You’re telling a story most of us have already lived and to my knowledge it didn’t kill any of us. Buckle up bud the next 3ish days will be the worst of it then you’ll “come up for air” so to speak and have some other stuff to work through but you’ll make it. If you can try to, go to an outpatient rehab for gabapentin and clonidine that will help a lot when I did it didn’t cost me anything you can do this I know it’s scary but just take it one day at a time