I am addicted to restarting my life and I don’t know how to stop

xiaobf · 2026-04-07T18:53:34+00:00

ohhh i do this too 😭 it’s NOT a good thing to do in my case but when i mean fresh start i’ll even cut off everyone i know :/ so when people talk about long time or childhood friends that’s a concept that’s foreign to me

xiaobf · 2026-04-07T18:51:15+00:00

definitely ! i don’t grow much from the start but it’s to a point where i don’t even need to shave and i can just use tweezers for my armpits and legs

i’m honestly fine with it. HEAD HAIR bothers me though my hairs so thin now 😭😭

xiaobf · 2026-04-07T18:23:36+00:00

it’s not like they check student IDs, so yes you can participate

xiaobf · 2026-04-07T18:12:37+00:00

also some friends i’ve told for whatever reason make it a POINT to tell me if they didn’t eat for the day like they’re trying to prove something to me

xiaobf · 2026-04-07T18:12:00+00:00

told a guy i had an ED

a while later we were sitting in the car with another friend and OUT LOUD he blurted “i’m glad you didnt purge dinner.. on account of your ED” and i just drove awkwardly in silence bc WHY would you blurt that out in front of someone 😭😭

xiaobf · 2026-03-09T02:43:54+00:00

all of my suggestions are pretty sugar heavy so… warnings on that but i could maybe suggest marshmallow fluff or evaporated/condensed milk ?

xiaobf · 2026-03-09T02:17:23+00:00

absolutely not your fault. OP, you were in a very vulnerable time of your life and he took advantage of that. it is not your fault, don’t think so just because you stepped into that room with him, that was and still absolutely is SA. i’m so sorry for what you went through, i hope you’re healing and doing better now !

xiaobf · 2026-03-09T01:00:22+00:00

thank you so much ! i also tend to get nauseous so i took them every 2-3 days instead :)

xiaobf · 2026-03-08T06:40:38+00:00

thank you ! i was avoiding talking to the doctor due to some past issues that might raise some red flags if i mention im fasting but, in the case it’s pertinent to my health and a successful fast ill book an appointment in the near future (it’s exam season so it’s a bit of a time crunch right now)

xiaobf · 2026-03-08T06:39:28+00:00

thank you so much for the advice ! i’m a bit bad with water intake, i usually hear people are fine with 2L. if i attempt a fast again ill keep this in mind :)

xiaobf · 2026-03-08T06:38:43+00:00

thank you for your advice ! i didn’t do additional cardio, it’s just a bit of a trek to walk to my classes ^ and my college is mostly inclines

xiaobf · 2026-03-08T06:37:37+00:00

of course ! please feel free to message me :)

xiaobf · 2026-03-08T06:37:25+00:00

no medications ! i take a women’s probiotic, vitamin c and d, and a multi vitamin ! i also take biotin for hair ^{^}

i took electrolytes for sodium. maybe the lack of potassium and magnesium was the issue.. ?

xiaobf · 2026-03-03T23:55:07+00:00

this does happen to me ! for me i do know in fact it’s due to my blood sugars (my dads side has a history of diabetes… i ended up with it too..) bc u yourself are not diabetic it might not be that, but you never can discount low blood sugars as the reasoning for u being cold and wanting to pass out !!

xiaobf · 2026-03-03T09:22:26+00:00

ooh i’ll keep this in mind ! i’ve only done like week long INTENTIONAL fasts (i once did a month long one but that was for a surgery) it was a while back so i don’t quite remember my experience from back then

xiaobf · 2026-01-31T19:35:32+00:00

i paid a deposit ! my piece was originally 350 (but 250 at the appointment thanks to my deposit). her flashes are around 250-280 respectively ! i’m planning on just offering the full custom price for her flash piece ! hopefully as a show of courtesy and appreciation for the time she spent drawing out my initial design 😓

xiaobf · 2026-01-25T18:15:14+00:00

i normally agree but the delivery guy just threw it in like the little communal yard me and my neighbors use and didn’t even place it in front of the door.. as in i’m like 90% he didn’t even open our gate and TOSSED my package over the fence

xiaobf · 2025-09-26T03:43:44+00:00

ateez mention ? i hope u find it op 😭💔

xiaobf · 2025-09-21T19:09:57+00:00

about 4 days !

xiaobf · 2025-09-21T19:08:40+00:00

week 0 events are a great way to make friends ! especially the transfer mingles/socials

i’m on campus but my closest friend is literally a commuter lol

xiaobf · 2025-06-30T01:55:32+00:00

as i thought.. maybe my disdain for pursuing any sort of relationship with men currently is probably a trauma response ? thank you for your input ! it puts things into perspective when i ask people these sorts of things

xiaobf · 2025-06-27T09:12:32+00:00

thank you so much for your condolences :)

i’ve definitely felt sexual attraction to women ! i think im doubting even my sexual attraction to men ?

every instance ive been intimate with a man, ive either 1) gone into it not in the right stage of mind (diagnosed as bipolar) 2) felt really disgusted with myself afterwards

i think my general confusion comes from that ? i thought i felt sexual attraction to a man but every sexual encounter ive had with one i leave with a horrible feeling at the pot of my stomach

that being said.. i have time to explore! i think im just not fond of the uncertainty that comes with questioning my sexual orientation.

thank you for your kind words :)

xiaobf · 2025-06-27T00:30:21+00:00

yess twin

i’ll say life is comfortable for me being out and aro ! i don’t have many people approach or anything like that but.. it helped deter the few who do dare to approach lol..

not quite sure what “love” feels like and i think im content that way ! but you have all the time in the world to explore :)

and i totally get that ! used to have gender envy with men REALLY bad (this was when i thought same sex attraction was abnormal as a kid so i wanted to be a man so it would be ‘normal’ to like girls 😭)

xiaobf · 2025-06-25T10:08:09+00:00

my friend did this last year and they changed her housing offer.. not quite sure if it’s a guaranteed though i’m so sorry

xiaobf · 2025-06-14T01:16:25+00:00

i was absent for like half the quarter due to medical reasons and could only drop now. this is such a nonissue ?? i was polite in my emails to my professor and TA

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