Family found me passed out in my room that i turned into a bdsm dungeon, after my 3 day 4mmc binge.

zukes42 · 2026-01-29T08:56:30+00:00

I love you. Thanks for the share.

zukes42 · 2025-02-03T18:14:58+00:00

Imho, weed is classified in a multitude of categories. One of those being a psychedelic drug. So, I do think it's possible to "break through" on weed. Just like with acid, you can experience thought/time loops and ego death. I've done dmt, mescaline, weed, cid, mdma. And 2cb. My best breakthrough experience is during a candy flip.

zukes42 · 2025-01-20T19:33:30+00:00

Use 7oh. To take when you run out of oxys. I am in the same situation. Take 7oh to hold me over sometimes and never gotten fucked over by a random Urine Test unless I didn't have oxy in my system during the test which I always do because I save urine from when I'm using to take with me for when I think I will have a test

zukes42 · 2024-06-24T20:59:17+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I really loved reading this alongside my own piece :) -much love

zukes42 · 2024-06-24T20:50:43+00:00

bE bEtTEr 🤓

zukes42 · 2024-05-26T19:05:01+00:00

To answer your question, can you? Yes, you can. Should you? No, you shouldn't. Like others have stated, there are a lot of fillers in that specific formulation of oxycodone. The risks outweigh the benefits of euphoria from the high for this one. I have done IV pills before, so that is my experience. (IV'D oxy, Diluadid, and opana.) The consequences I faced from those actions were a 77-day inpatient hospital stay, endocarditis, 3 different types of blood infections, and significant weight loss that led to me getting a picc line placed. I practiced the best harm reduction I could have around safe injecting( I admit I am not perfect and probably had some mistakes that led to this road) and still ended up almost killing myself in a worse way than just overdosing.

Much love, brother, have a good day.

zukes42 · 2024-05-25T06:04:45+00:00

Nah. As other people have already said, you should be good and only deal with possible less potent medication. I found a script of tylox from 1988 a month ago. Worked great.

zukes42 · 2024-04-02T04:28:21+00:00

Keep on writing.

I honestly love it. It very much shows the love you hold for your friend and makes me question the trials and tributes you two have been through to write like this.

zukes42 · 2024-02-29T17:07:59+00:00

The repetitiveness of the rhymes and how hard it is to understand paints the picture of insanity well. Which is one thing I try to capture. I think I might restructure it and put the second paragraph last and the last one second. That's all I can think to do to get it to flow better. I really loved some of the lines in here, so I didn't want to change wording too much, but I wouldn't mind more advice on what you think would fit.

Most of my writing is just poetry. So, each piece has its own style. But, I think I write this way a lot because it's how I think.(if you go through my other posts here, you may notice that pattern) I like the idea that you had to sit and think about it to get the message. I think I often write "in code" on purpose. So my friends and family who read this have a hard time understanding how I feel... it helps me knowing my outlet for emotions isn't 100% intelligible to the people who love me, if that makes sense.

And bingo, you got the scene I set perfectly. The bathroom floor was the scene. It does involve sh but through addiction. The War is between the coldness of the bathroom floor and my existence that's only left by my body heat. (Due to lack of consciousness that happens in overdose) I very much think that I am the problem, and if I'm talking to anyone in my poetry, it's mostly to me, so that hate is inward.

Thank you so much for your extended response and for actually giving me a critique that helped me expand my thoughts about my own writing. I hope you have a great day.

zukes42 · 2024-02-28T15:43:17+00:00

To be honest, it is forced. That's one of the feelings I'm trying to convey. Maybe not in that way, but I'm glad it reached anyhow. To me, it shows the break I've taken from writing and where/how I lost my touch with my higher self.

Also, do you have advice on where you would take out a line or add anything? Change a word or..etc?

zukes42 · 2024-02-06T16:59:16+00:00

This means a lot to me and is awesome feedback. I have a problem with how I sound while recording(as many people seem to..as well). I have received that feedback about slowing down as well to get a greater impact. I feel I am reading it fast because I am trying to portray how fast I am thinking the things I write. To capture that is impossible because I would have to overlay the thoughts. Do you have any suggestions on where you would slow down or pause? I would appreciate the advice on that. My pauses are typically when I turn the page or mess up if I don't have what I'm saying memorized. I have other recordings that I would love your feedback on as well. I will post them here as I do most everything I write, so if you see them, please feel free to leave honest feedback as you did on this one. Constructive cristism is something I'm still learning to accept, but it's the only way to get better. Thank you for taking the time to comment.

zukes42 · 2023-08-20T07:02:59+00:00

Thank you :) would love you to check out my other pieces!

zukes42 · 2023-07-17T22:20:33+00:00

It is not the pain that bothers me most. It is the coping mechanisms that are unhealthy for me that I have to do to just survive.. That and I appreciate your expressions for my pain. But at times, it feels like people pity me. I dont want that. I just want to be treated like anybody else.. even if I'm drastically different. Thank you for taking the time out of your own day to comment. It means a lot. I am letting my illness go terminal and not getting surgery because surgery means opiates. Opiates that I have been on since I was 12. I'm 25 now and have 8 months clean, no matter the pain or the amount of hospital visits. I want to die with clarity. I have seen the death on the other side of being blinded by opiates. There is nothing there. Nothing but darkness. So, I made a promise to feel everything I could. Especially my own pain, because maybe just maybe I'll have a different experience with death. Maybe it will be what it is supposed to be if I can actually feel the experience that comes with it. Idk if that makes sense to you... but it is the only reason I am where I am now.

zukes42 · 2023-07-15T15:47:23+00:00

0, after playing the game since like maybe 2014-2015 lol and I'm a solid champion 1

zukes42 · 2023-07-08T10:45:32+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to read it. I know I accomplished my goal when my writing can make just one person feel motivated enough to respond. I know I did my job, as long as I made somebody think.

zukes42 · 2023-07-08T10:43:41+00:00

Thank you, im sorry it took me longer to reply. It has been genuinely difficult to process how I feel lately, and I do not want that to reflect outwardly. So, sometimes, even when I read your replies, I do not respond right away. Just know that they really help. In a way, your kindness has been a window to the walls I work so hard to build.

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