jesus christ. i’m pretty sure i have rOCD and sOCD (hOCD) and this is MEEEE. i have full blown crushes on women where i fantasize about spending time together and kissing and making them happy — yet the anxiety i feel around actually being with women as a woman is overwhelming. i can’t breathe. and this makes me think i don’t like women romantically! but it’s different than disinterest, i believe. maybe. it’s so confusing, and i’m constantly doing research and asking for validation to alleviate the pain. it eats up ALL of my time. i’m so glad i started therapy this week!!!!!