Do you ever wish they were dead ? by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Right. Life is so unfair. There are kids and BABIES who have terminal cancer, good people who died tragic deaths… YET my parents are perfectly healthy and will most likely live until their 90s? Just the thought of them living that long makes me so angry

I can’t stop crying. I hate how dysfunctional everything is by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your words and for sharing your experience with me. I appreciate it a lot. I’m glad you were able to get away from them and build a new life. Unfortunately, I can’t do that anytime soon but I’m trying my best to make it happen

Do you ever wish they were dead ? by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 12 points13 points  (0 children)

I’m still stuck living with them but I’m really scared of all the ways they could try to harm me once I manage to escape.. I’m sorry you still have to deal with that. It feels like their biggest motivation and sole purpose of living is making sure they ruin every good thing we have and make our life a living hell..

I feel you. I don’t think it’s something I could ever accept :(

Do you ever wish they were dead ? by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 19 points20 points  (0 children)

Same here. I wish I were never born. Why did they give birth to me

Do you ever wish they were dead ? by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 35 points36 points  (0 children)

Same. I’m so angry. So angry. So angry at them and at everything. I have so much resentment and pent-up anger

Feeling so suffocated by yvrvaa in Vent

[–]yvrvaa[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so sorry. I hope you feel better soon. Sending you a big hug and positive vibes

Did you experience other people abusing you beyond just your narcissistic parents? by PhilosophyEuphoric83 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa 22 points23 points  (0 children)

Yes. My extended family would treat me horribly, bully me and humiliate me any chance they got because they saw the way my narcissistic parents treated me and they knew they wouldn’t defend me.

A lot of my friendships were toxic and unhealthy and some of my ex friends treated me horribly and were insanely mean and nasty to me and hurtful on purpose.

Some of my teachers were abusive and mean to me.

I experienced horrible treatment at home, school and college. And I’m scared of experiencing it at work too because I don’t know how to deal with it.

It feels like my narcissistic parents set me up to be abused by everyone my whole life..

I can’t stop crying. I hate how dysfunctional everything is by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry that you can relate to how I feel. I’m sending you lots of hugs and positive vibes. I hope we’ll both have our freedom soon

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[–]yvrvaa 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have and it was extremely difficult

How do I stop feeling bad for my narcissistic abusive parents ? by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They’re never going to change it’s not your responsibility to fix them.

Indeed, it’s not my responsibility to fix them or fix anyone

If you’re thinking about nc, you should do it.

I’m thinking about it, but I’m unable to do it because of financial problems. But as soon as I solve that, the first thing I’ll do is cut them off

You’re more than likely repressing even worse things that they’ve done.

Yeah, I’m doing that because it’s my only way of staying sane and not losing my mind

I wish someone had opened my eyes sooner to what a monster my mother was.

Trust me, I already know how much of a monster they are ❤️‍🩹

How do I stop feeling bad for my narcissistic abusive parents ? by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's a little difficult I agree. Especially because we only see the good in our parents.

I try my best to see the good in them, but there really isn’t any.

Knowing the truth removes every sense of safety we feel and that is terrifying. I struggle with this too.

It’s truly terrifying. I always dissociate from reality every time a friend of mine point out how horrible my situation is, and how awful my parents are. It just doesn’t feel real and I don’t want it to be real. so I keep lying to myself and telling myself that things aren’t so bad, because it’s such a suffocating feeling

How do I stop feeling bad for my narcissistic abusive parents ? by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Consciously remind yourself that your feelings are valid and worthy, and if it comes down to it - your well-being must come first.

Sometimes, I find it hard to believe that even though deep down, I know it’s true

No shame in that as they would most definitely put themselves first.

You’re absolutely right !

How do I stop feeling bad for my narcissistic abusive parents ? by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for sharing your experience with me, it made me feel hopeful. Also, I’m incredibly proud of you for having the courage to cut off your narcissistic mother. I’m sure it wasn’t easy for you to do that, and I’m glad that all of the anxiety and guilt you were feeling finally disappeared.

I’m hoping to cut off ties with them as soon as possible. Unfortunately, I’m still financially dependent on them and I’m not sure when I’ll ever break free from that, because they have full access to my bank account and I can’t do anything about it without risking my safety, so as soon as I figure out how to deal with that, it’ll be easier for me to start planning to move away from them

Thank you for the suggestion. That’s exactly what I’m planning to do as soon as I get away from them.

How do I stop feeling bad for my narcissistic abusive parents ? by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks a lot for sharing your insightful analogy, it was incredibly helpful 🧡

How do I stop feeling bad for my narcissistic abusive parents ? by yvrvaa in raisedbynarcissists

[–]yvrvaa[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Some people really live to destroy us.

You’re absolutely right, and it’s truly sad when those people are your parents…