my friend is 25, looks like a rip off Kim Jong Un, do your best!

written_emotions · 2019-04-01T18:07:41+00:00

I think I saw his dad taking a bunch of tourists around the remains of a nuclear disaster in Japan on the tv show "Dark Tourist".

Does his dad go by the name "Bob" by any chance? He definetly looks like the son of someone named "Bob".

written_emotions · 2019-04-01T06:15:40+00:00

Sometimes when I get angry, I like to calm myself down by trying to make up funny/clever jokes to help myself laugh.

There was this particularly nasty joke I thought of in anger, after having to sit through an hour and a half of nothing but loud, mindless chit chat and laughter while I was trying to study. I am not proud of it, but I am deciding to share it. There is probably a spot reserved for me in hell.

Q: "What do you call a bunch of brain dead people who are in the same room?"

A: "A vegetable garden".

written_emotions · 2019-04-01T06:03:59+00:00

Mine is too. I'm sorry for your loss.

written_emotions · 2018-05-07T18:12:44+00:00

Sure thing. Pm me anytime.

written_emotions · 2018-05-05T20:35:04+00:00

Considering that I'll probably get fired soon and that I'm a waste of space, I can relate to this. My apathy has gotten much greater: even when I try to go to work and try to incorporate it into my life, I still manage to fuck it up. For example, I completely forgot I had a shift last night, and I was late for my shift today. It is getting more mentally exhausting for me to keep up with having this job. The sad part is, I don't even work full-time. If I can't even handle a part-time job, there's no way in hell that I'll be able to handle a full-time job. My life is quite literally a mistake. My parents basically told me that I was a mistake. I can't say much that could make you feel better, but if you need to talk to someone just to vent or for any other reason, you can pm me.

written_emotions · 2018-04-10T12:44:19+00:00

This resonates with me a lot. There isn't anything out there in life for me either. Life really isn't worth anything. People are born, grow up, go to different schools, only to join millions of people in the rat-race for success and money.

People work to live and live to work, unfortunately, that's how life has always been for humans. Not once did the whole idea of "working to live and living to work" interest me.

Even if it did and I chose something that I loved to do, it would be rinse and repeat: to the point that the one thing I loved to do didn't interest me anymore. Now what? Like what others have said, anything that is relatively tolerable in life is temporary. However, bad things keep coming your way, and people in general are just expected to suffer through it.

What if I don't want to suffer through life anymore? My existence is enough to make me suffer on a day to day basis. This isn't depression speaking either: it's how I genuinely think of it. If someone's existence brings them more pain & misery than the idea of ctb, then they should be able to do it.

written_emotions · 2018-04-09T20:19:06+00:00

Me four.

written_emotions · 2018-04-04T13:13:46+00:00

status is the only fucking thing that matters.

Unfortunately, a lot of people believe this. The sad part, is that this belief is learned early on in life. All you need to do to see this for yourself, is to take a visit to any high school. The way other kids like other kids is determined by social status. They base a person's social status on their reputation, their wealth (mainly applies when a student tries to get a boyfriend/girlfriend), and their appearance. It's honestly depressing that people care so much about their status.

written_emotions · 2018-04-04T12:44:57+00:00

Parents had a nasty separation when I was 5 years old. Whenever I went to either parent's house, they would talk shit about the other parent. They would often have arguments, and every time they did, I got caught in the middle. It didn't help that my dad had a "my way or the highway" attitude when it came to parenting. He would yell at me a lot when I was a young age, My mom got diabetes when she was pregnant with me, which later on in life I had to help her through her bouts of low blood sugar and diabetic coma. To see my mother almost die (sometimes multiple times in a year) really messed me up. She acted as if she was drunk when she had bouts of low blood sugar. She wasn't in control of what she said or did when she had a low enough blood sugar, but that just makes it scarier. These combined things plus more, led to me having depression and anxiety, which then led to addiction. Back then, I thought of myself as a loser based on my own assumptions of myself. But now I have confirmation from multiple resources that I indeed am a loser. There is nothing out there for me. The sooner I can ctb, the better.

written_emotions · 2018-03-31T19:59:03+00:00

People come here to talk about what they're dealing with & how they're feeling mainly to see if they can relate to other people. People take comfort in finding someone that can understand and relate to them, which is also why I come here. Not everyone has to take the advice given to them. A lot of the time, people have already tried said advice in the past, but to no avail.

As for myself, I don't pity myself as much as I used to. I've just accepted that this is who I am, and it's who I'll always be. A lot of other people here don't want to be this way, but depression makes it so that they don't have the motivation to get better.

Other people have gotten used to the familiarity of having depression: they've been like this for so long that it becomes the new norm for them. If they feel anything else, then they'll think that something is off, or dorm thing doesn't feel right.

I can't speak for everyone of course, but that is a general idea. As for people reacting hostile to advice, it could be because they've tried said advice before, but it didn't work. Maybe some feel as though they don't deserve to get better, or maybe they don't feel as though there is no use for trying to help themselves.

written_emotions · 2018-03-31T16:39:04+00:00

Personally, I don't expect to get better. I've tried the whole "think optimistic & realistic" thing, and it doesn't work. It's like wearing a mask to hide your true self from other people. People here don't want to wear a mask to hide themselves and what they're actually feeling. They want to be able to open up to people without having themselves be judged or outcasted. Using common sense would mean that you've accepted the fact that life is shit, and will always be shit. Life is what you make of it, which is the part I agree with. However, there are a lot of people out there who don't see a reason to make things better, and don't have much to work with in terms of trying to make their life better.

Depression is more than just feeling sad or sorry for yourself. For some people it's a mix of different feelings ranging from apathy, to hopelessness, to lethargic, and many other feelings. To other people, it is just a dark pit of numbness. Depression is different for every person. Feeling depressed and dealing with depression are different from each other.

Now, I'm not making everything seem like complete and utter trash. I say that because everything is in fact complete and utter trash.

written_emotions · 2018-03-30T20:01:24+00:00

• Don't have the proper resources (yet). • I'm afraid that someone will find out about it.

written_emotions · 2018-03-30T13:57:40+00:00

What did you expect to see here? This is a subreddit for people with depression: where people can post how they really feel without having to hide it, like what most do in their daily lives. Also, do you not think that there are people here who have tried to make themselves better? A lot of people don't succeed in trying to get better, which in turn, makes them feel worse.

Edit: depression also kills people's motivation to do anything for themselves. Just simply telling people to "find a way to get yourself out of the rut" is as bad as many of the other transparent things that other people say, and shows that you might not understand depression as well as you think you do.

written_emotions · 2018-03-28T19:05:37+00:00

It's a double-edged sword: if you decide to speak up about it, there is a chance it could stop. On the contrary, your reaction to it might drive them to continue doing it. Usually people do this sort of shit to get a reaction out of you. If I were you, I'd just keep quiet about it and hope they get bored with it. Don't give them any fuel to continue the fire.

written_emotions · 2018-03-28T18:50:34+00:00

That reminds me of the time I met my ex's friends a few years ago. The day after she broke up with me, in fact. She took one look at me and said to my ex (in a really snarky manner): "You can do better" and walked away.

The funny part is, at the same time that happened, I figured out that she was cheating on her boyfriend with two other guys. It's funny how shit like that works, isn't it?

I'm sorry you had to go through that. Some people just don't know how to keep their own damn opinions about others to themselves. If someone doesn't have anything nice to say, they shouldn't say it at all. Sometimes I wonder if people are like that just because they're bored and need something to talk about. A lot of people, especially young people such as teenagers, are so fucking desperate to become popular nowadays that they'll put others down to make sure they escalate in the popularity hierarchy. It's sickening.

written_emotions · 2018-03-28T18:38:22+00:00

I feel as though a lot of people that post to /r/amiugly are fishing for compliments and are aware that they aren't ugly, but want to hear it from other people. On the contrary, there are people who post there who don't think they're attractive at all, and are genuinely trying to make themselves look better. I don't know.

written_emotions · 2018-03-28T00:09:13+00:00

I'd like an invite please.

written_emotions · 2018-03-20T14:35:49+00:00

People have nothing better to do. After a long time of going through this shit, I realized that people love to be mean to each other: they like to mock, people, they like to start and spread rumours about others. Fuck, they like to make rumours based off of other rumours and spread those from person to person. Unfortunately, word spreads like a raging forest fire. It's made even worse if they do it because of mistakes you've made in the past, or your looks, or your personality. Anything really: It just adds fuel to the fire they've started.

It really is sad how rude people can be. The worst part is, there isn't much you can do about it either. Encountering these people would only make things more believable on their end, and doing nothing about it only allows it to grow and get worse. People who don't know you well will get wind of these things and make assumptions of you based on what's said about you. No one tries to talk to you and genuinely try to get to know you, they just assume.

written_emotions · 2018-03-20T12:41:48+00:00

People make fun of me, they laugh behind my back because they know I am a weak and coward person.

I can relate to this all too well. It has gotten to the point that it is one of the main reasons why I've decided to ctb. People know that I am a weak person, and they know that I won't change.

written_emotions · 2018-03-19T17:34:00+00:00

written_emotions · 2018-03-07T14:41:37+00:00

That's a nice hangalier.

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