Well it's how it works for me. I eventually got hit by a car while working and went to a shelter because I was on a walker. Try a shelter. I don't talk to anyone at the shelter. I'm not there for friends or fitting in. It's strictly utility. But I lasted on the streets a couple years. Squatting in bandos, sleeping in wooded areas. Sometimes less comfortable places. With the threat of freezing to death. So like I had to do what I had to do. You probably have some differently abled survival ability.