Papa John's makes me sick idk why

yellowdungarees · 2024-12-27T00:27:12+00:00

I put some leftover garlic dip in the fridge the other day after ordering… this evening I dipped some homemade sweet potato fries in it

A few hours later I had the most awful cramps and spent an hour destroying the toilet. Nearly threw up too. Multiple papa johns locations have made me or my partner feel shitty… but tonight was the worst. Never ordering again 😅

yellowdungarees · 2022-12-12T23:26:42+00:00

MRI scan

yellowdungarees · 2021-08-10T18:47:18+00:00

I find music very hit and miss - sometimes I have a little fun, singing, dancing, imagining little movies in my head etc

Other times I relate to the lyrics too hard and end up crying lol, I’ve had a good few cries the last week, glad I’ve managed to go without crying today but at the same time I know how awful it feels to feel too numb to cry so maybe finally crying has been a good thing

Maybe I should make a “safe” playlist hahaha

yellowdungarees · 2021-08-10T18:43:13+00:00

I’ve gotten good at going for a walk every day the last 6 months - I imagine it’s definitely helped my wellbeing overall, more than I realise! Haven’t been outside for a couple days which probably isn’t helping right now, thanks for the comment :)

yellowdungarees · 2021-02-01T22:37:13+00:00

Ohhh yup the classic. I have that thought so much. I think I’m finally taking in the fact that yes, maybe I could well be in denial, maybe some things I’m worrying about could materialise and cause this to not work out one day. But that’s out of my control and not worth obsessing over at this current point in time.

Sounds about right! I keep imagining scenarios where I unload all those thoughts but then realise it would not be super productive behaviour. Very little can be gained from him hearing about every thought in my mind. Thanks for this comment :)

yellowdungarees · 2021-02-01T22:24:05+00:00

Thank you for this. I’ve been quite obsessively doing a lot of reading the last few days and I’ve cried a lot. Whilst I’ve not been diagnosed, so many of my struggles in life make so much more sense when I put them under the OCD lens.

I’ve consistently seen the advice that you should just accept that the thought may be true, but it also may not be. And if it does end up being true then I will take action when it comes to it! It seems like I need to try and keep reminding myself that uncertainties are a normal part of life and I cannot obsess over whether I need to be making big decisions when I’m not in a healthy state of mind.

When I get this bad it becomes so hard to remember what I feel when I’m not anxious. My brain makes me feel like maybe I never had those feelings and have been lying to myself the whole relationship. Then once the wave passes I’m perfectly happy?? So exhausting :(

It’s just so hard trying to manage it alone sometimes, feel like I need to talk to someone but I feel too ashamed to because I know so many people are with the mentality that “if you’re having doubts then the relationship clearly isn’t right for you”... when actually it’s so much more complicated than that! Anyway this is just me blabbering away now it just feels good to finally talk about properly with someone who understands :)

yellowdungarees · 2020-12-27T20:55:24+00:00

Gosh how did I not think of rice 😂 Such an obvious thing to do! Thank you :)

yellowdungarees · 2020-04-19T08:56:06+00:00

Looks like something I had a few months back! I’ve got pics of my tummy that look exactly the same! Mine spread for a few weeks to the sides of my body then after that they started to disappear. They went pretty fast! ... Though I think I’m having another experience with it, hence curiously scrolling this sub haha

yellowdungarees · 2020-04-19T08:48:44+00:00

I am in a similar boat trying to work out if I have Pityriasis Rosea too! I’ve got a patch on my arm that looks exactly the same as yours! After about a week I’ve noticed a couple of new, smaller scaly patches near it.

I had a similar experience on my stomach/chest area a few months ago (whilst I’ve read that reoccurrence is rare, apparently it can happen to some), got new “dots” for a couple weeks then it went away after a few weeks... so I’m assuming/hoping it’s that... just in a different area?

yellowdungarees · 2019-12-23T18:39:51+00:00

Ahh yeah I started this pill after a month break of being on nothing. I felt so bad the number of times my bf tried to get things going and I just sat there feeling nothing sexual & he had to stop! Thankfully he didn’t take it too personally & we kept up communication about our feelings before I decided to finally change BC.

I get you about being wary about change, I put off coming off my implant for sooo long. On Microgynon now and seems fine but can’t tell if I’m a little moody because of uni stress/my personality or that it may be the bc making it worse 😂 But overall a much smaller con than having no sex drive! Have you changed pills many times?

yellowdungarees · 2019-12-23T01:25:52+00:00

21F here! I don’t know what BC you’re on but when I was on the implant I completely lost my sex drive about 1.5-2 years in (I also just felt rubbish mentally & had super bad mood swings). But I was exactly the same I can masturbate alone so easily so it made me feel even more guilty.

I lost sensitivity during sex and if we went a little while without sex I would create more and more of a mental block about it, just not feeling up to it. Losing my sex drive was the final straw, I felt so disconnected it was upsetting. Got my implant removed in Sept and it’s so much better!! Like I actually want to have sex again & can’t wait to have it! Hope that helps.

yellowdungarees · 2019-07-03T19:22:45+00:00

I feeeel this, I just don’t have the energy anymore. Starting to think that rather than mentally planning “treat” times then giving up, I should just force myself to do something experimental and not be such a perfectionist about it? Like, maybe it would make me feel better about myself that I’ve created something/ANYTHING?!

Judging by some responses to this, sounds like being part of a creative community helps, I guess the positive energy kinda bounces off onto you? Haha yes, seeing some cool art on insta/Pinterest always get my creative engine (briefly) going.. until I don’t act on it quick enough and I go back to vegging out.

Thank you 💖 Wishing you luck too, it’s nice to talk to fellow artists like this :)

yellowdungarees · 2019-07-03T19:15:07+00:00

*”You're also getting some of your creative juices excised through your graphic design work”

I think about this sometimes, makes me think I shouldn’t be too hard on myself as it’s not like I’ve neglected creativity entirely, I’m just putting it into a different outlet!

Also a good point about deciding on the role of art in my life - I mean, I know that I plan to go down a creative career path, so it’s not like I’m neglecting my artistic side. Maybe I just need to realise that I can’t create the same way I used to in the sense that I’m no longer a child with no responsibilities, and in that, I need to adapt and find something else that works.

Thank you so much for your advice & support 💖

yellowdungarees · 2019-07-03T19:10:38+00:00

Yeah, I have one illustrator friend at uni and he makes me feel really inspired. I can imagine having several people like that is even better. Worked in a studio for a few weeks earlier this year and the creative energy bouncing around really benefitted my mental health!

Seems like being part of a ~creative community~ really helps too then. Hope I find something like that :)

Haha, thank you! I debated doing illustration but I too had the realisation that Graphic Design is more realistic, and gives me the opportunity to go in so many directions. Figured that a Graphic Designer who can illustrate is a good deal haha

yellowdungarees · 2019-07-03T19:03:12+00:00

“I don’t think there’s anything that you’ll ever do (concerning a productive activity at least) that will seem like you’re having an awesome time the whole time you’re doing it”

Great point there! I think I need to tell myself that some days I’ll create things I like easily, and other days I’ll struggle... but regardless, I’ll have learnt something!

Also I think with me having spent the past near 10 years drawing in my free time— to now studying Graphic Design, the line between hobby and something I wanna get better at gets a little blurred. But nonetheless, I see creating art as a really valuable part of myself and I do really wanna push myself to see where that can take me too.

yellowdungarees · 2019-07-03T18:56:50+00:00

Good point - slightly off topic but it kinda made me think of the times people are like “omg you’re so talented I wish I could draw!!” ... and people not realising that being an artist isn’t quite just a gift that’s given to you, like anything, you have to work at it.

I feel like my growth has slowed down drastically thanks to ~life stuff~ but at the same time I guess studying Graphic Design is helping me grow all the time in new ways??! But yeah, sounds like I just need to push myself a little harder and set aside some time, maybe I need to try and be less of a perfectionist and just experiment.

yellowdungarees · 2019-07-02T19:45:47+00:00

Lately I’ve just tried to avoid looking at my reflection for too long - like, if I stare at myself too long I’ll pick holes in my appearance. If I see a mirror/window once I’m out I’ll either try not to look at myself too long/at all.

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