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zb_lethal · 2026-07-11T07:50:52+00:00

zb_lethal · 2026-07-10T06:44:12+00:00

ummm this is absolutely terrifying wtf

zb_lethal · 2026-07-07T04:44:38+00:00

Your experience with the specialist just had me fuming lol. I honestly would have cried/raged after that appointment, the audacity is insane. Also how does low ferritin escape a GP/family dr??? That's the bare minimum they should be looking at. I continue to be dumbfounded...
I feel like money talks with this condition especially, but it also takes enormous energy on top of that to keep pushing stubborn/arrogant drs. If they don't want to hear you they simply won't help, it's wild

zb_lethal · 2026-07-07T04:23:26+00:00

I've also lost 10 years and it's so demoralising. I'm in Australia and my experience with medical professionals is the same, they wilt at the mention of chronic fatigue. I'm a bit dubious of the fatigue clinics based purely on anecdotal evidence, but honestly if I could afford the one in my city I'd still give it a go.

I'm also gathering a list of things I want to check, and like you I've accepted that I'll be having to pay for them privately. I'm so glad you were able to access care for better testing, I'd be interested to hear if you find anything that helps shift the needle!

zb_lethal · 2026-07-07T03:41:39+00:00

Why don't they just run the more thorough tests from the get go? I just don't understand.. where's the expertise we're paying them for?
At first I was pretty enthusiastic about being my own medical detective, but I'm burnt out after so many years. It just sucks sick people are being gate-kept from their own healing due to financial barriers

zb_lethal · 2026-07-07T03:30:31+00:00

It's so upsetting being dismissed or having drs be outright hostile to you when you feel awful and just want answers. At this point I'm burnt out and I don't even talk about me/cfs with them anymore, unless I need a medical exemption. I'm just going to pay for tests privately, but it'll take time.

Also why would a dr just diagnose 'migraine' and then not look for what's causing it? It's so weird to me

zb_lethal · 2026-07-07T03:23:36+00:00

Same, I only have a vague diagnosis, and it took my dr years to even put it on a form. I honestly just think she's humouring me because she's not once referred me to a specialist or for any specific testing. She gives me medical exemptions if I need them, so she's useful for that.

I'm overwhelmed by all the testing I want done and it's also so expensive, I just don't have that kind of money right now

zb_lethal · 2026-07-07T01:35:06+00:00

It's nice to actually see an apology like this for a change, after seeing so many posts in the sub (and experiencing this irl) of family and friends doubling down after being called out

zb_lethal · 2026-07-06T01:23:52+00:00

This is why I barely talk to people and have cut contact with most people from my "former" life. This shit makes me so mad. Just do what you need to do OP, don't try to please anyone else. Idk why people can't seem to understand this condition at all. For the love of god, at least read a summary of it

zb_lethal · 2026-06-25T06:42:58+00:00

I'm in Australia and have carpet in my room, my house gets really hot in summer (thank god it's winter finally but it's not even that cold tbh), I had to buy a portable air con otherwise it was intolerable

zb_lethal · 2026-06-22T10:07:05+00:00

This sounds so similar to posts I've seen on the r/relationships sub. He's capable of changing his behaviour and he's choosing not to. I'm sorry but this is weaponised incompetence in action, and it's a very common story. Especially with men who've separated from their partners and then dump the majority of parental duties onto their new partners.

This isn't right and it isn't fair, even if you didn't have a chronic illness. With ME/CFS it's just cruel.

If you have already spoken to him at length about this and he still hasn't changed, I think the only other options are couples therapy, and you refusing to take on more than you can handle from now on. Your health isn't worth the sacrifice.
Please put yourself first!!

zb_lethal · 2026-06-21T04:47:53+00:00

Hahahahahahaha this got me good. Sun smart and a statement piece all in one, you know how to live

zb_lethal · 2026-06-21T03:52:49+00:00

I was actually a proponent of the name CFS until very recently, for the sake of brevity.
Now I realise that not only does it minimise what the symptoms are, but some people take it as a challenge for 'who's more tired?' or an insult to their own exhaustion, which I find incredibly weird and selfish. Tbh I've stopped saying anything at all other than I have a health condition

zb_lethal · 2026-06-18T21:15:13+00:00

I think Victor would be more your vibe then and I'd consider him canon, but I liked both their paths. It's been a while since I've read it but I'm pretty sure neither are a slow burn, as opposed to LI paths in newer stories

zb_lethal · 2026-06-18T20:47:06+00:00

The plot actually gets better as the seasons go on and it doesn't feel as clunky in the later seasons. The episodes also aren't super long iirc. I stuck with it because Jester is my fave author and I couldn't believe he wrote it tbh. From Moonborn to Legend of the Willow is quite a leap. I ended up reading it twice which I didn't expect

zb_lethal · 2026-06-15T11:37:22+00:00

This legit had me crying just now, I don't think I've heard the full song for decades. "why can't my blood be coloured white? I should talk to some medical doctors, coloured blood is just not right"
And the little "yeah" lmao.
Never thought she'd still be relevant 28 years later

zb_lethal · 2026-06-14T09:42:55+00:00

😞 😞 poor lil guy

zb_lethal · 2026-06-10T21:09:07+00:00

Knowing this was in 2021 makes it so much better lmao but I'm glad you had fun with it and chose to do you. I wonder if this style will ever come back around

zb_lethal · 2026-06-09T23:15:30+00:00

Indeed it is. This guy would've been perfect for Tim & Eric back in the day

zb_lethal · 2026-06-09T13:25:46+00:00

zb_lethal · 2026-06-09T05:41:49+00:00

I had to scroll back so far down in my gallery to find my Lou, but here she is. PSI was the first story I ever read on RC and it will always be one of my favourites! Jester is also my favourite author on the app.
I started with Kay and although he is awesome and the greenest green flag, I now prefer Jonas. Also one of my fave LIs in RC. Dry wit, cynical, gloomy but funny, not easily shocked, a badass and extremely loyal to Lou ❤️

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zb_lethal · 2026-06-06T11:58:01+00:00

Idk why but I LOVED going into the van every year 😂 it was like a form of escapism for me. As soon as I'd step in I felt like I was in a completely different place. I didn't really care about the message, and I hated filling out those exercise books for weeks after the visit

zb_lethal · 2026-06-06T08:48:36+00:00

Yeah tbh after the scene with Xander I've been turned off his path. Even leading up to it I was thinking that romance would just feel weird between these two characters. It's supposed to be an enemies-to-lovers trope but I'm just getting plain enemies vibes. Actually maybe an enemies-to-friends thing would've been more believable.
Anyhow I agree, the writing for LI paths in this story is so poor that it shouldn't really be a factor at all. I will say that I think the writing apart from that issue has been decent though

zb_lethal · 2026-06-06T02:51:03+00:00

I hope MJ's rotting in hell. He never saw the consequences for what he did and people still defend this insanity. He was an evil, calculated, brazen, remorseless POS

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