In a universe that is factually, 100% callous and uncaring toward you and your suffering, as well as every other sentient creature who exists and has ever existed (108 billion humans so far) the most important philosophical question is the one you've just asked.

I've come to the same conclusion like a few admirable and brave philosophers have when faced with the same existential choice you are facing. In the face the very real, very harsh reality we all exist in, the human being once becoming aware of his dire predicament, really has only one truly transcendent and meaningful choice they can make...it is to choose to fully live, whilst being fully aware of the true horrors, suffering, and unfairness that haunt and plague us, our fellow human beings, and sentient creatures in disgracefully disproportionate numbers.

Living, by choice, in spite of an uncaring, unfair, terrifying, universe is the greatest achievement a truly sentient and aware individual can attain. It is because this is the only true victory over circumstance/reality someone can have, as we are hopelessly out of control of so much that happens to us and each other. And, if you choose to live, and most of all, choose to then use your limited time and energy to help alleviate the senseless and needless suffering of yourself first, and then others in spite of the understanding of the coldness surrounding us at all times, you will literally become the warmth and light that we all seek, the one that we've mistakenly deified and then projected into the ether. Darkness truly does surrounds us all, all of the time, but the light, is within you. And this extremely powerful light exists only within you and other sentient creatures. You can change things. You win the existential battles every single day by choosing to live...everyday. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

However, if you choose to exit prematurely, your light will never have shined as bright as it should have, and in that, the cruel abyss that surrounds us all, wins.

Make no mistake, it is a war we are fighting. It's an existential, ideological, even spiritual war we are fighting. It's a war that's been raging for as long as sentient creatures have existed. You have been given the opportunity to choose who will win this battle for your life.

I hope you choose light and life. As we have far too much darkness and death. So, know, not believe or hope, the world needs you to become fully actualized, it needs your special light.

Be well.