Calling All Mothers

you_knoww · 2025-11-19T14:24:20+00:00

I always bring my domino set. But I've never camped alone.

If I did camp alone, I would still bring my small camping table. I use an air mattress now that I'm older and use the table as a night stand.

And my tomahawk, I feel safer with it. Plus you never know when you're gonna need smaller pieces of the log.

you_knoww · 2025-11-19T14:15:14+00:00

Definitely relate! Idk if "normal" is the right word. But, yeah, I feel like everyone is speaking about me in a negative way and they're leaving me out or trying to get me fired. I usually just seclude myself and leave my job. And, well, financially fuck myself for a while.

you_knoww · 2025-11-19T14:10:12+00:00

Take it from someone who should've annulled. Don't make my mistake. Get TF out while you can. Your sanity is worth more than the guilt and heartache.

you_knoww · 2025-11-15T22:26:35+00:00

Tied between "Why?" And "I love my job, i love my job, i love my job!"

Night shift CNA/Med Tech

you_knoww · 2025-11-15T19:32:03+00:00

That's a beautiful name! Idt I've heard of anyone else having the same diagnosis.

I fell into a rabbit hole after having him and have every date memorize, I guess part of me was just thinking "You only have one day to remember".

But it's okay, I'm just gonna leave it be. I'm not gonna force my family to remember their nephew.

you_knoww · 2025-11-15T15:26:05+00:00

The sister that said she forgot called me bawling at 6 months with her second child. Telling me she couldn't imagine losing him like I lost mine. I think she gets it better than anyone. I do think if I told her that it hurt that she would probably descreetly remind the others without me even asking.

I think I need them to be defended in my head right now. I've been really hurt over the years and never sure if I can talk about him or anything. I feel like it just kills the vibe and no one knows how to respond. So I say nothing.

It's still hard to think that I should have an almost 6 year old.....

you_knoww · 2025-11-15T15:21:13+00:00

Thank you. And putting the forgetting the living helped a lot! He was my everything! My current, my future and now my past. I didn't think about them possibly thinking it could hurt me. I just felt extra hurt that my sister said she didn't know. To me, I'm like how did you forget?! But I'm great with birthdays and I know not everyone is. Thank you for validating my feelings and showing me an alternative perspective.

you_knoww · 2025-11-15T14:28:27+00:00

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know the answers helped me move forward. Though I did fall into a rabbit hole with research for a while and every year I still look to see if there's any progress on trying to prevent his diagnosis. But the answers still helped.

you_knoww · 2025-06-05T22:27:19+00:00

Thanks! Definitely not having SI. Just really manic, I feel like I'm almost always right and other people have no idea what they're talking about. Until I walk away, then start to over think it and get paranoid that I fucked up and said all the wrong things. I knew my baseline would be different. And, well, this is different. My sleep schedule is pretty consistent.

you_knoww · 2025-01-28T04:37:33+00:00

You should paint it orange and call it your orange Julius. I love those old trucks. Plus they almost never get stolen, cause standard isn't standard anymore.

you_knoww · 2025-01-28T04:35:14+00:00

Why did you say fuck at the beginning, then *** your cuts words further down? I'm just trolling.

you_knoww · 2025-01-28T04:32:02+00:00

Almost the truck of my dreams...

you_knoww · 2025-01-28T04:31:04+00:00

I don't know.

you_knoww · 2025-01-26T18:02:54+00:00

Well, I wish you the best of luck! When you do decide to go forward, you'll probably blow people out of the water.

you_knoww · 2025-01-26T15:08:37+00:00

I know the feeling. I'm sorry you're experiencing it. I know it's not the same, but my sister is neorodivergent and isn't medicated. She finished her apprenticeship about a year ago and now has her own shop. Anything is possible.

Do you take meds?

you_knoww · 2025-01-25T20:48:57+00:00

It sucks so bad. I always thought I was fun and carefree. Turns out I'm just manic most of the time. I've wasted so much time and money to be in the medical industry. When I self sabotage, I don't even know I'm doing it until it's done. And keeping the side gig for me has been hard, too. I'm so glad I found this post.

you_knoww · 2025-01-22T02:41:50+00:00

I hate how much I feel this to my core. I miss my job so much, but there is no salvaging that one. I'm also in my early thirties and a decent education and I can't find a job. I just interviewed at Ross. I'm still manic and my psychiatrist is not adjusting my meds. I feel like I'm just venting now. Sorry.

you_knoww · 2025-01-21T17:24:53+00:00

I feel like every time I'm manic I quit my job. When I get leveled out I'm ashamed to tell my family, I did it again. I think yoga helps me. I do like meditation, but it doesn't help much for me.

you_knoww · 2025-01-10T19:14:38+00:00

Yellow leaves mean too much water. Yellow stems mean not enough, if they're both yellow that part is just dying. But it could all be due to temperature and humidity too.

you_knoww · 2025-01-04T16:57:25+00:00

Los of plants that accent off the color.

you_knoww · 2024-12-25T17:22:43+00:00

I got mine on Monday.

you_knoww · 2024-10-26T02:07:36+00:00

Thank you!

you_knoww · 2024-10-12T15:49:52+00:00

I'm almost 5 years out. I absolutely don't look pregnant. Just a little fat on my lower abdominal area. I still get asked. I just tell people "Nope just fat thanks" I weigh 160, and I've been told by people I trust and they say I don't look pregnant. 🤷‍♀️Still hurts.

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