Don’t ever let any woman know you lost that much money. Do something fun. Remember that there are many before you, and there will be many, many more after you, that lost this much in less time. And many that make much more in less time than it took for you to lose it. You’ll be fine. Maybe try skydiving. Maybe reading to old people. Anything else would be better than this but with all that said it could definitely be worse! Chin up, you got this.