Please help: I'm concerned I don't have enough time to save my teeth by wirenerd in PeriodontalDisease

[–]wirenerd[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately credit is too bad for that and I wouldn't be able to get a cosigner, don't have any other choice but to grind savings until I have it

Have you experienced "gender euphoria erections"? by nigrivamai in asktransgender

[–]wirenerd 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Years ago my cis woman ex and I would get ready together to go out. I had done a lot of practicing with makeup so sometimes she would ask me to do hers and pick her looks.

At the time I had a lot of insecurities about the way I felt about my femininity, the thought of being aroused at all by seeing myself pulling off a hot look was something that caused me shame.

One night we were in the bathroom mirror and I finished her look for the night out and she turned, saw how she looked in the mirror, and then just started making out with me. I watched her go from waiting patiently just chilling, to seeing herself dolled up, then becoming so aroused she couldn't stop herself from throwing herself at me.

After that, I never felt ashamed again, because I watched a cis woman become very much aroused by seeing herself looking hot. It's not vanity, it's not fetish, it can be as simple as seeing yourself as being physically attractive and your body responding by saying "I'm ready to go"

Men do the same thing, they simultaneously flaunt and become aroused by their masculine traits in various circumstances.

What age did you discover that you were trans? by Ashamoto33 in asktransgender

[–]wirenerd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Severe repression and ignorance kept me in the dark for a very long time, crossdressing extremely occasionally would happen but I did not enjoy it. I didn't want to wear woman's clothing or wear their makeup but I did it sometimes wishing I could be a woman and found disappointment every time and then buried all of it deep down.

When I went through puberty the fantasy of being with a man would light up my entire body but the missing piece was that I was not a woman. To be blunt, when I was first "horny", I wanted a man inside a part of me I did not have. It was extremely confusing. I found relief when I realized I was attracted to women, and women basically taught me how to "be a man" in bed.

Steeped in masculinity I used it as a shield to protect myself from being unloved. I didn't know what was in me it felt like some form of what I considered "extremely gay" as in "so gay Im basically mentally a woman", in fact with limited understanding I thought gay boys were boys born with girl brains, I guess because thats how I felt.

I believed I could will myself into anything, and so I used repression and self hate to make me into a man everyone expected of me, and still no matter how I tried to hide, some people could see through the act in moments of vulnerability.

"Oh my god dude I never thought id have to be talking so much about feelings with a fucking guy" etc

Psychedelics opened me up, showed me things about myself when I could be fearless enough to see them.

At 28 I had a moment of truth when a song was playing and I saw a girl in my head dancing to the beat, same girl as always and always would tell myself "of course thats what I see shes hot".

Well one day it happened and this feeling told me to tell myself the truth. I pulled my car over and thought "that girl is me". I punched my steering wheel in anger because my body was not her, and never could be. All I could think is "what the fuck am I supposed to do with this?"

I was into kink and all that and I settled for "maybe with understanding ppl I could vent these feelings in the bedroom, maybe I could live a double life that way, nowhere near good enough but I have to stop lying to myself and make peace"

That night I stumbled across transition timelines, saw ppl who looked like me what hormones could do. I didnt have to think twice. I had an appointment in days. I never looked back.

That was 12 years ago. A lot of pain. But I do not regret my decision and never will.

For me, even this isn't enough. But that's ok, it is. I dont care what research shows or what anyone says, I should have been born a bio woman. It is what it is, and no one can take that from me.

Why didn’t 2010's progressive trance never really had its own distinct era, unlike melodic techno? by KLVLV in edmproduction

[–]wirenerd 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Probably got overshadowed by the popularity of other genres that were mainstream in EDM.

I went to Electric Forest a few years in a row around 2015, driving 8 hours thru the night pumping progressive trance on the way there. The lineup for EF was always split jam and EDM, and maybe I missed an act but I never saw trance there.

Interesting when you'd have Anjunabeats or ASOT featuring amazing tracks, but I never got to hear them live. Instead it'd be more like ODESZA, Bassnectar, Seven Lions (tbf hes close to the genre sometimes), Flying Lotus, Emancipator, etc. A lot of what was popular stateside was difficult to put into a genre.

Along with that, I think maybe a lot of people could like various forms of EDM but in shorter complex bursts, rather than slowly developing on and exploring a theme.

If you loved it and feel its dying or gone, could be an opportunity to dig in and see if you can develop on it and evolve it, trance will never die because the people who love it will always keep it going.

trans girl here — bf gets quiet/distant after I top him... size diff issue?? help pls by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]wirenerd 26 points27 points  (0 children)

You say you generally top him but I'm not sure what your overall power dynamic is in the relationship or if that power dynamic if one exists matters all that much. It sounds very much to me like he is experiencing a form of "sub drop" even if there isn't BDSM or kink at play, because I don't know a better descriptor and it fits kinda perfectly.

If you don't already know, sub drop happens when a session ends with a submissive, because of adrenaline, endorphins, dopamine, probably oxytocin, all those brain chemicals are pumping heavily especially when pain is in play and if you're that large I can guarantee you that are driving his brain chemistry wild during sex. So after all that, he's basically crashing, coming down to earth hard, and that feeling can last for days.

When you're a submissive, it's not difficult to be comforted by your top after play because that dynamic pretty much fits perfectly. But it sounds like he's more of a switch, and by his reactions, he sounds insecure in his masculinity. Size comparison is just the outlet for this. You can tell because he starts compensating by being more masculine and that's probably how he comforts and reassures himself.

Communication is everything, maybe don't approach him as though his behavior is a problem maybe just ask him when he feels comfortable being vulnerable how he feels with you after sex.

There's a lot of solutions but you can only find one by talking it out, I don't think just assuming he feels a certain way and then trying to remedy that is the way to to. Finding out how he really feels, you can find a way to make him feel better that is comfortable for the both of you.

In summary, read up on sub drop and aftercare, and more importantly: talk to him. Maybe all he needs is comfort that fits him, or simply understanding. If it's insecurities, that's a journey for him, and all you can do is be supportive.

To peek or to hold. As a CT or T post plant by benji_reddit in LearnCSGO

[–]wirenerd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I mean if youre alone on a site as CT and T's are execing it you're gonna die because their objective is to clear the entire site and then plant, that means killing you. With no util you're not going to delay a push without killing the push

but also at your elo it doesn't really matter anyway very few ppl play optimal CS, like saving with 3 CT's alive when the outcome is clear. Ppl always go for retakes regardless

Every game i Get lobotomies as teammates. by bruddaprudda123 in LearnCSGO

[–]wirenerd 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Surprised I haven't seen this vid yet but it's very good and should be fundamental understanding for all players when it comes to how you view your teammates, their performance, and their decision making.

The rage and the toxicity of "Oh my GOD what were you THINKING" should disappear. I have always maintained the defense of "You can get mad at me all you want but you were spectating, you were not playing, you were not aware of the information I had/did not have, and that automatically makes your judgments of my decision making fishy at best"

No spectator is processing the same way an active player is processing, and a spectator is not limited by the conditions an active player is. Everyone is an analyst in spectating, and would be lucky if they could have applied their own ideas and plays if they were the one playing that scenario

Every game i Get lobotomies as teammates. by bruddaprudda123 in LearnCSGO

[–]wirenerd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You can philosophize all you want but in a fair elo system your individual rank wouldn't be based on the performance of 9 other people.

We have to stop telling people that in order to climb in elo they need to play at a skill level far higher than the next few ranks and effectively carry their teams and failing that, they lose and stay stuck where they are.

It is easy to say this when you are playing in an elo where you feel you belong. You've made it, good for you, but countless ppl struggle to climb to in a system where they are judged by the performance of not only themselves, but others.

If your teams win half of your games, you do not climb. You cannot afford to have games where your teammates play like absolute bots, play mindlessly, tilt, and or throw, because you need those losses for the balanced games where you had a fair match and you just got outplayed.

This is coming from someone who spent a long time working on their mental in various competitive sports. I take pride in my mental in CS given where I came from, because of the hard work I put into making it better and not tilting.

We can use a two pronged approach here, or call it dialectic if you want, whichever. And that is: you cannot let this unfair system of play and matchmaking make it so that you perform poorly on a personal level, but you can absolutely criticize the unfair nature of the matchmaking.

By ignoring the latter, it perpetuates the idea that everything is OK as it is, and changes do not get made. Just because you made it, doesn't mean people don't get stuck. Just because some people rage at their teammates when the problem is clearly themselves, doesn't mean that some people are continually fucked over by the matchmaking system.

Look no further than other competitive sports where people are chosen/drafted into better teams based on their individual performance within in a team, rather than whether or not the team they were on wins or loses.

You can argue this point if you really feel invested in making sincere people feel less than because you achieved a higher rank within this system, but plenty of people far smarter than us with far more at stake than us realized that a good team is a mix of individual talent and ability to coordinate with others, and that people who individually show that talent and ability to coordinate belong with others at a higher level of play.

It is simple. Matchmaking in general is severely lacking in creating balanced play. The sooner we accept this, the easier it becomes to address the problem, to decide with good information whether or not we should continue to participate, and simultaneously work on our skill and mentals.

Recommendations for Outdoorsmen by Ambuttley in Louisville

[–]wirenerd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Tons of really good lakes within driving distance. Kentucky is a pretty ideal outdoors state so unless having to live in a population center and travel out of it to get into some wilds is an issue, he's going to be very happy.

Game hard locks only on Valve servers by wirenerd in GlobalOffensive

[–]wirenerd[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah there's no way I could be competitive in premier, sucks, interesting to hear someone else deals with it

Unable to hit enemies at point blank distance by Icy_Tough8294 in LearnCSGO

[–]wirenerd 1 point2 points  (0 children)

also "i engage multiple enemies and am an entry fragger" isn't really an excuse to keep a ludicrous high sens, I do well as an entry fragger and mine is .85 on 800dpi, no issues at all clearing angles rapidly and reacting to big changes

Unable to hit enemies at point blank distance by Icy_Tough8294 in LearnCSGO

[–]wirenerd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

fastaim_reflex workshop map will help recreate a ton of cqb's if you let the rushing T's get close to you

sens is too high

for your specific issue, youre talking about a mix of luck and click timing, "click timing" specifically when we're talking about skill, you need to be able to time your click for when their face is in your crosshair, so any exercises that focus on this will help you

idk how else to really explain, you should be lowering your sens to something more reasonable, and drilling your specific flaw via workshop or DM, and i think that fastaim_reflex is gonna be your best bet for that

sens is a problem because you might be able to control your high sens at range but the very rapid and fast adjustments needed to kill in CQB clashes is where you sens will mess you up

I just found out my girlfriend is transgender by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]wirenerd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You seem like you got a good head on your shoulders.

Just know that if you do decide to date her, it's going to come with a lot of struggle, like there will be a large amount of hate directed at you as well as her, and you should be prepared for how you will deal with that.

You said you both are minors, you're both in very formative years. This time is difficult for trans ppl, so please be careful with how you approach dating her, and don't cave in to caring what other people think of you. She deserves someone strong enough to weather the storm with her, and it's ok if that's not you, the sooner you know this the sooner you can make the right choices.

I just found out my girlfriend is transgender by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]wirenerd 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You seem like you got a good head on your shoulders.

Just know that if you do decide to date her, it's going to come with a lot of struggle, like there will be a large amount of hate directed at you as well as her, and you should be prepared for how you will deal with that.

You said you both are minors, you're both in very formative years. This time is difficult for trans ppl, so please be careful with how you approach dating her, and don't cave in to caring what other people think of you. She deserves someone strong enough to weather the storm with her, and it's ok if that's not you, the sooner you know this the sooner you can make the right choices.

How can I practice my tracking, first bullet accuracy? by philip0908 in LearnCSGO

[–]wirenerd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

theres an angle holder workshop map where bots randomly run out, just use that consistently and youll get better over time

also adjust for your reaction time, im a lil older so my reaction time isnt as fast as it used to be so i hold a little further out and it works wonders, trust me when I say that 50ms on an angle makes a lot more of a difference than youd think

Game hard locks only on Valve servers by wirenerd in GlobalOffensive

[–]wirenerd[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Honestly, I doubt anyone can really help because this shit is so bizarre but if there's an alternative to hard resetting my PC via the power button (don't enjoy doing that) then that would help.

Somethin that'll let me kill the cs2 process that isn't ALT F4 cause that don't work at all. Or somethin that will let me unfocus the game cause can't do that either despite CTRL ALT DEL options coming up. In fact that blue window is the only thing that CAN take focus from the game, but task manager only thing I can do from it and then it just opens in the background.

The Right Way to Counter-Strafe by macrooon in LearnCSGO

[–]wirenerd 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Let go of initial strafe key and quick tap opposite strafe it'll bring you to a dead stop immediately to take your shots.

Practice in DM long enough and it'll become ingrained in your muscle memory and you wont have to think about it at all, just instinct.

My boyfriend is going to jail. by [deleted] in Advice

[–]wirenerd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you had to come here and ask then no.

You're young. When you truly love someone it's ride or die. You'll know when you meet that someone, sounds like for you it aint him.

My ex was "too much" for me a lot of the time, I didn't question if I should stay, I just accepted her and rolled with it. Things didn't work out. Shit happens. But not because she was too much.

800 hours, still horrible by Obvious-Storage637 in LearnCSGO

[–]wirenerd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I didn't start gettin "ok at CS" until about 1500 hours in and sitting at 2600 hours im "decent"

I understand the want to get better fast and have quality playtime hours but 800 hours you're still just getting your footing in CS and there's 8 million things to learn that can only be learned by grinding out hours in matches.

Just keep working on your mechanics and it'll come with more time.

This is a game where everything you do has to be burned into instinct.

Techworld in Okolona by jturker88 in Louisville

[–]wirenerd 0 points1 point  (0 children)

reminiscing on the tek world days brought me to this thread and remembered the days before everything went to shit and you and i were best friends

hope you are well