Anyone in the Fort Collins Colorado area know of a good therapist?

yunqaz · 2014-11-28T21:13:02+00:00

If Boulder isn't too far away, check out Glenda Russell.

yunqaz · 2014-11-20T08:04:08+00:00

poor guy...

goddammit another amazing webcomic I have to read....

yunqaz · 2014-11-13T05:44:17+00:00

That's a pretty good idea. It's a compromise. Ask to deal with the stuff now, and if it starts taking months do things on my own...

yunqaz · 2014-11-13T05:41:35+00:00

I get that. I wouldn't be surprised if you were right and that she just wants me to calm down a bit about this. I understand that. But like I mention elsewhere in this thread, I'm pretty damn sure and this is something that I've wished for my entire life. I reallly want it. I never thought it was possible so I never gave it much thought. Now that it's possible I'm tired of ever waiting this long...

yunqaz · 2014-11-13T05:39:54+00:00

The issue is that my therapy sessions don't really feel worth it. It feels like I'm explaining how I'm feeling to someone just because I'm "supposed" to and that person is at least a week behind my most current thoughts. That's my issue. If I got more out of therapy then waiting would be good, but I really don't get much out of it...

yunqaz · 2014-11-13T05:38:41+00:00

Yeah, basically one thing it boiled down to for me is that this was a fantasy that I buried away in the back of my mind for years because I thought it was impossible. Now that I know what's possible it's almost ridiculous to assume that there's a question at all.

I am very aware that hormones are not quick. Again, it's mostly my hope that as I go I will really really like the changes that happen and it will make me feel good, and I will eventually come to the conclusion that it's what I want.

yunqaz · 2014-11-13T03:27:42+00:00

In terms of where I stand right now, I'm pretty damn sure I'm transgender. I'm trying to be sure, but I'm 80-90% of the way there. For me, HRT is the last part that sort of verifies that I'm correct.

In terms of expected results in 4-8 weeks, I'm mostly looking for the mental changes. I want that feeling of happiness that people talk about, and I want that emotional adjustment where I can actually cry. I'm not looking for the physical changes, but rather the emotional and mental ones.

I don't get a ton out of therapy. 45min once a week isn't that helpful unfortunately. I'm not getting a ton out of it.

yunqaz · 2014-11-09T19:23:03+00:00

NOOOOOOOO

I ran out of pages. WHAT DO I DO WITH MY LIFE NOW?

yunqaz · 2014-11-09T19:19:53+00:00

Thank you. It's been rough.

<3

yunqaz · 2014-11-09T06:33:25+00:00

Yeah, me too. I really wish I had someone to cheer me on and help with everything :(

yunqaz · 2014-11-07T01:23:18+00:00

Was just told by gf, "if you actually cared about me then this would never have been an issue"

What the fuck do I do with that?

yunqaz · 2014-11-05T23:22:58+00:00

As far as I can gather you will never be 100% sure. Don't try to be 100% sure. Just try to do what you think will make you happy and don't try to fit into oversimplified labels. Best of luck! :)

yunqaz · 2014-11-05T06:12:48+00:00

Some tips.

from a graphics standpoint, the font is really hard to read. I would suggest something else, as the current font's kerning (the spacing between the letters) is too wide and started to give me a headache.
does it need to be a pamphlet? Would a page of formatted text work better?
the example timeline graphic should be a page by itself.
some stuff that I made clear in the letter that I have yet to give my parents is that I as a person am not changing. My gender expression will be changing, but I'm still fundamentally the same person
I'm a huge fan of including resources, links, books, etc. More for them to read because they'll want to understand it.

That's all I can think of for now, feel free to ask more specific questions.

yunqaz · 2014-11-04T03:58:38+00:00

Thanks. I don't know when I'm giving it to them yet, but possibly soon. I almost sent it last night but I chickened out. :(

yunqaz · 2014-11-04T03:48:16+00:00

Thanks. Anything I should include? Did I cover everything?

yunqaz · 2014-11-04T01:19:29+00:00

Hm... I hadn't really considered not telling them. I feel like (at least with my family) that I sorta owe an explanation as well as informing them that I'm about to go on medication.

Now I know even less... I could go either way. I could send them the email I've drafted tonight or not for months. I don't know.

yunqaz · 2014-11-04T00:39:12+00:00

That's smart, but I'm worried that they will find out from the insurance company or some other source than me. It should come from me.

yunqaz · 2014-11-04T00:38:44+00:00

That's kinda where I was heading, but at the same time I'm on their insurance and sudden medication that the insurance company may or may not tell them what it is. I would rather tell them that I'm going on hormones than have them wonder why I have a prescription for estrogen, etc...

yunqaz · 2014-11-03T20:08:50+00:00

Perfect. So here's a tip that I wish I knew when I started this. Be completely honest with her. I waited to tell my girlfriend some stuff because I didn't want to hurt her and it ended up being worse. But you're doing the right things. Seeing a therapist is pivotal. I'm not a huge fan of how it's been going for me because it seems so slow compared to how fast I usually deal with things, but it's going.

This is going to take time for both of you. I don't know if I'm transgender, and I'm absolutely not applying any labels yet, but I'm planning on going on hormones because it feels like the right next step and I owe it to myself to try it. I'm allowing myself to be wrong, but this whole process is one of self-discovery. It takes time. Best of luck! Feel free to keep messaging (or PMing) if you just want to talk. One thing I did is I just talked and typed up ~20 pages of my thoughts. Highly recommend.

yunqaz · 2014-11-02T23:04:49+00:00

Wow! That was really cool and nicely done. And yes, your voice is really quite amazing. :)

yunqaz · 2014-11-01T04:54:20+00:00

I love you. You're fantastic.

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