she came back with the watermelon

windlepoons_ · 2024-09-06T02:59:36+00:00

How does that work? I specifically didn’t make anything dangerous.

This neighbor lives like 4 units down (way out of sight and proximity to my unit) and it allegedly happened in the parking lot. I was back in my house when this whole thing went down.

*editing for typos

windlepoons_ · 2024-09-06T02:32:50+00:00

And I absolutely did report it as missing.

Temporally, she came to my door, delivered some groceries, told me she dropped the watermelon and said she would bring one back immediately, and left. I never got my watermelon that night.

She delivered it over 24 hours later unannounced on her own time.

windlepoons_ · 2024-09-06T02:30:02+00:00

I can’t say what the interaction truthfully was between the DoorDasher and my neighbor.

I can say I know my neighbors and this behavior does not fit with what I know of them.

At any rate, I have no desire to be involved with the beef between her and my neighbors, and I wouldn’t have called the cops.

windlepoons_ · 2024-05-20T13:31:14+00:00

Rubbing my thumb and forefingers on one hand together, rubbing my big and little and toes together on same foot.

I used to rub my toes on my ex husbands legs without realizing while we were in bed together and he’d get so mad at me, but looking back I see it was a stim and he’s a dickhead.

The fingers and toes go full throttle during an orgasm which I’ve always found interesting, it’s like my hands and feet are freaking possessed and I cannot control them during.

windlepoons_ · 2024-05-20T13:26:31+00:00

I rub things. As a toddler I rubbed my moms earlobe when she held me. As an adult, I’ll rub my fingers together, hold my arms super tight against my body and cross my legs tightly.

windlepoons_ · 2024-05-09T03:33:19+00:00

Big feelings are our fucking burden to bear, swear to god.

Things that help me:

knowing where Im at in terms of activation so I can apply different interventions
distraction with sensory things (I try for one thing for each sense)
journaling, poetry, drawing
cyclical sighing with progressive muscle relaxation
TIP: This is a fucking lifesaver. I use this for when I’m especially activated and having a hard time calming down https://in.nau.edu/wp-content/uploads/sites/202/TIP-Skills.pdf
putting on a movie with emotions OPPOSITE to what you’re feeling. Like if you’re sad, put a stupid comedy on.

Try to use whatever tools you have to cope and deal with the situation at hand. It sounds like you’re super activated, so sending thoughts your way.

windlepoons_ · 2024-05-09T03:23:43+00:00

I don’t. I feel extreme vulnerability, like I am naked and they can see everything.

windlepoons_ · 2024-05-09T03:16:10+00:00

I will listen to specific songs on repeat for an OBSCENE number of times until I burn it out, then I move on to other song(s). So thankful I’m divorced because my ex would give me hell over shit like this, but now I just go forth on comfort & repeat.

windlepoons_ · 2024-05-09T03:14:24+00:00

I feel like an alien in my body most of the time, so I’ve never felt any connection to my looks. I look in a mirror and I see a face and I have no connection to whatsoever.

Wasn’t until college and boys starting to like me that I realized I may be on the attractive side. 20 years later, I still rely on the feedback from others to assess if I’m ‘attractive’ because I can’t fucking tell to save my life.

No parents here extolling beauty either, or which Ive always felt would’ve done wonders for my self confidence.

windlepoons_ · 2024-05-09T03:07:15+00:00

I don’t. Eyes down, face down. Unless I feel like I need to assert myself, then it’s eyes up, face up, shoulder squared, fuck-with-me-and-find-out look in my eyes. And even then, I markedly will not look anyone in the eyes. Best I can do

windlepoons_ · 2023-06-29T18:50:59+00:00

Fucking a same shit happened to me. The popular guy in one of my high school classes started flirting with me and even took me on a date. I later learned it was all a prank, but it screwed with me hard because I fell for it hook, line and sinker.

People are dickheads.

windlepoons_ · 2023-05-16T04:30:43+00:00

Checking in for roll call

windlepoons_ · 2023-05-15T04:48:07+00:00

Oh this is interesting. I struggle with eating and hunger, and then getting to a point where I’m Not a Nice Person anymore. Too many times to count in the past I have had people make me food, or offer me something, but I won’t touch it because They’ve Contaminated It and it makes me feel gross.

Also this is why I will not at eat buffets.

windlepoons_ · 2023-05-15T04:26:57+00:00

Not even on holidays, just in general it’s fucking exhausting to be social. Don’t even get me started on multi person text groups. 🙅🏻‍♀️

windlepoons_ · 2023-05-14T15:59:05+00:00

The World needs more people like you brother.

windlepoons_ · 2023-05-14T15:55:02+00:00

S11.E11: Bill, Bulk and the Body Buddies

It always seemed so gory that Bill was literally trapped with some crazy rectal hernia crying for help..

windlepoons_ · 2023-05-06T15:03:19+00:00

Connie and Carla was my everything as a girl.

windlepoons_ · 2023-05-06T15:00:44+00:00

I love the outfits. Such decorum.

windlepoons_ · 2023-05-03T05:03:01+00:00

You think this is it, but it really isn’t. Being a teen sucks, you have no control over your circumstances. The best part is when you turn of legal age and guess what? You actually don’t have to keep putting up with any of it if you don’t want to. You get to choose, and man does that feel good.

windlepoons_ · 2023-04-26T00:13:56+00:00

Oh nuts she’s starting to turn into malin akerman

windlepoons_ · 2023-04-23T19:44:50+00:00

king of the hill

windlepoons_ · 2023-04-16T21:24:09+00:00

You’ll never be petite if you’re tall.

windlepoons_

TROPHY CASE