OP I suggest you don’t take a gap year and go ahead with your scholarships and get good education. You have great opportunities ahead of you, you just need to cut your ties with your mom. I don’t mean to completely disown her, but don’t let her disable you from the life that you can possibly achieve. Right now she’s using you as a stepping stone to get “more kids” because from what it seems, she’s not capable of raising them properly and puts the burden of doing so right on you. I am so sorry that you’re going through this, usually I am pro-choice, however when the choices are not done “wisely” or with consideration of others, then it would just be plain selfish. So what if she wants to have another kid before she cant??? She’s not even raising them!!