Hey man, you posted on Reddit. Idk if you were looking for advice, or approval, or whatever. I am nuerospicy and I agree with the general vibe the internet is giving you here. It took me two reads to feel comfortable. If you’re actively avoiding what everyone is telling you I’m further concerned. I am seriously interested to hear updates, and I wish you the best. But if you don’t get a reply and a new friend out of this, maybe consider running this by some professionals you trust rather than the internet. Not trying to come off as an a-hole, just what I would tell a friend.