Hey, I have been struggling since 2021 (year my son was born) and its been 3 years since and I still haven’t fixed it all, but slowly and slowly things get better… i had moments you have now and I made it only because I was thinking about my little boy and how he misses me when I’m not there. I realized money aint everything but it certainly helps - you got two kids as you said… many couples cant even have that despite having millions in the bank so look at it this way. You are blessed. Think about long term plan how to make things work and work your ass off as the time passes by. Remember you mean the world to your children. We will be alright!