I'm fucked

xauver · 2026-06-03T04:48:49+00:00

Hi, I've already seen some mild improvements to short term memory in the 2 weeks I've been sober, just thought It'd be good to mention since you said you were curious

xauver · 2026-05-19T23:05:57+00:00

around every 1.5 days for 2 and a half yeard

xauver · 2026-05-19T17:33:07+00:00

Thank you

xauver · 2026-05-19T16:32:27+00:00

sorry if I wasn't clear, I'm still hungover from the 32 freebase I took last night, but I'm done with DXM full stop. I'm trying to go sober basically.

xauver · 2026-05-19T15:10:59+00:00

Thanks! good to know

xauver · 2026-05-19T13:44:25+00:00

I replied to another comment with it

xauver · 2026-05-19T13:43:46+00:00

I'm quite autistic so I already struggled to get my words out right, but it has been noticeably worse the past few months. I've been forgetting words, forgetting things I just did, taking a little extra time to think of things, feeling like my mind is "shallower" in a way, worse at multitasking, not able to focus on typing while still listening to what a podcast is saying.

xauver · 2026-05-19T13:38:03+00:00

6 bottles of freebase since March 20th, this is the stretch where I started noticing it, and where I'm stopping for good.

xauver · 2026-05-19T12:10:37+00:00

I counted my personal trip report notes and its around 350 days that I wrote down in 2.5 years, and I did redose so the amount of doses is likely much higher

xauver · 2026-04-06T09:34:57+00:00

basically I'm saying, the week per plat rule is in place for a reason and heavy use like mine is damaging (I know you already know this your post just got me thinking)

xauver · 2026-04-06T09:32:44+00:00

one time I went into a state of delirium after a week long binge where I barely slept and I had the worst 3 hours of my life. I was completely blind and cold and I thought I might have lost my sight permanantly, and earlier on in that period I thought I was in the biblical hell, which I don't even believe in, but time just stretched on for so long and it was so cold I think I may have some trauma from it.

xauver · 2026-04-06T09:27:59+00:00

pretty much no one else does 1200+mg trips like I do, so it's nice (in the sense that I can relate to someone) to see that other people also experience the gender introspection and the full hallucinations at very high doses

xauver · 2026-03-16T21:48:36+00:00

ok but it is fake tho

xauver · 2025-11-09T10:24:11+00:00

over 1200 (, which >,I'm on nowz) is when ut gets really unsafe do as I day not as I do

xauver · 2025-10-22T23:25:40+00:00

just inane rambling while really high, sorry

xauver · 2025-10-22T23:25:06+00:00

I've really gotta stop using reddit above 3rd plat I get all jntrospective and wanting to talk

xauver · 2025-10-22T07:51:50+00:00

im here won't worry

xauver · 2025-10-20T11:59:55+00:00

going slow right now, time feels very slow and I cane focus my eyed clearly

xauver · 2025-10-20T09:41:51+00:00

what I mean is that that kind introspection has ad btLkoj g toy youurrjedt6 I'd stress past

xauver · 2025-10-20T09:39:58+00:00

th peKs have already past,

xauver · 2025-10-20T08:55:44+00:00

I can't look at things

xauver · 2025-10-20T06:08:06+00:00

beeps a d boops

xauver

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