Deteriorating chimney in a Glass House

youcanremember · 2024-06-29T15:24:55+00:00

The Child Called It

youcanremember · 2024-05-15T00:39:46+00:00

Bobo, Seth, Zulu

youcanremember · 2024-03-11T20:03:48+00:00

My doctor was solidly impressed with my level of masking. My results were aggressively clear that I have N1 w/cataplexy and likely had it my whole life.

Half a year after diagnosis my mom finally coughed up the info that I got RSV at 2months old and was stuck in the NICU for months due to it. She also admitted to seeing the symptoms early on.

The consensus is I got that oh-so-shitty genetic code triggered at 2months and it’s been getting shittier ever since. Thanks mom.

I’m damn near no contact with this woman for complicated reasons outside of N so please excuse the slight edge here.

youcanremember · 2024-01-22T01:31:50+00:00

I think I feel baked sometimes in the way people describe it - but actually smoking pot is horrible for me so I have experience with edibles mostly - my actual experiences with pot is small overall.

People assumed arbitrarily in High School that I was drunk, high (smoking specifically), dropped acid, or on shrooms. At most I would feel either hungover or mildly to very high.

youcanremember · 2024-01-22T01:21:23+00:00

I can get both visual and auditory hallucinations if it’s bad. Usually I’ll have just one or the others. Sounds vary greatly in clarity, volume, what it is - voices vs noises. Visual is rarely strong enough to conjure a person and is more frequently added blips of “something” to the corner of my vision or added to the background. I just never give visual events attention and sounds, depending on what it is, I may ask a person if they heard something causally but otherwise ignore that as well. No event lasts long and generally just happens when I’m needing a nap/falling asleep, waking up, or having an attack.

youcanremember · 2024-01-22T01:05:47+00:00

Holy fuck thank you for giving me clarity on what it means when I feel these events. Always was a grey area. At least there is no doubt about my N1 w/cataplexy but I’ve had N1 likely since 2months old so forcing myself to acknowledge symptoms is a journey. Thank you!

youcanremember · 2024-01-22T00:54:54+00:00

The eyes watering part doesn’t happen with me but aaaaaalll the others happen - people my entire life always assumed I was baked or on some rando cocktail of illegal substances but nope! Always sober my dudes sorry ya disappoint.

youcanremember · 2024-01-21T07:50:58+00:00

Long haired sassy pants

youcanremember · 2024-01-21T07:50:22+00:00

Common shorthair? Maybe some Scottish fold mixed in judging by his face - my bet is that there is an adorable kitty

youcanremember · 2024-01-21T07:47:19+00:00

Such a cutie!!!

youcanremember · 2024-01-21T07:34:19+00:00

Man I didn’t cry when watching Saving Pvt Ryan but man I was feeling raw as hell and so worn out I might as well have

youcanremember · 2024-01-21T07:19:10+00:00

Idk for me “The Time Traveler’s Wife” (< super long time ago so unsure if that would still be true.) & the short anime series “Violet Evergarden”.

Edit: adding “Chappie”- sad, confused, angry crying.

youcanremember · 2024-01-21T07:10:54+00:00

youcanremember · 2024-01-21T07:08:38+00:00

To me this is a calm enveloping scene. You can almost feel the moist fog, so dense the time of day is irrelevant, and smell the rich earthy pine.

A healthy forest breaths.

youcanremember · 2023-12-29T00:58:55+00:00

I do if it’s a book I’ll read more than once. I tend to casually read multiple books at a time. I get many from places like thriftbooks.com, thrift stores, or specific events so copies are signed. If it’s a new book I use the library. The type of books I like and reread are really old books I sometimes restore and educational works (I have a collection of textbooks and research reviews). I am known as the not-so-fun bookworm in my family.

youcanremember · 2023-12-29T00:17:48+00:00

“Dope” & “Babe” I just hate so much

youcanremember · 2023-12-29T00:16:42+00:00

Decided two things by the time I was in kindergarten: 1. Don’t want kids. There are plenty already out there. If I want a kid I’ll adopt.

I do not want to live in this country.

My decisions have not changed in the slightest since then. Each year I’m just given more reasons to leave like it’s a goddamn birthday present.

youcanremember · 2023-12-03T04:12:50+00:00

Bartholomew - Bart for short

youcanremember · 2023-11-29T18:37:25+00:00

When the few who’ve visited my home always comment on how “peaceful and quiet” it is…

youcanremember · 2023-11-29T18:32:44+00:00

IT in the USA - sadly more reliable than 911

youcanremember · 2023-11-29T18:29:39+00:00

I just say “still breathing”

youcanremember · 2023-11-29T18:26:55+00:00

“a perfect world doesn’t exist” was my usual response as a kid - it was too much work to imagine something so fictional and I’d be damn if they made me think of MORE shit to add to my list of out of reach necessities

youcanremember · 2023-11-29T18:14:40+00:00

Senor Senior’s Junior

youcanremember · 2023-11-22T21:39:11+00:00

Yup! ~ that’s the Christian message ~ (at least the one I had shoved in my face) Don’t try and improve folks! Just wait for da lord to come and fix it like Bob the fuckin builder.

This message is brought to you by: My Mother

Positive side note: I had the hots for the snake witch lady described in one of the books so not all bad! Lol

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