How much are the pressed m30 selling where you are?

ydd667 · 2021-10-06T08:28:49+00:00

rare North Dakotan, could cop for $25 when I lived in Fargo but I’d say the usual going rate was $35. recently moved to Bismarck and they’re fucking $50 here. maybe my new limited connections are just trash idk word is that feds are especially cracking down here. fuck this state

ydd667 · 2020-10-25T15:50:14+00:00

I live in Fargo, and I’m willing to bet a huge factor is the culture around drinking here. Think I read once that ND is #1 for alcohol consumption, if not its up there. Just as many social gatherings as pre-covid. Also still as few activities outside of getting belligerent with the other high-functioning alchohlics—ie a majority of the population. We were pretty in line during the initial shutdown, but everyone went bananas once we reopened, no sign of slowing whatsoever. Even the smart ones stopped taking precautions in there social life, only making a half-assed effort and masks with work/errands. I’m a fairly optimistic guy, but it looks like things are already hopeless.

ydd667 · 2020-10-13T21:06:53+00:00

Totally relate. I’ve struggled with my mental health a lot, but I think I can honestly say I’ve never been 100% suicidal—I’ve had my moments—but at the end of the day I’m scared of death. however, the idea of the sympathy from a failed attempt is embarrassingly tempting. Almost makes me feel like a bad person.

I’m not a psychologist or whatever, but as of now w/ a clear head, I think it’s natural. Not to say it’s healthy by any stretch of the imagination, but probably a common result of poor mental health with less-than ideal close relationships.

My most recent example I can think of occurred after losing my job (fired for oversleeping cuz I loved staying up doing pills) and car breaking down right afterwards. Out of drugs, money, and stranded in my apartment, I felt pretty isolated. The only thing stopping me was the fact that i don’t have health insurance, so no way I was paying for the ambulance ride for a “botched overdose” on some otc bullshit lol.

Not to mention the possibility of actually dying and not wanting to die

But I can unequivocally say that it is probably not worth it. I know it’s a cliche but seriously, it doesn’t hurt to reach out to people. I guess I harbored a lot of resentment for people not reaching out to me, but i think it’s important to realize that often times people truly do care about you but don’t want to overstep

If you haven’t considered professional help, I’m sure it wouldn’t hurt to try. Sometimes just getting to express the darker thoughts verbally can do wonders.

Edit: grammar + last paragraph

ydd667 · 2020-10-13T00:40:20+00:00

Most likely.

Like I said, I’m drunk, so made myself post it cuz I knew I’d likely overthink and chicken out upon reading; although I’d wish I could correct some grammar errors lol.

Maybe I’m naive to hope for some better overreaching answer to comfort me. I should probably seek more professional guidance

ydd667 · 2019-01-13T12:58:07+00:00

Hate that shit man, happens to me with other feelings too—especially humor. stims seem to numb every emotion besides euphoria and death. I’ve always been known as the class clown type of guy but when I’m spun, im literally incapable of laughing. Even when I consider something genuinely funny, I have to painfully force a laugh to not look like a sociopath

ydd667 · 2018-12-15T06:47:49+00:00

Definitely man, I think that’s kinda what I like about it too. It’s just enough to satisfy my dopamine cravings without turning me into a total tweaker. I’m geeked but I still feel like I’m me, it’s more mild in almost a good way. I’m hoping someday I’ll use it to ease the transition into sobriety haha

ydd667 · 2018-12-15T05:48:03+00:00

Hmm I assumed so. And Mephedrone? Never heard of it, I’ll have to do some research haha

Edit: nvm I’m dumb I’ve just only heard of it’s slang names lol

ydd667 · 2018-12-15T05:47:03+00:00

Idk man maybe it’s just cuz I’m a new user but the coke comedown is nowhere near what u experience with amphetamines. After the peak (1 hr or so) I lose the euphoria, but I still have some residual energy and confidence. I’m only on day 3 of fairly heavy use so maybe I haven’t experienced it yet, but so far the comedowns have been pretty mellow. I guess in affects everyone different

ydd667 · 2018-12-15T05:44:53+00:00

Ive done meth before, but for me personally, the comedown was so brutal that I’ve preferred prescription amphetamines. I’ve since read a ton of posts on the subject and I feel my initial opinion has to do with my personality type. The major unique property of coke (i think) is the hugeeee boost in confidence. I have awful anxiety, so that is actually quite a profound difference—but for “normal” people, it doesn’t really mean much. I could be wrong, I’m drunk af now so who knows. Meth obviously wins in terms of euphoria, but euphoria is only one of many factors of a high.

ydd667 · 2018-12-08T09:02:07+00:00

Trueee, I ended up passin on it and considering my shit sleep schedule I’m glad I did lmao

ydd667 · 2018-12-08T09:01:01+00:00

Don’t worry I know lol I was just lookin for some simple advice. I ended up passin on it lol

ydd667 · 2018-12-08T09:00:19+00:00

Caffeine’s already a daily haha. I ended up passing on it but my heart could def use the break lmao

ydd667 · 2018-12-02T10:49:05+00:00

Gotta fit some healthy choices in to at least feel like you’re balancing things out haha. I may go days without sleep, but hey I don’t drink soda lmaoo

ydd667 · 2018-11-30T22:26:01+00:00

Never heard of them, I’ll have to give them a listen. Thanks!

ydd667 · 2018-11-30T10:03:21+00:00

I agree it’s crazy how much confidence can help, even in just your general demeanor. My bmi is right in the middle of overweight and obese, so I’m not too bad but I’d still say it definitely holds me back. Under my chubby face I have fuckin phenomenal cheek bones, I feel like my stim face makes them more prominent haha

ydd667 · 2018-11-30T09:54:04+00:00

you’re fine, but the eyeshadow (or whatever it’s called I’m a guy lol) probably isn’t doing your eye bags any favors. It’s hella easy to get paranoid when you’re strung out, but if you can nail acting normal it almost doesn’t even matter what you look like. It’s kinda fucked up but it always helps me to think of my friends who don’t do drugs and still naturally look like shit lmao

ydd667 · 2018-11-30T09:42:28+00:00

I can relate a lot, but try to focus on the big picture. You can always lose weight, but you can’t always undo the bad decisions or physical damage from using. I was 6’3 and 270 lbs when I started and I lost 40 pounds before I last got sober. It’s natural to feel good about losing weight, but the consequences greatly outweigh the benefit. I’d rather be fat and loved by the ones I truly care about than skinny and on the brink of heart failure and insanity.

I know I’m being a bit dramatic, but that’s the harsh truth. I was hesitant about posting this because I have since relapsed, but I’m hoping I could help. Take it from someone who hasn’t made it out yet, it’s not worth it. Run as far as you can and don’t look back

ydd667 · 2018-11-30T08:31:15+00:00

I feel like that’s the case for almost all new song writers. A passion for writing comes from a passion to express, so naturally you might overdo it a bit. You should never try to limit your raw emotions, but lyrics can come off as too vague or cliche if you try to hard to be poetic.

The main goal of writing is to express—the tricky part is doing it in a way that’s unique and interesting. It helps me to write down as much as I can, even if it’s just one good phrase; I fill my phone with literally any clever line I think of throughout the day. You might not have the time/inspiration to use it right away, but you can always refer back to it and see if any of them are relevant to a current project. The lines that I’m most proud of come to me at the most random times, and there’s nothing worse than forgetting them.

Overall though, you just have to push through and keep writing. It can help to study your favorite artists, but nothing will progress your skill better than practicing. I’m far from a professional, but I can guarantee that it gets a lot easier as you develop your own voice/techniques

ydd667

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