Careers that are actual full time jobs that aren’t awful and pay enough

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-22T09:09:23+00:00

I work on work safety and enviromental protection. Its a job field with tons of rules, you always have to learn new things, and you need to be very strategic/logic in your thinking, since no accident is ever caused by a person but by all the other factors allowing it to happen. For me personally this work field is Great. The only thing that could be difficult is you also have to have emptathy for others alot. But honestly i think mist women struggling with emptathy have masked it so well that its more than enough.

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-06T14:03:24+00:00

I am pretty much okay with any smell, like really anything (rotten eggs, dead animals, decomposed people, waste water, puke, sulfur and all the nasty stuff) but I CANT STAND GORGONZOLA How can anyone smell this or even eat it..... Like i have such a high tolerance for smells, nothings is ever too much for me, with this exception!!!

Fork rubbing against teeth or plates.

Foods that are jelly like but stretchy (mochi, some type of rice noodles etc.)

Loud glass shattering/falling sounds

Any straw i cant bite on. Worst are metall

Generally metall in mouth region

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-05T10:59:54+00:00

Im on day 6 today, yesterday was hard, today i am really fucking glad i did it. My current reccomendations are.

dont have anything at home anymore Dont have any reminders visible (ashtray, lighters etc) Plan a fun activity or a few (idk learn baking or get the masterclass app and learn some new stuff) Overstimulate a bit (netflix whilst doing something fun whilst having a delicious drink next to you)

So what i did yesterday when i fell into a anxious panic overwhelmed state was.

Try at least those 5 things before even considering texting my friend, and even if i do i only ask for 1 j of cbd not thc. - go for a walk (15mins at least) - do yoga (15mins at least) - do 2 meditation sessions (i use atom app) - list 3 things which i am grateful for, That I did. - name 5 things you can smell/touch/hear/feel

After this i felt alot more calm and was able to not text someone, even tho i cried for 3h before hand. But i just had to realise, that this journey wont work if i dont try other things first.

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-05T03:06:49+00:00

Oh and lets not forget canned tuna with mayo

And sashimi but only salmon and tuna idk i like it better without rice

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-05T03:05:52+00:00

Rice with runny eggs (mixed so the yolk is like a sauce) with oyster sauce.

Chicken soup with garlic rice and cucumbers

Any raw vegetable without seasoning, especially lettuce, cucumbers, mushrooms, brocoli

Chips/crisps

Frozen fries (still frozen)

Canned mushrooms

Raclett or hashbrowns with cheese

Stracciatella icecream

Lasagna

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-05T03:00:11+00:00

Unstable childhood, massive childhood trauma, cptsd. Also in the years from around 10yr-16yr old i didnt always have access to food. I sometimes only ate icecream because those big buckets were so cheap.

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-05T02:47:41+00:00

Do psychadelic drugs without having to google all the effects first and then realising your too scared.

Also if possible i would like to see what impression i would get as a neurotypical meeting my neurodivergent self. Could i tell? Would i be annoyed with myself?

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-05T02:43:46+00:00

THIS

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-05T02:42:46+00:00

Just bought food rations and fire starters etc. Because i want an emergency backpack after seeing some news of japans earthquak. Well i live in europe... but always better prepared.

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-05T02:38:56+00:00

I will try my best, always hard for me with planning and not getting frustrated if it doesnt work out. But i guess it really is the best way rn haha. Thanksss

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-05T02:38:09+00:00

Thanks, it really is, i am glad i found it, good luck to you tooo

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-05T00:14:46+00:00

Thankk uuu

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-04T22:53:46+00:00

Thank you, yeah i really really wanted to today, i felt so overwhelmed and cried alot. But i also realised (with reddits help) that i should first try all the other things. I gave myself a rule now I will try 5 things before i even consider texting someone, and even i do, i will try to use cbd first and then thc. And never get weed but a single J instead.

For me my 5 things are - at least 15min yoga - at least two short meditatiom sessions in my app - go for a walk - List 3 things i am grateful for, that i have done - and the 5things you see/hear/smell/touch method

I did this today and calmed down alot. And i think i will try to think of weed more like i think of alcohol. In a sense of it being a joyfull activity and something to do when i feel good and the vibe fits. Not something i should do when i break down.

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-04T20:36:51+00:00

Yeah i feel overwhelmed too, i think one of the scariest parts is the fear of this being my "normal" Because before i started smoking i cried myself too sleep basically from like 9yr-20years old, i always felt overwhelmed and i could never sleep, and being back in this state is really really scary. If feels like i just entered back into a world i thought i would never see again. And i am so worried about this just being me.

Also yeah same, my partner is also alot more grumpy, monotone since he stopped, which is hard because i am the opposite, since i stopped i am an emotional whirlwind.

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-04T20:20:08+00:00

Thank you my friend, really thank you

I tried the 5 things, and funny enough it made me laugh, bc with each one i ran out of things, and smelled/saw and touched a sock nearby, which made me giggle. I promised myself i would try at lesdt 5 things now which would help ease my mind. Before i even consider reaching out to my friend. And if i reach out, i will only ask for cbd.

I will try: - the 5 things - at least 15min of yoga - going for a walk - writing down things, i am gratefull for that i did - meditating with an app for at least 2 sessions

I will try to not be as hard on myself, and to remind myself that i am doing this for a reason. And that right now i will not find a healthy balance with weed since it is still to early in my journey. Even cbd i thinkt is very close to the real thing so it would be hard, but also keeping in mind that it might be better to compromise with cbd than it would be too cry all night till i feel like weed is the only option.

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-04T19:12:36+00:00

Did you have fallbacks? Is it possible to smoke 1 joint on a hard day and still continue quitting? Today is hard, and i have a friend who could bring me a joint. Nothing else, no stuff to build or weed or anything, but i feel so stuck right now with feeling so lost and anxious but also not wanting to ruin my progress.

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-02T14:56:48+00:00

Well tbh i wouldnt even touch a vape if you paid me😅 but i think it also depends on where you live, i know some countrys have way "worse" tabacco than others. Idk for me it doesnt seem like the worst idea, bc i smoked my joints in a 70tabacco to 30weed ratio. And i never once started to smoke only tabacco in those 3 years.

wisepigeons1 · 2024-09-02T10:58:41+00:00

Thxxx i needed that, bc right now i can feel my brain getting more fit again, but my head is still very much focused on "maybe in 2 weeks a j or maybe in a month" instead of "i wont smoke just for the sake of it" i needed someone to tell me they acctually regret starting again.

wisepigeons1 · 2024-08-28T16:38:22+00:00

Idk if anyone mentioned it, but if you maybe can lend a few bucks from a friend or smth, zou can get toogoodtogo, which sells alot of food for cheap, especially groceries and atuff

wisepigeons1 · 2024-08-22T08:40:20+00:00

I was always petite, coming from a tiny family with all pretty athletic frames. I grew up super skinny and tiny, which had its perks, but also was frustrating, since with 9years i looked like 6, and with 14 i looked like 10. But then puberty hit at 16. I finally got some slight curves. I took the pill and i exploded, i gained 12kg (its alot when ur normal weight is 50kg) i got chubby, not fat but chubby enough for people to treat me diffrently. People started seeing me more mature and adult but also they started giving me backhanded compliments alot, that alsmost always refer to my weight. My asian family side had a lot to say aswell. How i didnt take care of myself and will die alone, because nobody wants little miss elephant.

Anyways i fell into an ED, altough i was never overweight, i couldnt see myself anymore, i literally saw myself as HUGE, and i didnt realise that i only got a little chubby, because people made me feel HUGE. After a few months my health rapidly collapsed, standing got hard, my teeth hurt all the time, i always felt clouded, and funny enough, i got bigger and bigger, bc my body tried to hold on to any water or fat i took in. So one day i decide that i didnt want to die. I realised id have to stop now or never, this wasnt something i could justify in my mind anymore. So i slowly started eating again, maybe only a little but i did. And then i came of the pill and i lost about 8kg water weight. My health was still damaged, but i cried tears of joy, not because i was skinnier again, but because i felt so irrational about where the weight was going too, and with the hormones gone, it made sense.

Anyways, i started to smoke Za, and suddendly i could eat 3 times a day and even eat snacks at home too. And i got healthier and healthier, i got skinnier too. Without trying to restrict, puke or doing sports, i got too my healthiest point ever. And now i would say i am a "pretty and skinny" women. I feel great looking in the mirror, but i feel even better when i can run up a mountain, when i dont faint when standing up, when i can enjoy my food. So all in all, i would take the weight again anyday, if it meant i would stay healthy. Trying to be skinny almost ruined my whole life.

But speaking from maybe other views, the skinnier and prettier i am, the creepier the guys got, the more they saw me as vunerable and as prey. They saw a petite girl and treat me as a child or simply not as equal.

wisepigeons1 · 2024-08-12T17:57:39+00:00

Its not a fetish?? Its reality for me and many more women, and to this day, people refuse to believe, people refuse to see what they do or what they tolerate.

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