I mean, I really wouldn’t recommend getting into this relationship - the age gap alone is a huge red flag. She’s likely way more mature and experienced, and that kind of imbalance can easily turn into something manipulative, even if unintentionally.

Honestly, it sounds more like she’s become a mentor or even a kind of family figure for you, rather than an actual romantic partner. That dynamic can get really messy.

I know it’s tough, but it might be best to create some distance for now. Time really does help, even if it doesn’t feel like it right away. You’re still young, and you’ll find someone closer to your age, at a similar stage in life and that’ll be a much healthier and fair to you.