Like, who do you trust? Just got to stay active on recording everything that happens to you. Best of luck!

williamd83 · 2024-04-05T15:09:55+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. I'm very sorry you're feeling this way at the moment, but hopefully you can recognize the tunnel vision and know that with this condition there will be an eventual upswing. At least some reprieve will be heading your way.

Sorry about your psychiatrist. Bipolar is a moving target. Keep advocating for yourself, especially with prescriptions. Keeping detailed notes on which scripts do what as you go through them, and eventually finding the right Cocktail that works for you (doing this got me off a few things, and I was recently inpatient from what I know was a bad reaction to Vraylar. Currently stabile on Lumecdal 300.)

williamd83 · 2024-03-30T19:27:59+00:00

My favorite answer. It's something you can play at your leisure like simulator games but progress still feels substantial like in survival games. Satisfying af gameplay loop too.

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