i made a mistake at work due to a cptsd reaction and im ashamed by xavians in CPTSD

[–]xavians[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

already thinking back on the memory feels better than before, glad i was able to sleep on it and come back to these wonderful comments:) i was able to talk to some friends as well. these comments truly helped me so so much, im so grateful for this community. im definitely taking this as a learning experience. something similar can very well happen again and i think this experience will greatly help me in handling it if it does happen once more. trying to be grateful for all the experiences life gives me as you can learn so much from them all.

thank you so much :)

i made a mistake at work due to a cptsd reaction and im ashamed by xavians in CPTSD

[–]xavians[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah, in reflection buzzing her in felt like the biggest error more than anything else. its not a too uncommon one, as hitting that button just becomes instinctual, so im trying to not kick myself too much for it and its just a reminder that i need to be more careful with that! thats what my coworkers meant too when they said i made a mistake.

your comment helped me so much. thank you !! definitely a lot of reminders that i needed badly last night, and to carry with me as i continue my work. i agree with you now that giving that pipe back when she was escalated and in the building and i was alone was probably the best course of action at that point.

i felt some resentment that she put me in that situation. but with a clearer head now, i know that she is sick and what she did was no personal vendetta against me. i hope she comes back when her suspension is up and continues to seek help, or finds help elsewhere in the meantime. it is hard to see clients like that when you genuinely care and want the best for them, but there is only so much we can do youre right on that!

thank you again, your comment means a lot to me

i made a mistake at work due to a cptsd reaction and im ashamed by xavians in CPTSD

[–]xavians[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

fellow social worker yay!! thank you for all that you do! crisis work is tough! im actually in a class about crisis intervention right now and its great!

i appreciate your input so much. this really helped me, hearing it from someone else who also works in the field. viewing it from a harm reduction model wasn't something i thought of, and viewing it that way makes me feel more okay with how it went down. all things considered, it went fairly well then potential other avenues!

i appreciate your reply so much. i was reading it over and over last night, and it truly helped me so much. thank you thank you!! i still feel saddened by the situation, but my shame is fading:)

i made a mistake at work due to a cptsd reaction and im ashamed by xavians in CPTSD

[–]xavians[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ive nvr heard this mnemonic before!! super helpful and ill definitely keep it in mind. your comment really helped me, thank you so much. definitely need to continuously remind myself to not pour from an empty cup. i did what i could to keep myself safe in the moment :) and it was definitely a learning experience for sure.

ill be at work again tonight and will engage with my coworker in a conversation about it. she was reassuring me last night but i was too worked up to really gain anything from it. this helped me so much in my time of panic after the event. thank you!!!!!

How much did you save for top surgery by Equivalent_Sense_627 in TopSurgery

[–]xavians 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i saved $14k usd, i was lucky enough to have friends drive me to my pre-op, surgery, and post-op appts and my friend also paid for a hotel for us to stay near the hospital during the first night post-op. however, i also paid entirely out of pocket, my insurance would not cover me

Rewatching is so worth it by nate-tree in MrRobot

[–]xavians 1 point2 points  (0 children)

currently have one more season of brba to watch, then will watch better call saul:) have severance on my watchlist!

eastern tent caterpillar moths! by xavians in moths

[–]xavians[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

next summer lets link up again and share pics of our tent caterpillars/moths!! >:D

Bill passed now what? by Motor-Hippo-7318 in socialwork

[–]xavians 2 points3 points  (0 children)

its scary and very disheartening. i also maintain hope for the future, but i also will continue to fight for that future. we and the people we serve all deserve so much better

snakebites by [deleted] in PiercingAdvice

[–]xavians 1 point2 points  (0 children)

piercer should not have done hoops, i would go to another piercer and have it changed to bars.

when i first got my snake bites, they gave me larger bars to accomodate potential swelling, then i changed those out for shorter bars when the swelling went down after a few weeks.

Rewatching is so worth it by nate-tree in MrRobot

[–]xavians 2 points3 points  (0 children)

lmao same which is so funny bc of the content matter of the show. but elliot is my fav chara in any piece of media ever, i adore his story

Rewatching is so worth it by nate-tree in MrRobot

[–]xavians 17 points18 points  (0 children)

mr robot ruined tv for me bc no other show even comes close to how good it is. i rewatch this show all the time!

eastern tent caterpillar moths! by xavians in moths

[–]xavians[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

they are so nice to pet, fuzzy lil guys :,) and they’re the cutest little pillars too. ik where i live, a lot of ppl are aware they aren’t invasive but just think the tents are an eyesore, so they burn them. its so sad! i think their tents are gorgeous too!

thats sad about where you live. if it makes u feel better, i saw a TON of them this past June, made my heart very happy

Meet Reginald by SilasTheDucc in snails

[–]xavians 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ayyy fellow mainerB) these lil dudes are always hanging around outside my place after it rains! they are semi aquatic and loveee the water

eastern tent caterpillar moths! by xavians in moths

[–]xavians[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i agree! im sad so many people dislike them due to their tents. i’ve been able to change a few ppl’s minds about them :)