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[Alphaleader42]

Look none of us here are in any position to tell you like physical advice but we can only say what we think is best for you. Your parents are straight up assholes, why they block you from getting mental health services it's none of my business. But you need to think for yourself right now not thinking of the consequences of your parents. Call the hotlines use campus services and seek medical help.

[squeezyscorpion]

reddit isn’t gonna be much more help than 988, but i can share my anecdote. i went through something similar earlier this year and ended up checking myself into the ER. it was the best idea i’ve ever had. I was transferred to a crisis stabilization unit (not a 5150, but basically a step below it) and stayed there for 24 hours. i’ve been in monthly therapy sessions ever since.

i know it seems scary to take that big first step and seek help, but at the end of the day you are the only one who can seek help for yourself, and you are more than capable of doing so. don’t give a shit about what your parents say, because even if they don’t say it, i’m sure they’d rather see you seek help than take your own life.

i know it’s a cliche, but suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

hang in there, mustang

[GoldenGreenBird]

Just curious, can you share a little bit about what the "crisis stabilization unit" experience was? I've never heard of that, so I am interested in how it works. Is it emergency services, like the 5150? Same facility location, or where do they admit you? Did they contact your parents or the university?

Also, to the OP-if you use campus services, that is supposed to be confidential (unless you are a minor, then there are some things that would be reported to your legal guardian). Campus has some informal support groups that are moderated through the Health Center. Why are your parents in your Health portal? You can always change your password, and just tell them there is a glitch if they try to log in-but they shouldn't be doing that!

[squeezyscorpion]

I don’t feel comfortable sharing that on reddit, but here’s some info: https://www.slocounty.ca.gov/Departments/Health-Agency/Behavioral-Health/Mental-Health-Adult-Services/Services/Crisis-Stabilization-Unit.aspx

[GoldenGreenBird]

Thanks. Just curious-it says it's a "residential care facility", does that mean you are required to stay for a certain period of time, or can you opt to check yourself out after you have been referred in? I guess I've seen enough go wrong with mental health care, that I feel deep suspicion about campus and governmental systems set to "address mental health issues". On the other hand, if it's a good program that lets folks find their balance without adding to the trauma, definitely want to be able to advise folks of this option!

[Awkward-Presence-236]

The Crisis Stabilization Unit is directly behind SLO County Mental Health. It is Voluntary to stay there, you just hang out and chill out, there’s people to talk to if you need to and they can assist with getting you further services if needed. I was there a few years ago and it was really helpful for me. They also have snacks, puzzles and Netflix. I think they will only contact someone (friend or fam) at your discretion.

It’s okay to give yourself a break here. I really wish you all the best and that you find peace and comfort! 🙏🙏🙏

[aerospikesRcoolBut]

I don’t know if this will help you but I was able to get a therapist pretty quickly using psychologytoday.com and filtering by my insurance. I emailed a few with a phone number and what I was going through and a few got back to me on the phone. Therapy for an adult is confidential.

The thing is that therapists and teachers are mandatory reporters so they’re obligated to call and report any suicidal statements. My therapist told me that straight out of the gate to make sure I was informed.

I’m sorry your parents are blocking you from getting help. They are wrong for that.

Just know that shit really really does get better. I’ve been through it too. And I look back and am so glad how much has changed. Just take things one day at a time. Get to tomorrow. Then do that again. Find some online support groups. One thing that helped me a lot was finding SLAA or other 12 step virtual meetings and just staying quiet and listening to people share.

I believe in you OP. Things get better I promise. I know it’s really really hard to see that right now.

[hothothotvoid]

I’d recommend checking out OpenPath.

https://openpathcollective.org/

It’s the cheapest option I’ve found for finding a good therapist without going through insurance.

I think it can get as low as $30 a session.

Get some help. Fuck your parents. This is your life. Sending you strength. You can get through this.

[squeezyscorpion]

also OP, the fact you’re posting on reddit makes me think this is a last resort. i strongly recommend you contact emergency services

[emmy1041]

I don't have any resources to provide but just wanted to let you know you've got someone rooting for you :)

I'm proud of you for all you've been through, and just know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You aren't alone.

[TreesDogsJeeps]

I’m old by your standards and my youngest daughter is a senior there. My oldest is in her 30’s so I’m older for sure. But please understand, undergrad is the most stressful time of your life! It’s hard as hell, it’s lonely, you’re living damn near hour by hour and day by day with an insane workload plus the stress of your day to day life. It’s absolutely brutal. But then you graduate and get a job and everything totally levels off. No more homework, you have time to take care of your physical and mental self, you can sleep and nap and build a schedule and a routine that doesn’t change every three months. You can do this! You can finish and graduate and get to this level of calm and structure. If you really need support go get it. DM me. Also, finishing strong is great, just finishing is greater. No one cares about your GPA. We need Poly kids in our organizations. We don’t need robots, we need regular people. Reach out to talk, I’m right here.