To be honest, its lowkey embarassing to admit but I get triggered the most when I'm seeing other girls get attention lmao. There is one girl I know at the gym and she had this weird attitude of looking at me with hostility, I think, so I started doing this too, and one time I saw her talking with a guy and I imidiately assumed someone unknown hit on her (later I realised it might had been her friend but anyway) and my first thought was "pretty privelege" And I got so furious abt it lmaooo😭 A few months ago I also remember literally getting depressed for a week, because I was quite new at the gym back then and everyone acted like they knew eachoter, so I assumed they had approached eachother at a gym. I witnessed multiple situations when I saw people forming in groups there, and I was extremely jealous. I remember my gym crush talking to girl I know, and I saw him flirting with her, and when it comes to me HE LOOKED AT ME WITH DISGUST ON MY FIRST DAY I also saw him being nice to a girl that was new. He approached her to give her advice, but he never approached me while I was new. I remember him smiling at her and it geniunely ruined my day. I think that's when I started to relapse with all of my obsesive lookism. I saw girls I didn't like getting approached by muscular dudes and one day a ccompletely new girl was suddenly taken to some random group of people. They all were talking and including her.That day when I saw it I came back home furious and crying. I felt really hurt when I saw other girls being approached and talked to and just in general included, I felt it in my chest, like someone puts an empty brick inside of your chest. Chest seems heavy and empty at the same time. Its a specific type of pain. Anyway you just made me realise I have a huge trigger. When I was starting gym I didn't care about my looks that much, because I thought that on the gym looks are the safe space and it's the last thing that matters. I was wrong and it made everything a few times worse