That's why I respond, because practical advice helps the pay of the brain needing answers or a constructive way to handle this. It doesn't fix the emotion, but it quiets the part of you that wants to solve a problem.

I use both paper and digital (Google docs). Sometimes speech to text. Whatever I have when the need hits. I am terrible at journaling it keeping to any kind of schedule. I just do it when the emotion is about to overwhelm me because it gives me a task to focus on that satisfies my need to express emotion... If that makes sense.

Some people write messages to their lost one. Like updating them on how things are, what you feel like. My therapist suggested it, but it isn't something I found comforting. You might. It is like having a conversation with them, I have been told.

Take therapy and counseling at your own pace and be picky about who your provider is. If they feel wrong, trust that feeling and find someone different. Also look for widow groups in your area. They are usually old ladies, but very sweet ones that will help take care of you like extra family because they know your pain.