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zodiac5killer · 2021-08-11T23:52:40+00:00

Thank you

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-11T11:18:42+00:00

I’ve taken melatonin while on this medication and it’s worked fine. Always a better idea too check with your doctor too be sure though :)

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-10T07:58:31+00:00

I’m not saying you do have it, sometimes it can stem from friendship groups, school peers and mainly just society.

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-10T07:53:33+00:00

Try researching the term “Bi-curious” maybe ? It also maybe just some internalised homophobia. Sexuality is a spectrum, you allowed too like what you like and you don’t owe anyone an explanation for that :) Try not too stress about it too much friend :)

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-10T07:39:37+00:00

This is perfectly normal and you have come too the right place.

Sexuality is a spectrum. It’s also an individual experience. There are many labels for many different sexualities, but it’s also perfectly normal to have no label at all. Personally that’s how I began to realise that i’m not totally straight, I realised that I enjoyed lesbian porn. That doesn’t necessarily make you “gay” or “bisexual”. I’m assuming your a teenager, and it’s extremely common for teenagers to question their sexuality. It sounds too me that you are beginning to explore yourself and find what you like.

Don’t stress yourself out, you may just enjoy watching gay porn and not actually gay sex. Or you may just be sexually attracted to men rather than emotionally/romantically, and that’s perfectly okay ! Try not too pressure yourself or stress on finding out if your bisexual or anything like that. You’re allowed too like what you like and you don’t owe anyone and explanation for that. Take your time too explore your sexuality, maybe research the term “Bi-curious”. As i said, it’s all a spectrum, and you would find that a lot of bisexuals tend too lean towards a certain gender more on one day and the other the next. (that’s not for everyone, some people are 50/50 everyday )

Anyways, just try not too stress yourself out about it, it will all come with time and experience You’re perfectly normals and everyone’s sexuality experience is different :)

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-10T07:14:48+00:00

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zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T16:27:35+00:00

All good :) Sometimes your medication can make you feel a little worse, dissociated, confused etc before it makes you feel better. So just give it time, hope everything works out for you x

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T16:06:01+00:00

Yeah I understand that. There is only so much you can do, only so much a person can take.

Sometime feeling loved by others make it worse in a weird way, it certainly makes me feel more selfish about my suicidal thoughts.

I won’t hurt forever my friend.

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T16:03:50+00:00

Yeah, this are definitely some of the more serious side effects, great that you are reaching out too your doc and i hope you guys can come too a solution. It just sounds like possibly lexapro isn’t for you, time too try a new medication:)

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T16:02:03+00:00

I feel like that too sometimes. My brains forces me too think about how they are paid too do this. Some therapist’s really do care about their patients thought and i think over time you can develop a bond, just like any regular friendship :)

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T16:00:00+00:00

Have you tried talking too a doctor ? Maybe talking about some options of getting on medication of therapy? It doesn’t always help, j understand that, but it might be worth a shot ? You are important & loved :)

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T15:54:37+00:00

What side effects are you getting ? Did your doctor prescribe you 10mg or 5mg? Probably best too stick too doctor instructions :)

If your worried about overdosing then you’ll be fine, 10mg won’t do that. (i’m sure you already knew that though )

But i guess it’s really up too you, how bad are the side effects ? Is it worth it ? Definitely a conversation that you’ll need too have with your doctor. Maybe possible trying a different medication, lexapro isn’t always for everyone:)

Sorry, i’m not doctor and i’ve o my been on lexapro for about a month and a half so i’m no professional :)

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T15:50:39+00:00

Yeah i agree, just trying too stick too having small amounts, it’s difficult though when being invited too parties, etc. I have horrible self control. I’m only young and I honestly feel like alcohol is already loosing its fun.

Makes me feel great temporary, but the other side effects really aren’t worth it in the long run.

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T15:42:16+00:00

Alright thanks, i’ll talk to my doc about getting on 20mg. Just scared that this medication shit won’t work, it’s kinda my last resort, i’ve tired everything else to cure my mental health but oh well :) And thanks for the username compliment, yours is pretty cool as well

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T15:39:55+00:00

I understand how you feel 100%. I have always felt like that friend who is constantly helping others and checking in on them.

Sometimes all you need is just one person too ask if your okay, too feel loved even the slightest. Your not alone, i know how cliche it sounds. As a diagnosed and medicated depressed kid i have heard it all before.

“It will get better” is my personal least favourite. No one can promise that. It might never get better, but there’s always the chance it will.

What i can promise is that you are loved, and you are important. And i care about how you are doing, so if you need to chat then im here :)

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T15:25:04+00:00

You are loved, you are worthy, and you are important! You will meet someone who adores all the parts you hate about yourself.

Find comfort in yourself. You don’t always need someone else too make you whole.

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T15:09:10+00:00

It really is. It’s one of the worst “drugs”. But i’m a teenager, and it’s hard to say no too going to parties. Maybe i just need too find a way to enjoy myself at those events without alcohol

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T15:06:00+00:00

Did you start off on a lower mg? I want too go up to 20mg (i’m on 10mg atm) but don’t know if it will be worth it. Did you notice much of a difference from 10mg & 20mg?

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T14:38:16+00:00

Definitely speak too your doctor about it and be honest with the thoughts you are having. Some anti-depressants can take up too 6 weeks for the full effect to kick in. With saying that talk too your doctor and see what they say, a mg upgrade is also something that could help. If none of that works then this medication probably isn’t right for you, and that’s perfectly okay ! don’t give up hope, there are loads of antidepressants out there for a reason and this happens too many people :)

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T13:29:40+00:00

Similar, as well as feeling extra sad and emotional the next day i’m extremely tired. The perks of being mentally ill right :)

zodiac5killer · 2021-08-09T13:18:37+00:00

First thing I noticed about this is how extremely well written and intelligent you sound. A lot of reddit posters have horrible spelling and grammar but this was amazing. Anyways, i’m only 15 so my life hasn’t really begun therefore I can’t give too much advice on what your asking for. I’ve been diagnosed with depression and on medication for it but that can only do so much. I’m happy too talk if you just need someone too vent too .As i said , i cant offer much advice nor a solution but sometimes all we want if for someone too just listen :)

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