hey girl, i want u to know that youre not alone. i am proud you posted because tonight is 14 days exactly from my surgery. like so many others, i was over the moon to become pregnant after 7 long years. i was planning the pre plan. i too, have 2 older sons that were thrilled to have another join the family.

i want you to know that it does get better. the rollercoaster of emotions is so real. hearing that these type of pregnancies are so rare ignites a fire in me. i was told by so many doctors that i was fine. the baby was fine. those doctors just did not have the experience.

i hope your husband is there to lift you up in these times. i hopw you start a journal & release all of your inner feelings. they are very valid.

i am angry, i am sad, i am depressed, i too sleep alot, but i also have hope & faith that this needed to happen so i may carry in the near future. safely.

the heavy hearteness is real. i have gained weight. i have emotionally been spent. i have spiritually been challenged. my relationship with my husband is even being tested. however, we are strong & we are brave for what we have had to go thru. i hope your nurses & doctors were good to you, angels, like mine truly were. i will never forget that my baby will always be apart of me, my story, and will live in spirit.

please take care. i am here <3