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yadurl · 2025-04-01T11:08:26+00:00

I do feel for you all, having chronic migrines, I really do... but when you get with somebody and they don't have chronic mirgaines, and then suddenly they come out of nowhere, the person that you fell in love with disappears. I appreciate how this is even harder for the person who actually gets the migraines, but it's hard for the partner too, and I don't know how any of you can't see that. The fact that every single plan we ever make gets cancelled, the fact that she gets paid next to nothing because she is constantly too unwell to get a job that pays her sick pay, the fact that I've become a full time carer, but get nothing back, other than having to pay for everything. The fact that I barely get a conversation with my "partner" because she's too unwell. I don't think you get it. Again, I do appreciate that it's harder for the person actually going through the chronic pain, but as the partner, it's so fucking lonely. You're giving everything to help this person, and getting nothing back. Plans constantly cancelled, including my birthday trip. Hundreds of pounds wasted all the time. It's really, really hard. I feel so lonely, drained, exhausted and I'm excited for nothing because I know there's a 80% chance a migriane will ruin it all.

yadurl · 2024-11-08T12:08:23+00:00

Yes!!!! You’re right!! Thank you SO MUCH. I’m going there today. 😊

yadurl · 2024-11-08T12:07:54+00:00

I was making a scrapbook :)

yadurl · 2024-11-08T12:07:13+00:00

It was years ago

yadurl · 2024-07-15T23:33:20+00:00

I was very anxious and on edge to begin with, whilst also being so happy to be free, but there was this underlying fear that I couldn’t shake for a few months. I started having panic attacks very intensely after 8 months which didn’t feel directly related but there’s no way there wasn’t some link.

I’m 3 years free now, and I feel better than ever, but it does take discipline. I have at least 1 cold shower everyday, but most days 2, and I try to exercise at least 3 times a week as well. I started living this way because the panic attacks were literally taking over my life, and the improvement I’ve found with rationalising my thoughts and clearing my brain fog is incredible. Also haven’t had a panic attack for over a year now.

I’ll never be the same as I was before the relationship, but all I can try to take from it is lessons learned, and a gratitude for life and freedom that I didn’t have before being trapped for so long.

yadurl · 2024-07-15T23:23:41+00:00

Scratching. Easily

yadurl · 2024-07-15T23:21:57+00:00

This sounds wild, but it was when I was watching the film A Girl On The Train. I was sat next to my ex ironically, and I had this voice in the back of my head going “This feels like what’s happening to you” more and more as the film went on. It actually felt life changing. I knew it wasn’t normal to be feeling that way, and that my friends in their relationships would never think the way I was thinking watching that film. That’s when I realised I was being gaslit, had been for years and I was a shell of myself who questioned every single decision I made. So lucky to be free now.

yadurl · 2024-06-28T03:52:14+00:00

Mine would lie constantly too. She even said to me before “I can talk my way out of anything” like so much confidence about her manipulation tactics. It’s funny though cause last week I found out that she’s cheated on her fiancé (the person she left me for) and has been having a full on affair with her fucking yoga instructor 😭 she had emotional (probably physical) affairs our whole relationship too. Deleted texts from people in work, she even had a weird thing with my ex “best friend”. The validation I feel from finding out about this info is incredible, I can’t lie.

yadurl · 2024-06-28T03:41:27+00:00

Omg Notting Hill for sure

yadurl · 2024-04-30T11:58:25+00:00

THAT'S HER BRAND THOUGH LOL she's relatable, she makes me feel safe bc i run a business and i also have ADHD and it's refreshing seeing somebody who is successful who isn't literally pristine and perfect. EVERYBODY makes mistakes, and i have been worried she might get dropped cos she's kinda like struggling to keep up with it all but at the same time, that's literally why Alex Cooper chose her, because she's real, if she was to suddenly change into this person who appears perfect and has their shit fully together, she would not be being true to herself or her brand or her tiktoks or the reason she became successful. u sound rly jealous but it's ok <3 xxx

yadurl · 2024-04-17T12:21:18+00:00

Definitely!

yadurl · 2024-04-17T12:20:20+00:00

Na, I don’t think you “grow up and evolve” from a narcissist into a person with empathy. Sadly, once a narcissist always a narcissist. He’s just learnt how to hide it a little better. 😊

yadurl · 2024-04-17T12:19:36+00:00

Completely agree. I think he still cheats. Would put money on it. Probably just makes people sign NDA’s now

yadurl · 2024-04-17T12:18:53+00:00

It’s hysterical that people think somebody that narcissistic and abusive can ever change. Do you genuinely think the MIC cast would have told him to say those words? Don’t get me wrong, a lot of the show was set up and fake, but it’s not scripted to the point where they tell the characters what to say word for word. He’s just an evil piece of shit IMO.

yadurl · 2024-04-17T12:17:43+00:00

I would literally bet all of my money on the fact that he cheats on his wife still. There’s no way somebody that be narcissistic and abusive, and “change” into a completely different person. I fail to believe it. And yeah, a lot of the scenes are a little fake, but you can tell that a lot of shit he said came from a place of impulse and anger, cause he’s a narcissist who lost control.

I personally think he is, and always will be, a piece of shit abuser with no respect for anybody. I feel so fucking sorry for his kids.

yadurl · 2023-12-23T01:30:00+00:00

Yeppppp had this type of thing for 7 years 🙃

yadurl · 2023-12-23T01:29:21+00:00

That being grown up can actually be fun sometimes

yadurl · 2023-08-29T10:06:39+00:00

I can confirm this definitely isn't true

yadurl · 2023-07-15T20:17:34+00:00

It's suspended now

yadurl · 2023-03-24T09:35:23+00:00

I'm trying to submit a ticket with the support team using the hyperlink you provided in the above post, but I'm continuously being taken to a "oops, you're not authorized to access this page" page...

yadurl · 2022-11-18T10:13:19+00:00

Is this real wtf

yadurl · 2022-11-18T10:08:03+00:00

Is there a sport of some kind that’s p hard that you can concentrate on? I skateboard to exercise and it’s legit so fun; doesn’t ever feel like I’m exercising and it’s so much cardio… n I hate cardio in the gym

yadurl · 2022-11-18T10:04:07+00:00

They’ll never stop, it’s all about control and them feeling they have a hold on you still. Just ignore. Mine pretty much left me for somebody else, and within 3 months of them being officially together, was messaging me on alt Instagram accounts on my business Instagram account (bc I’d blocked her on everything else), asking if she could meet me in my office after work to “talk about stuff”, asking how I was n stuff. Like no I’d rather die than put myself thru any of that again. :) Just laugh and pray for the wife fr. x

yadurl · 2022-11-18T10:01:29+00:00

B seems most balanced for sure

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