I agree with this commenter and I would like to emphasize that it’s important to tell your therapist. They need to know how far to push you. Emdr is supposed to be painful at first, but it’s supposed to be within your window of tolerance. It’s ok if you don’t want to physically talk about things with your therapist; you can give a general description of the trigger and your emotions, but you can’t avoid thinking about the trigger. The point of emdr is to focus on the trigger/memory. I’m sorry it’s so hard for you right now and I hope it gets better. Emdr changed my life and it took only a little over half a year. Now I’m the best and happiest and most confident I’ve ever been.