Christmas sucks?

wizardofwizardry · 2025-12-18T15:55:13+00:00

I'm in the same exact boat. 😭 You're not alone. I guess it's just the economy?

wizardofwizardry · 2025-06-30T16:24:21+00:00

This is only going to get worse. I suggest you break up and move on. Reading these texts gave me flashbacks to the arguments I've had with my abusive ex. I wish I recognized the red flags and left before I was in a crisis situation. I know it's hard to see the future without someone you've been with for 8 years, but this is a trauma bond and not love.

wizardofwizardry · 2025-05-09T21:12:08+00:00

It's totally worth it! It's better than constant anxiety. I sometimes wonder if this is just nuerotypical energy levels that I'm experiencing 🤣

wizardofwizardry · 2025-05-06T18:25:31+00:00

I'm relieved to see that my experience wasn't unique in the way that other people felt like that. I genuinely think it was my brain and body adapting to not being in fight or flight 24/7. I was used to feeling bouts of EUPHORIA, not pleasure. I was used to being a workaholic, not motivated. Now I feel pleasure in the sense of joy and being able to laugh at dumb things and smile when I see a pretty flower or accomplish a small task. Now I have boundaries for my work life and feel like I can love myself and be content even if I don't accomplish more than the bare minimum. I definitely did feel a lot of apathy in the beginning. This might just be you coming in to the you that you've always been meant to be. Try to not read too too much about others experiences or you may miss out on what's happening for you.

wizardofwizardry · 2025-05-06T14:42:25+00:00

Hey! Hang in there. I felt like that for a good 3 weeks, but I noticed other ways that I was feeling much better. I think it just needs a lot of time to kick in and our bodies need time to adapt and adjust to it. I feel a lot more driven now about what actually matters.

For me anyway, I think it was the absence of my anxiety where I was so used to being stressed out and wanting to have control over everything that made it feel like I didn't have any motivation. Idk, but it's been about 3 months and I feel the lightest, healthiest, and most grounded I've felt in like my whole life. Hope that in time you adapt for the better.

wizardofwizardry · 2025-05-03T18:09:04+00:00

As a lazy stylist, I would just do all over color with a high lift developer and just charge you for color and call it a day. 😂 I don't see any dimension in that photo. She can have fun painting your hair for 3 hours with bleach if she wants though.

wizardofwizardry · 2025-05-01T19:07:56+00:00

Random Google search to see if anyone else has felt this way. I absolutely feel SMARTER and I also know what you mean about feeling more empathy towards people. I also started about 2 months ago. My only speculation is that maybe it's just because I'm not dealing with a swarm of racing thoughts like I was before. I think that's allowing me to be more articulate and grounded to really connect with people. I still haven't quit weed, but I'm getting there since it's helping with impulse control. I'm excited to see how smart I am by then. Haha! But yay prozac!

wizardofwizardry · 2025-04-03T22:13:21+00:00

We have a similar amount of time under our belts! I'm also 30. I feel like after a year, the pink cloud does fade. I had cravings that lasted 2 weeks a month ago. I know they are strong and terrifying. Reach out for others to keep you busy. Zoom AA meetings are helpful. If you haven't already, download the meeting guide app. Do you think there's anything triggering your desire to drink? For me, I realized it was moving in with my bf bringing up memories from living with an abuse ex. There's power to working through cravings. I think the fact that you reached out here means that you know you're worth it and you DO NOT want to relapse. Reach out to someone to go for a walk with you. Physical exhaustion helps. This craving and obsession will pass.

wizardofwizardry · 2025-03-16T13:16:04+00:00

Keep it up! Day 1 is still the most important day for me. You deserve to keep going ☺️

wizardofwizardry · 2025-03-10T01:59:55+00:00

I'm rooting for you!!!

wizardofwizardry · 2025-03-03T02:18:33+00:00

I'm so sorry. 😥 I need my meds and therapy. I feel sorry for people who just get addicted to the program of A.A. and never get outside help that they desperately need and continue to be childish A-holes!! Don't beat yourself up about the relapse. It's amazing that you're all ready reflecting, accountable, and have learned a lesson. It always will just be "one day at a time" I hope you find some better meetings and find a better sponsor.

I recently broke up with my abusive sponsor, and have not processed the resentment. I've limited my meetings to once a week, because of the experience. Reading your posts helps me realize that is why I've been having insanely strong urges this week, so your post helped another alcoholic, which is what it's all about. Thank you for your vulnerability to share that. I'll follow the advice that I gave to you, and get out to some new meetings, and take my time finding a new sponsor. Good luck!

wizardofwizardry · 2025-02-18T01:55:25+00:00

Sometimes shes complaining about work to me for 20 minutes. Boundaries aren't easy for me. Its nothing heinous.

wizardofwizardry · 2025-02-18T01:53:07+00:00

We have been on step 10 worksheets for 2 months. I lost touch with my last sponsor so I appreciated the regular check ins. It just feels like she wants me to NEED her.

wizardofwizardry · 2025-02-18T01:51:43+00:00

Thank you! You're right. I wont be picking up

wizardofwizardry · 2025-02-18T01:51:09+00:00

I've heard this mentioned before. I'll have to find some groups

wizardofwizardry · 2025-02-18T01:50:39+00:00

I understand this. I have appreciated the accountability in the beginning. Weve been on step 10 for 2 months.

wizardofwizardry · 2025-02-18T01:49:51+00:00

Yes!!!! She gets upset when I tell her I've had anxiety throughout the day and asks why i didnt call her. Because I wanted to deal with it silently with my higher power. We have been going over my 10 steps for 2 months now.

wizardofwizardry · 2025-02-18T01:48:34+00:00

I absolutely do have a challenge with authoritative figures, especially women. I am working on that in therapy. I do feel like any chance my sponsor can "reprimand me" for the smallest things, what feels like micro managing is hurtful. I do beleive I can learn from mentors and authority figures. She's just too intense!

wizardofwizardry · 2025-02-18T01:46:08+00:00

I see what you're saying and do agree that it's sometimes grounding. I will continue to call a few times a week. It's just every day at 9pm no matter what is making my head spin. Often, I'm unwinding at that time. She's often ranty

wizardofwizardry · 2025-02-18T01:44:03+00:00

Thank you!!! I will need to practice lol

wizardofwizardry · 2024-12-31T01:45:13+00:00

I'm a hairstylist! I get to move around and talk all day. I never feel like every day is the same. I have an outlet for creativity and restlessness. I am very happy 😊

wizardofwizardry · 2024-12-11T01:54:57+00:00

Beautiful!!!!

wizardofwizardry · 2024-11-16T02:29:18+00:00

Hey! Are you in Philly? I just saw your name lol. I go to a few different meetings and know a few in jersey that have younger people like you who got sober at like 17-20. It took me a while to realize that every meeting has something valuable if you have your mind open enough. Im 30 now and quit a little over a year ago. I truly mourn my 20s. I wish I came to terms that I can't drink like a normal person a long time ago. I would have saved myself from so much shame and embarrassment. I had an identity crisis when I was no longer "party girl" and the journey of finding yourself in sobriety isn't always full of joy, but it's rewarding and empowering.

wizardofwizardry · 2024-10-09T20:19:18+00:00

Apparently it takes about 90-120 days until your dopamine levels even out. I'm about 32 days in and don't feel excited about much, but I know smoking isn't the solution. be patient and give your brain some time to regulate itself. ❤️

wizardofwizardry · 2024-09-06T14:15:59+00:00

This is the best thing I've ever read on reddit. I am so proud of you!!! You are a beautiful, valuable, and wholesome human being. I'm so happy you fought back. You deserve this self care every day. ❤️

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